They compare anorexia to drug addiction. We are the so-called "risk group" There is no former anorexic, alcoholic or drug addict. Drug addicts are constantly increasing their dose, anorexics, no matter how much they lose weight, are not enough. Addicts do not feel well if they are not intoxicated, anorexic if they eat. Everyone has heard of abstinence crises, anorexics get into a crisis if they eat or if they gain a few pounds. For me, "healing" will be one of the worst things that can happen to me. Periods of "improvement" are like being in a black hole, in purgatory. These periods of "improvement" prevent me from reaching the ideal weight, ruin my life .... I am so afraid of not gaining the lost weight in the winter ..... I do not know what I will do if I gain weight again .... I will die , if I gain more than 50 kg again .... I have to keep losing weight .. .. I can't stop now, when I have reached so far, when I have achieved so much, I just can't ... And I don't know if I will ever be able, and I will hardly ever want to. At most, for a while, something would distract me and a period of "improvement" would follow. I must not allow it for anything in the world .... Too much is never enough. I always want more and more .... I have lost 7-8 kg, but I need more. I have so many clothes, shoes, cosmetics and things, and I buy new ones and new ones .... I know how it will affect my budget, but something draws me to the shops. Then with the casino shopping bags. Sometimes I win, but of course I lose more often. Sometimes after a casino I have no money for days. And I want to bet more and more .... I have an acquaintance with whom I got along very well. I haven't seen him in a long time now because he's detained for possession of heroin. He probably won't be convicted, but we'll hardly see each other soon. I've been thinking about him a lot lately. We are quite similar, we have a lot in common. Not just anorexia / drug addiction. And he went to casinos, he doesn't have much desire to be "cured", he doesn't like being tied up and given a tone in life ... And he kept saying that I look even better since I lost weight, everyone tells me that I am weak enough and that I do not need to lose weight. It just makes me nervous, I hate that "concern." He's hardly as crazy and nasty as I am, but still, it wouldn't hurt to make friends. In fact, I don't care so much about true friendship. I prefer to receive than to give. Not to mention love, commitment, fidelity ... I've never had a relationship. I have "sex buddies". I love short-term adventures, overnight sex, flirting. Why is it my commitment? What is a serious relationship or marriage for me? This contradicts everything I do and everything I believe in. I don't like anyone to interfere in my endeavors, to give me a tone in life. How will I comply with someone and tolerate someone to be jealous of me ?! To be monogamous and true - a joke. I have a phobia of commitment, I don't want a family, sometimes I can't stand my own, let alone create a new one, I don't want children, I'm allergic to them. I do not want responsibilities and obligations. What is true love for me? Only extravagant, provocative clothes and sexy shoes can serve me for something ... Why should I look after a child when I can be in the bars every night? Alcohol, supplements ... And the discos ... everything is out of control there ... I am completely selfish, I live for myself and through myself, I am cynical and brutal and I always get what I want. I know that my goals are immoral. In moments of balance, I realize that my aesthetic impulses are devoid of moral basis. However, I do not regret, I do not regret. I don't want to change, I don't want to become "normal". Just the thought of "curing" myself of anorexia, shopping mania and gambling, and after 10 years of being a wife and mother who prefers quiet evenings at home to adventure and tumultuous parties, I froze in horror. Not that it will happen to me, but it's not superfluous to prevent it. Prevention is the best medicine .... Just the thought of "recovering" from anorexia, shopping mania and gambling, and after 10 years of being a wife and mother who prefers quiet evenings at home to adventure and tumultuous parties, I froze in horror. Not that it will happen to me, but it's not superfluous to prevent it. Prevention is the best medicine .... Just the thought of "curing" myself of anorexia, shopping mania and gambling, and after 10 years of being a wife and mother who prefers quiet evenings at home to adventure and tumultuous parties, I froze in horror. Not that it will happen to me, but it's not superfluous to prevent it. Prevention is the best medicine ....
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Just one day, when you are completely alone in this world, you will regret it!
You are very deluded! I hope you don't suffer after a while when you realize that all these parties, discos and indiscriminate relationships are ashes! Life is given to us to do something meaningful in it, not to waste our days like that! Male of 26.
I don't think you wrote "you"!?!? I don't know if I'm expressing myself correctly, but I think you're tired of watching the world around her sink?!?! Am I right .. I DON'T KNOW! And if it's really you ... in this expression "I don't want children, I'm allergic to them." If your mother had said the same, would you be gone?!?! .. Children are our future, where are we if after 50 years we die and have no children .. We are lost ... the world does not revolve around you ..
