Hello, I'm 18. I dropped out of school. The stupidest reason - eating. I turn away from myself. I stopped going out, I stopped wanting boyfriends, friends, I'm ashamed to go out. My whole body is covered with dark moss, I don't think I have any hairs in my eyes. Before, they weren't who, who knows what problem, but they started to get bigger. I took a break to try to become normal, and I became a monster. I don't even want to go in to take a bath, because I have to see this nasty body, which was partly my fault, and these hairs, what a horror. Who would like such a freak. The summer was great, I was skinny, well-groomed, smiling. Lately I think about suicide quite often, I feel that I will weigh on my parents and my brothers, I will be a burden and a disappointment. I do not study, I do not work, a complete failure. Everyone would say and I'm lazy, for sure. In my opinion, people like me have no place in this world, I feel like a mistake, robbing only the worst of their parents. The mental problems of my biological father, as well as his nasty hair :( I can still do something about it, live, lose weight, go to a beautician, etc. Mostly I see expenses and not out of my pocket, not that My parents are not wealthy, but it's a pity to ask for money from them, I've always said to myself that I won't be like that, but obviously a person becomes what he doesn't want: D I know very well why this happened, there's no point in talking with a psychologist.I am aware of my grief and ego, which is already for the bucket.The best solution is for suicide to rid itself and others of a monster capable only of complaining and eating.It was not alcohol, drugs, cigarettes , sex, now food .... Poor Katrinka,
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Maybe it's time to stop feeling like a complete failure, take matters into your own hands! When you start taking care of yourself again, you will see that you will feel better. Now it may seem pointless to you, but you better start doing something about it, as you said yourself, you still can. One feels good when one looks good (ie maintained, etc.) and vice versa. Your problems are not unsolvable, so act! No one but you can help you.
I am a 20-year-old boy, I want to tell you that the weak think about suicide, and only people who have lost absolutely all faith in themselves. It would have been very difficult for me to advise you if you had not mentioned that you are 18 years old. Hell, you're only 18 years old, you have your whole life ahead of you, what are you waiting for? You have all the time in the world to change. Change your thinking about yourself first and everything will fall into place and don't worry about your parents' money. security will help you in the end they are just a means, and the end justifies the means. Your goal is to change and you have all the qualities and opportunities to do so. Just believe in yourself and don't lose faith, and at the same time don't care about the people around you,
Tighten it up !!! What are these thoughts about suicide and the like. There are no ideal people. And only God can judge you. There are no sinless ones, you know! Take matters into your own hands, under the influence of depression you become a real monster. However, I am convinced that this is not the case. Every problem has a solution, as long as you look for it. Go to the doctor, to the beautician, to everything you need. Treat yourself, there is a solution. Keep learning compulsory and don't ruin your young life and your parents. You have to find strength, you just have to. And you will be grateful in time, because life is good. Just give him a chance to be like that !!! It's all up to you, don't give up for anything in the world !!! Listen to me!
I advise you to start the change. There is no perfect happiness, there will always be problems, but you have to look for solutions to them, not to stand idly by and feel sorry for yourself and think that this is just your destiny. Start loving yourself by taking care of yourself - please yourself, but also be disciplined. You don't have to have a lot of money to support yourself. At first, find a job - whatever it is - for example, a saleswoman or a supermarket - so you will both be engaged and you will collect money and you will feel more complete and with higher self-confidence. Then, go to a beautician or doctor to advise you on the hairs that bother you. Take care of your figure - search the Internet - it is full of aerobics programs or exercises. Create a diet - eat when you are hungry and moderate - to feel good. Get out - use every opportunity to be outside. Then consider continuing your education or write something else down. Calm down - life is in front of you and you can manipulate it!
The truth is that only you can help yourself. That's what I'm telling you - a bulimic / it's been mine for a long time, but I haven't had any thoughts of suicide / I won't say ex, because sometimes I "go crazy" again :). Yes, I gained weight, after my crises / sometimes 4-5 times a day overeating, vomiting, scales, vicious circle .... /, I closed myself in, I isolated myself, but I always took myself in hand and I am got up. I hope those dark days are really behind me ... In fact, you just need love and understanding, even attention / with this I connect your periods of food, alcohol, sex, etc./, but this is not possible to happen if you don't realize ... that you have to love yourself first. do an experiment when you have a bulimic crisis - for those soothing, greasy, harmful, fatty, pasta foods, stand in front of the mirror and look at yourself, while you do it. Yes, as you swallow it all, watch your reaction, your expression, your feverish trampling .... Sharing helped me. With my mother, with my brother, with my friends. I stopped hiding about this problem of mine when I realized I CAN'T do it anymore. That I was slowly getting lost. That was my best decision. I went to psychoanalysts, I took antidepressants, but what helped me was my desire to make things better. Think about what you fill with this food. This is a hole. Emotional hole, emptiness, loneliness? Start a regular sport, find a hobby, force yourself to go out. Today for a little, tomorrow for more, see good friends, sincere ones with whom you can talk calmly, even cry ... Think positively, take care of yourself - a new hairstyle, homemade face masks, Summer was happy and then were there any hairs? How did you remove them? Don't neglect yourself, don't give up, because you are in the most wonderful age, you have so much ahead of you ... You have to be engaged. Inaction breeds vices. Watch comedies, listen to beautiful music, smile, go out, sing, live and most importantly - Love yourself :)))