I don't know where to start, I'm 25, and every time my life has passed, I feel so old, so suffering, I went through so many difficulties, I lost many of my loved ones, I learned to survive alone. During this period there was absolutely no one next to me, my parents died at 17, however, I graduated with a master's degree, I experienced my pain alone, my best friend went to London, my parents died, I had no friend to support me and still managed everything. I didn't go the wrong way, as they say, I succeeded and I don't know exactly how, maybe because I was raised in a good family, with a good value system. I came across life very early, I failed to live my best years, for me everything was survival and now I look back and see some lost years. I will ask myself why I say so, I have managed to do everything, to cope, but during these years I did not live, I only suffered and survived and survived again. I did not succumb to the temptation to sell my soul and body ... I was on the right path, and now I see that not these women are happy and successful, others have succeeded who are ready to sell for a car or even a garment. Men pamper them for them and even marry them. You will ask me why I want to be like them, am I not strong I don't want to be strong anymore, I want to feel weak and fragile and for someone to be by my side and protect me, because I am a woman and no matter how strong we are, we will always remain women - fragile, vulnerable, in need of protection, support. I didn't have one, I'm used to it, but it hurts so much, I feel so old, and I look 20 or 21 years old, but I don't feel that way. Now I remember with nostalgia for the time when I was 16, 17, 18 years old and I think anxiously about the time after 30. I have the feeling that I lost my youth, although even strangers give me 19 20 years. The problem is that I don't feel that way, I feel like I'm 40. She's been through so many trials, lost loved ones, with a broken heart. I can only say one thing is AWFUL! I realize that the years go by and that I am getting older, and I have not seen anything good. They say that there was a crisis of 25-year-olds in Bulgaria, this is not very common, but maybe something is true, but I know it is a terrible period of balance and nostalgia. I realize that I will never go back in time and live these years like that. like my peers! although even strangers give me 19 20 years. The problem is that I don't feel that way, I feel like I'm 40. She's been through so many trials, lost loved ones, with a broken heart. I can only say one thing is AWFUL! I realize that the years go by and that I am getting older, and I have not seen anything good. They say that there was a crisis of 25-year-olds in Bulgaria, this is not very common, but maybe something is true, but I know it is a terrible period of balance and nostalgia. I realize that I will never go back in time and live these years like that. like my peers! although even strangers give me 19 20 years. The problem is that I don't feel that way, I feel like I'm 40. She's been through so many trials, lost loved ones, with a broken heart. I can only say one thing is AWFUL! I realize that the years go by and that I am getting older, and I have not seen anything good. They say that there was a crisis of 25-year-olds in Bulgaria, this is not very common, but maybe something is true, but I know it is a terrible period of balance and nostalgia. I realize that I will never go back in time and live these years like that. like my peers!
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I have the same feeling about myself. Life is not justice, not all of us have an equal start, not all of us experience more good than bad moments, we are not equal by definition. My salvation is in the hope that the best is yet to come. I hope you find happy moments too.
Well, I don't think you should feel old at all. You just saw a lot of things and became more experienced for your age;) The difficulties in life have made you a sober thinking person and you think very differently from your sets. I think you need to relax and do some stupid things that go to a 16-year-old and have some fun. Give it a little more irresponsible.
First I regret your loss, you had a very hard life. I'm glad you did. I hope you are right about the crisis at 25 and I am that old and I still think so. I am sorry for the decisions made and sometimes, like you, I torture myself. I constantly feel so tired, not physically but mentally, I want to take a break and not think about anything for at least one day, but I can't, my thoughts are constantly harassing me and I can't get out of my head. Or maybe it's something else, and you and I have reached our goal, but now? Maybe we need something new to keep us on our feet? But I don't like anything at all, I don't know what to do with them. Let's hope we find our way here. ~ RAMONA ~~
Hello dear! I don't know what to tell you to relieve you a little, but no one in this world, unfortunately, is insured against death. Some leave earlier, others later. From me you have a big THANK YOU for dealing with life! If I lose my relatives, God forbid, I will not cope like you, because I am a great coward, and you are a strong woman. And there is nothing to feel old about - you are 25, life is in front of you, you can meet love when you least expect it, to start a family even ... No matter how sad you are, it would be best not to you immerse yourself more in the past, but only look ahead. It's easy to say yes, but you are a strong woman, and if you have the desire, I think you will succeed this time too! Maybe you feel "old" because you grew up prematurely and handled things, which most of your age have not encountered ... but this in no way makes you older, but more mature and perhaps wiser! I wish you a lot of happiness, luck and love in the future!
I understand! The saddest thing is not in the sadness, but in the lost .. Especially if it's time .. Look, I absolutely understand you and I don't know what to tell you, except .. So far you have lost enough, it's over, but the choice is yes you keep wasting time or living it beautifully and fully is YOURS and it really is a CHOICE. If Bg doesn't like you and doesn't give you joy - leave her. If you don't like a man, leave him immediately. The same with friends .. Reset your attitudes .. There is love. There is unexpected happiness. There are many joys in this world. I was in your situation, I often remember it and I start to see in the black and past, and future, and present .. But it is not. Regarding the parents - I'm very sorry, I can't help it anymore, I don't know what to tell you , this is the hardest thing - for sure! Would it work if I told you they didn't stand a chance? !! They are not alive, they can't live, love, etc., and your physique is alive, but your soul is dying .. Help yourself as you see fit and just remember - if you lose faith and bend, you lose everything .. You won't there are more dreams and in fact there will be nothing! I hope from the bottom of my heart that you help yourself !!! I wish you more joys and an open heart so that you can accept them and give them a stimulus for life! :))) And one more thing - if I have to, change the environment !!!
Now I read again - you describe who "won" in this life - hahahahaha, BE CAREFUL. :) The fact that the world is full of idiots does not mean that they are right .. Don't think about it at all, because you don't know at what price, they pay for their idiocy! :) About how you will live your life, what will be walking, etc., you are right ONLY and ONLY you! And about the world and change - well, think how good we are when it comes to different biologists. species to ruin each other .. I'm talking about humans, nature and animals .. Well - do you call it prosperity and civilization? It is very clear that it is the same with other things ... The only thing that has not changed is human evolution, otherwise technology is 6, unlike total degradation and simplification as a way of life!
You raise your head, you tighten, you keep moving forward. The soul has no age, you are mentally and emotionally exhausted, you probably need rest. Find a man who loves you, because the women you buy are only for temporary use, you remember.
"They say there was a crisis of 25-year-olds in Bulgaria, it's not very common, but maybe something is true, but I know it's a terrible period of balance and nostalgia." It's like describing me, but with the difference that you're a woman . As for the crisis of 25-year-olds - I have been in this situation since I was 17-18 years old. Apparently I was in a hurry to join the group of unhappy people. This feeling of old age is most often due to the fact that you matured earlier than your peers and had time to think more about things in life, while they were just wondering which disco to go to and who to "hit" .
The author Thank you for your wishes! I was very pleased to see your support, even though I do not know you. I hope to realize soon, in fact, I have already decided it, even though I do not have the strength and I am quite tired. I keep going, I will get everything I want from life and the things I dream of will happen to me. I went through so much and I deserve to be happy and I will be happy I know there is a way out and this time I will find it During my difficult moments I always repeated a sentence It doesn't matter how many times you fell but whether you got back on your feet again Success to everyone!
And it could have been worse, I feel 17 and it's like I'm old