About 4 years ago I lived in an illusion. The only thing that made me happy was going shopping, buying expensive clothes, shoes, cosmetics, perfumes and so on. I was happy when I spent my time at the bar with rich men, expensive alcohol and coca. I didn't want a serious relationship, I didn't want a family, I didn't want children ... I just wanted this life to go on indefinitely. A friend and I even competed over who would leave with the best and richest man in the disco ... I was leaving, but you know what? In the morning I woke up (mostly) alone in the hotel. I wanted a financially handsome man to fall in love with me and make my life even easier ... but it didn't happen. Few men love such women. One night after another "search", I met a man who did not meet my criteria. He was kind, beautiful, good, he wasn't rich ... but I fell in love. I will miss the way things turned out, but I will tell you one thing! Now, four years later, I am still with this man, we live together in the house we bought alone with a lot of work, we both work and we don't cheat on each other, we will get married and have a child, WE LOVE each other. And believe me, there is nothing better in the world than what is happening to me now. My life turned 360 degrees and I realized that I lived in an illusion. The life I led was not a life, but a waste of time. Because this is the meaning of life - to create a family, a child, a home! Nothing in the world can compare to this! we both work and we don't cheat on each other, we will get married and have a child, WE LOVE each other. And believe me, there is nothing better in the world than what is happening to me now. My life turned 360 degrees and I realized that I lived in an illusion. The life I led was not a life, but a waste of time. Because this is the meaning of life - to create a family, a child, a home! Nothing in the world can compare to this! we both work and we don't cheat on each other, we will get married and have a child, WE LOVE each other. And believe me, there is nothing better in the world than what is happening to me now. My life turned 360 degrees and I realized that I lived in an illusion. The life I led was not a life, but a waste of time. Because this is the meaning of life - to create a family, a child, a home! Nothing in the world can compare to this!
On the contrary, it can. The amazing boots with 10 cm heel and the short skirt with which I will be at the bar tonight and the shots that I will not pay for. I will not regret anything and what I do seems to me the most meaningful thing. Why are some little l *** to spoil my figure and prevent me from going crazy every night? What is some fucking love for me when I can be different every night? The author.
Whether in 10 years you will become something, whether then someone will have the desire to be with a rag like you. You draw your own future, which I'm sure will be ugly. You really don't deserve to be a mother, you don't deserve a little sun that has peeled your skin and the character to call you "Mom!" You hardly deserve this happiness when you say that 10 cm heels and bars are more important than starting a family. Because of people like you, men say that women are not human. I guess you're at most 20 years old when you think so vulgar. You can take an example from the comment written above.
But you are very stupid ... Do you really have no other job? Stop making it up. I fully support number 3. You're some dumb boring aunt who, when she had to live, got pregnant by "I don't know who" and now you're desperate. But why do you bother people?
I am 20 years old. In ten years I want a career and a big salary. At 30, I will be a "lacquered secular doll", a withered and prematurely aged housewife. And I will continue with this way of life, I may even live even more ugly than now and no one will be able to stop me. The author
Number 7, you're right.
Number 6, you're very right.
And what kind of career do you want, far from a whore, hardly .... I want to ask you what education you have, that you will make a career, you have no mind, as you get older, it's a bit on the highway ....
Profession whore does not attract me. I'm still 20 and I only have a high school education. I want a career that gives power.
I can only tell you two things: 1st: You show off that you are a sick anorexic who wears clothes from "Barzakov"; you brag that you bet money on gambling, or more precisely you brag that you hate commitment, your children and your family ... Well, I can only tell you that you are hellishly pathetic and uncharacteristic ... 2- ro: this "POWER" you are looking for does not fall from the sky and after 10 years, when you think about why you became a prostitute, you just draw your knife ... There is no one to miss !!!!
You are all very bad just to start shaking .. you will lose weight and you will be super cool, until it's time to increase the dose of absta is I guarantee you much stronger and much worse at times than the one you call it - anorexic absta .. there is no such thing my girl abstinence is the need to take your dose and you call it a crisis when you have gained kg .. educate with do not invent a shot here there are both tarikats and pieces that are tied to such stories and you can hurt someone!
