I am a 21 year old girl. I've been obsessed with losing weight for a long time. In fact, I don't remember a period in my life when I didn't worry about my weight. Yes, even when I was ten. I have been suffering from bulimia since the beginning of September. I don't even know, I can't make my own diagnoses. I'm just afraid of gaining weight and I also want to lose weight. I have been vomiting for several months after eating. If it seems to me that it is a lot or not in my diet. I try to just reduce the food, but it doesn't always work out. I am hungry and I love this feeling. It makes me happy with myself. I am intoxicated by the feeling of control and watching my body transform day by day. I love it when the bones start to see through. one grapefruit for breakfast and two tomatoes for lunch are enough for me. I'm vegan. I only eat fruits and vegetables. I generally did not eat meat. And if I eat something else of animal origin, I vomit. Every day.
That doesn't mean all the food is gone. I am 173 cm tall and weigh 59 kg. When I started after the new year I was 69. So fat that I don't know how I was patient at all. I constantly watch blogs with pictures of skinny girls and I want to be like them. I fail in everything else, I can't do anything and this is my salvation. I know I have a problem, but I don't want to be fat, I want to gain at least 55 kg and then just keep them and stop. But I can't wait, I can't wait! To regain my previous weight - never! I would starve for life. I don't want to stop, I haven't told anyone about it, I can't do it because I don't want to be stopped. But I really wanted to share it with someone. that all the food is gone. I am 173 cm tall and weigh 59 kg. When I started after the new year I was 69. So fat that I don't know how I was patient at all. I constantly watch blogs with pictures of skinny girls and I want to be like them. I fail in everything else, I can't do anything and this is my salvation. I know I have a problem, but I don't want to be fat, I want to gain at least 55 kg and then just keep them and stop. But I can't wait, I can't wait! To regain my previous weight - never! I would starve for life. I don't want to stop, I haven't told anyone about it, I can't do it because I don't want to be stopped. But I really wanted to share it with someone. that all the food is gone. I am 173 cm tall and weigh 59 kg.
When I started after the new year I was 69. So fat that I don't know how I was patient at all. I constantly watch blogs with pictures of skinny girls and I want to be like them. I fail in everything else, I can't do anything and this is my salvation. I know I have a problem, but I don't want to be fat, I want to gain at least 55 kg and then just keep them and stop. But I can't wait, I can't wait! To regain my previous weight - never! I would starve for life. I don't want to stop, I haven't told anyone about it, I can't do it because I don't want to be stopped. But I really wanted to share it with someone. with pictures of skinny girls and I want to be like them. I fail in everything else, I can't do anything and this is my salvation. I know I have a problem, but I don't want to be fat, I want to gain at least 55 kg and then just keep them and stop. But I can't wait, I can't wait! To regain my previous weight - never! I would starve for life. I don't want to stop, I haven't told anyone about it, I can't do it because I don't want to be stopped. But I really wanted to share it with someone. with pictures of skinny girls and I want to be like them. I fail in everything else, I can't do anything and this is my salvation. I know I have a problem, but I don't want to be fat, I want to gain at least 55 kg and then just keep them and stop. But I can't wait, I can't wait! To regain my previous weight - never! I would starve for life.
I don't want to stop, I haven't told anyone about it, I can't do it because I don't want to be stopped. But I really wanted to share it with someone. I would starve for life. I don't want to stop, I haven't told anyone about it, I can't do it because I don't want to be stopped. But I really wanted to share it with someone. I would starve for life. I don't want to stop, I haven't told anyone about it, I can't do it because I don't want to be stopped. But I really wanted to share it with someone.
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Not eating is not just possible, you have to move a lot. Every day I walk 2 km walking to work and 2 km returning home. At work, I'm also on the move. I don't have breakfast, I don't have lunch because I don't have time, I have dinner when I go home and eat whatever I want to eat, enough to fill me up. I was about 70-75 kg at a height of 1. 69, I have been 49.5 kg for 7 months now and I have not moved. I mostly cook - soups, rice, potatoes, lentils, eat and salami. Walking boosts metabolism and after eating I go to the toilet. I can't understand how much pleasure it gives you to torment yourself, even when I roared that I was an elephant I didn't bother to vomit
My story sounds fictional, for the simple reason that you realize that you have a problem and admit it to yourself. This is not at all typical of diseases such as drug addiction, which includes bulimia. If what you say is true, then instead of sharing it with us here, share it with your mother, she would understand you and help you. This is a mental disorder of yours - your psyche does not see the image in the mirror, but some other image - nasty, ugly, fat, which must be "eradicated" by vomiting or not eating. Keep in mind that this disease is very dangerous, usually fatal. That is, in short, if you do not want to die so young - immediately share with your parents. Let's find a solution together. I'm sure you're very beautiful and now, I'm even convinced that you do not need to lose weight baby. So,
Be sure to seek help from somewhere! This is my advice.
From the author: Yes, I am aware that I have a problem. In any case, bulimia is a disease that includes overeating for hours and vomiting, which I do not have. I eat little or normally and vomit again. These days I managed to spend on soup and teas, but today the same story. Food and weight are the only things I can control in my life right now. I am a third year student outside my hometown, and not eating in any way relieves me of tension and stress. 90% of my thoughts are just about weight loss and food. My parents notice that I am losing weight, but I lie to them that I eat normally. I throw food, I give it to the animals and now in a supermarket there is a campaign to donate food to the poor and the desserts went there. Or I give them to friends, roommates. But despite that everything in my head is a little hell of this control and the transformation I observe as I lose weight make me feel happier than ever. It's just that when I get the ideal weight all the problems will disappear and I will be happier, liked and beautiful.
Hello. I am also vegan. Do you know it's good to take Zinc, Vit. D, Iodine (kelp for example), B12 and maybe taurine? These are most likely missing in this type of diet. Write to ********@gmail.com;) / Moderator7 - We do not publish personal data.
To those who have not suffered from the insidiousness of this mental disorder, it is good not to give incompetent advice. Parents are not always able to understand the situation of their child.