I am 13 years old from Pleven. In short, from a young mother she taught me to solve my problems culturally, without a fight. And obviously that's the reason for my problem. So ... When I got a little older, ie when I entered puberty, my face changed a little, but it didn't get ugly, I don't have pimples or cellulite, because I train. I am 1.75 tall and weigh 57 kg. I change my clothes every day, I bathe regularly, I can say that I am not a bad student, but the boys do not like me, they call me a witch, a monster in front of other people, for example a person who does not know me behaves well with me and then some tell him - everyone calls her the monster and so many people already call me that and I'm so obsessed with this role that others don't like me, that for example I do a haircut in our house, I go out in front of the front door and spoil it ,, because I feel ugly and when I walk down the street I seem to imagine that everyone who passes by me laughs at me and looks at me strangely. I say to myself- What do you care what others think I'm me, there are passengers for every train, but I still can't stand that everyone insults me, I have a girl, I dare not call her a friend, because in this world I know from experience that there are no friends, so with this girlfriend feel different. We talk about boys, but in general it seems like my world is different, but she is otherwise very beautiful and most boys like her very much. A few months ago I tried to cut my veins, but my mother caught me and told me - Are you crazy? But I can't take it anymore, I once cut my hands with scissors and now I have almost imperceptible scars on my upper arm. Every day I hope that when I grow up I will rub their noses and everyone will pay, but until then there is so much time that I just don't know how it will last and I think this time to throw myself from some block or to suffocate, by the way I tried once , but I said to myself- What do you do, if you die your mother will not bear it, your father ... I am not obliged to cause them pain because of my misfortune. I have the feeling that there is some magic on me and I really want a fortune teller to watch me. But I'm afraid she might tell me a lot of bad things about the future and just think about it. Thank you for reading my story, although I have told you 2/4 of all my troubles. I will ask you to encourage me with something, because at the moment I refrain from committing suicide just because I do not want to hurt my loved ones. I feel like I'm going crazy, but life, even though it has given me a great family, obviously punishes me for never betraying a friend and allowing myself to offend only one boy, and that was because I tried to be bad, because that's how I can be life changed, but was it life? - to describe it. :)
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Well, you know ... when you're good to others, you ALWAYS SUFFER. Obviously, it's time to start being a little more selfish and stick to your own. You can't consider others and listen to people's opinions all your life. You should also walk the streets with confidence and not look like a victim. If someone insults or criticizes you, YOU MUST TELL HIM SO THAT SHE SHOULD BE ASHAMED AND WANT TO SINK INTO THE BOTTOM OF THE EARTH. That's all you need, I'm telling you
You wrote the answer to all your questions and problems at the beginning of your story, namely "I am 13 years old" .. I can tell you that at this age a person does not think normally .. usually whatever you do, later you will perceive it as a mistake. And your biggest mistake will be to take your own life .. This is a hell of a stupid thing to do, considering your 13 years of age .. You haven't seen anything in your life! What you wrote about are not problems .. these are your own complexes, which obviously have nowhere to kill .. One very important thing you need to know .. well .. in order for people to like you, you must first you learn to like yourself .. Work on yourself and learn .. this is the only good thing you can do for this moment .. Start by changing the things you don't like about yourself .. And by no means do you think about suicides and self-harm ... IT'S FUNNY! and it's a pity! .. .. You will not feel when time will pass and you will be 17-18 .. then do you know how you will live .. ??
Do not be silly! Every time you encounter difficulty, ask yourself the question - Will it matter in 10 years? I see that the young generation is now exactly as you describe it. Eating is a greater achievement than reading a good book. There are passengers for each train. (: And one last thing - "I was sad that I didn't have shoes until I saw a man without legs."
When you grow up everything will change - that's what my mom tells me and I think it's true and I'm 13 years old.
From the author: Thank you very much. I really needed to share. :)
Hey, it makes me very sad to know. I don't hear such thoughts ... The children / I can call you that since I was my age / are very cruel to each other. They have no measure, and if one says something, the others take it, as if it were a lot of fun. Especially if they see you're tied up. Watch your learning, take care of yourself and you will see that things will turn around. You are 13, so you are still in primary school, a technical school and new friends and so many new things are waiting for you. And because it's anonymous here, I'll tell you something I don't remember fondly. I was terribly tall until the 8th grade, I kept standing first in line physically and I wanted to sink to the ground in shame. My boys came up with the nickname "the mare" And then, with my stupid head, instead of telling them that they were underdeveloped plugs, I wondered how to bend over so as not to look so tall. Well, time has passed, I experienced it, in college I became "Queen of the ball" of the prom, then of the graduate too :) So :) And those guys who once called me "the mare" broke off to invite me to go out, already grown in height :) I understand with all of them, I am not angry with them. Abe lucky that decent people we grew up, now all with families. So what I wanted to tell you is that around your age you are all very cruel .... including you to yourself .... Smile at the world! I smile at you :) now all with families. So what I wanted to tell you is that around your age you are all very cruel .... including you to yourself .... Smile at the world! I smile at you :) now all with families. So what I wanted to tell you is that around your age you are all very cruel .... including you to yourself .... Smile at the world! I smile at you :)