My story is long, wrong and very wrong =) Five years ago, when I was 14, I fell in love with a 40-year-old monk and because of him I started working in the church where he lived. The first year he didn't miss a way to be rude to me, to scold me ... he shouted at me a lot. The second year revealed that my feelings were strong and we started walking late at night and talking about various philosophical topics, but then I did not understand anything about it. He had to end his relationship with me because of the church board, and I was kicked out of there - as it should be. I suffered a lot from him and the life I led, I started dating drug addicts and I failed a lot, I started dating a lot of guys, I became something he said he despised. One day we met on the road and I told him about my life, he wanted to help me and that's why we went out for a few nights, then he allowed me to cuddle in him, but I had done so many things that it was not sexual enough for me at all. So on the last day, mine admitted that at the beginning of our relationship she liked that I had mental disorders and that infuriated me - I got up and left, but the next day I went to church and said what we had done with him the previous days. For these words of mine, he suffered a lot, the people there believed him, and he betrayed them, and I betrayed him ... So now I went back to the church to be close to him, but no matter how he apologized to him he despises me. He used to have that right, but not anymore - I have changed a lot, I have become his ideal, but he can't see it, and can I show it to him So on the last day, mine admitted that at the beginning of our relationship she liked that I had mental disorders and that infuriated me - I got up and left, but the next day I went to church and said what we had done with him the previous days. For these words of mine, he suffered a lot, the people there believed him, and he betrayed them, and I betrayed him ... So now I went back to the church to be close to him, but no matter how he apologized to him he despises me. He used to have that right, but not anymore - I have changed a lot, I have become his ideal, but he can't see it, and can I show it to him? So on the last day, mine admitted that at the beginning of our relationship she liked that I had mental disorders and that infuriated me - I got up and left, but the next day I went to church and said what we had done with him the previous days. For these words of mine, he suffered a lot, the people there believed him, and he betrayed them, and I betrayed him ... So now I returned to the church to be close to him, but no matter how he apologized to him he despises me. He used to have that right, but not anymore - I have changed a lot, I have become his ideal, but he can't see it, and can I show it to him? and he betrayed them, and I betrayed him ... So now I returned to the church to be close to him, but no matter how I apologized to him, he despised me. He used to have that right, but not anymore - I have changed a lot, I have become his ideal, but he can't see it, and can I show it to him? and he betrayed them, and I betrayed him ... So now I returned to the church to be close to him, but no matter how I apologized to him, he despised me. He used to have this right, but not anymore - I have changed a lot, I have become his ideal, but he can't see it, and do I have a way to show it to him?
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Are you sure this is not a fictional story?
Apparently you read "Birds die alone" Magi32g
Yes, I'm sure ... it sounds so unreal, but when you live in this whole thing, you lose the connection between reality and fantasy.
Ok, let's assume the story is true. Author - the man has taken a vow of celibacy. Try to convince him to become an ordinary priest. Priests have a greater responsibility in Orthodoxy because they are also responsible for the souls of believers. In this way you will be able to marry and have children, and he will serve God. Read and tell him with arguments that in essence God wants him to be a priest and to change people's lives, to help the poor and the lost souls
The author ... He will never become a priest because he is a misanthrope. He does not allow almost anyone to himself. The problem at the moment is that he hates me, and I'm with him every day and I can't prove to him that I've changed. Please do not question my story, for the first time I share it on the net, because I have no one with. Please advice this is = X
No matter what he is or what you are, your act, in a purely human aspect, is disgusting! If I were him, I wouldn't look at you anymore! This is not love - you do not care how he feels, you do not rejoice in his joys and you do not grieve with his sorrows ... YOU WANT something from him for YOURSELF. You are an unconscious being and you annoy with your stupid and selfish thoughts a person who has decided to purify his soul, and no hormones justify you. Shame and disgrace for you - go to drug addicts and geeks - there is your place, and ask them what you ask of him ...
You confuse elementary concepts, such as "monastery" and "church"; "monk" and "priest" or another rank given to him by the church, respectively. You say you were a drug addict until yesterday, but today you already have the Internet and can you tell us? He thinks you're mentally ill, but he treated you badly nonetheless? Yes, typical of priests. And what exactly do you say you were in this church or monastery that it was never understood? Either you take us for balms or you really have mental disorders.