Don't offend the girl :). She is a sick girl, both physically and mentally, she is not equal to you :). And to her: Look how dear, I'm 24, I'm not much older than you, but in our way of thinking we are light years old (in my favor, of course :)) so ... if you just invent problems to make you look interesting, I will tell you that nothing good awaits you in the future if you do not grow up and set real priorities in life and meaningful goals. What you wrote about the work you wrote in the comments is OK, but something more valuable than starting a family and getting excited about someone else's life (your child's) is more than your own is a real miracle, which I think worth a try. But, if everything you wrote is true ... then darling, you have a serious problem (even a few). Seek help and get treated! One question what environment do you live in, that you are of the opinion that 30-year-olds are elderly housewives ??? Look around her, there are babes and more who put in their little pocket, pickles like you :)))
I wonder how people "deliver" emotions through such stories. I hope you are given the opportunity, at least for the evening, to experience what is written, to play your heroine, to understand the value of the peaceful life you lead ... Successful provocation! Good luck
It is not a provocation. I don't play a heroine, I live my life. And I don't need "meaningful" goals. I will never have children. This is not "valuable" to me, but annoying. I don't have to think about anyone but myself. And I have no problem at all. My life is great and I don't have to change it.
Hahahaha, I've never heard anything more funny than the above .... most likely behind this story there is a pedal or really some old lady who only dreams of this life she describes ...... Honestly no I think you're so beautiful when you're anorexic, so there's someone to feed you, because men are like animals after all, fuck and pay for what they like most in appearance, and some skeleton trembling with hunger and smelling like vomit, even though he's dressed in Prada, I doubt he'll intrigue them ... I doubt you blow so well that they take you to nothing with a big salary and a lot of power ... a cheerful definition of a career,what do you do for a lot of money and power, obviously you are not clear what exactly it is about ... Let me just tell you that you live in Bulgaria not in the USA ... So you will most likely end up as a person I knew some time ago, she was shaking for a long time, now she is 28, she doesn't have a single tooth in her mouth because they have fallen out, her bones are so soft that at least once a year she breaks something, she has sunken eyes and looks a bit like a movie monster of horrors .... Not to mention that on this occasion 10 cm heels can only look at a picture, respectively, there is no one to fuck her, do you remember .... So congratulations you are already a wreck and will soon begin to you look ...she had been shaking for a long time, now she's 28, she doesn't have a single tooth in her mouth because they've fallen out, her bones are so soft that at least once a year she breaks something, she has sunken eyes and looks a bit like a horror movie monster. ... Not to mention that on this occasion 10 cm heels can only look at a picture, respectively, there is no one to fuck her, do you remember .... Well, congratulations you are already a wreck and will soon begin to show. ..she had been shaking for a long time, now she's 28, she doesn't have a single tooth in her mouth because they've fallen out, her bones are so soft that at least once a year she breaks something, she has sunken eyes and looks a bit like a horror movie monster. ... Not to mention that on this occasion 10 cm heels can only look at a picture, respectively, there is no one to fuck her, you remember .... Well, congratulations you are already a wreck and will soon begin to show. ..
Nom.18, darling, in every word of yours I support you 100%, but I don't understand why you are writing this story now, because it is from a year ago and when I read it ... the author is probably no longer alive ... Eva
Number 18, I don't know if you're so happy why you hang out in places like this and why you waste your time here? And why are you so cynical ?! You're right, you can easily find men - in Bulgaria, nasty people have always been liked. You like everyone to walk on your ass, but you're just a villain.
Number 20 I commented on the above and this has nothing to do with malice, because I do not see exactly what I should be angry about, nor do I like to be anorexic, nor to go to casinos, nor to shake ... and otherwise I commented on the topic although that she is old, because some time ago I worked with Swiss people who, precisely because of some such pseudo-princesses, thought that all women in Bulgaria were whores, which reflected on me accordingly. Just to ask how he concluded that I like everyone to walk on my ass, and I did not say that I find men easily ... So whoever wrote number 20 should sober up first, read what it is about and then write. ... I'm already sorry that I'm writing on the subject ... and yes I'm cynical, it's not that the people above aren't de, but as it is ... Besides, there's no point in responding to simplicity with intelligence just because you'll be misunderstood .. .
To the author: It is not healthy, but it will help you. Switch to heroin and cocaine, so you will be longer in life, you will be happy and you will lose weight. As the motto of an former acquaintance: "better on heroin, but weak".