I can't describe to you how I feel. My head is literally empty and I can't think of anything. I am so alone, lost and crying, the whole world has lost its meaning, and I am all lost in the world ... And I don't know what to do. I have no idea if I will be able to move forward at all. It all started on one of the most beautiful days I've ever had. What an irony. In early September, I had decided with my company of 7-8 people to make something like a campfire on the beach (because a river goes around the city). We brought marshmallows and beers, a few packs of cigarettes. A friend (and also my ex) took his guitar, and since I could sing, it turned out very nice. It was a lot of fun. But it wasn't just our people, it was the cousin of one of the girls. He basically comes from Sofia and has studied there so far, but I learned from her that she was moving to our city and our school. He was wearing a black-hooded sweatshirt, standing a little to one side of us, facing the fire, and the light was shining on his face. Very handsome boy, not to mention. I had ended a relationship recently, and I didn't really care at all. A 10th grade girl, quite attractive according to the comments of others, always sunny and laughing, always positive and dancing, and with a lot of self-confidence as well, I was quite courted and popular, as they say. The boy was in a bad mood, but suddenly he began to smile at me and act a little more relaxed. He suggested we take a walk. I know it's stupid of me, but I accepted almost immediately. We walked down the river, the moon reflected in his eyes. There were stars. The weather was warm. He took my hand. He told me, that he was in love with my voice (he had heard me sing a few minutes ago though). We smoked weed. It wasn't my first time, so ... It was really funny and we both laughed. We talked a lot and lay next to each other. At one point we fell silent and then he kissed me. We pressed on the sand for about an hour. We returned too late to the others. The moment we broke up I forgot about him. That speaks ill of me, but there were just too many things happening to me in those days, and we didn't see each other at all. However, I had experienced something that night. And the strangest news in the world was that it turned out that he would be in my class. We started going out. Initially all. Then just the two of them. We wrote to each other constantly. We kissed. We played this game for a few months until we got caught ... We broke up after 2 months because he had cheated on me. It was bad, that I loved him very much and was ready to return to him. But he was already with his new girlfriend and rejected me completely. I was really in love. And I missed him terribly. The first week I didn't leave the house. I cried all the time, cut myself, even got sick. Then I started going to school, but I dressed terribly naked. My clothes looked more like underwear and might have looked nice on me, but I had become a whore. I started smoking weed every day, I overdosed on alcohol, I drank not only at parties, but also on my own ... I ran away from class, I very rarely went in, I ran away from home ... I do not know what to do. It still hurts too much, but I don't care about anything at the same time. I got a tattoo. My life collapsed ... In a few days I have a birthday. I turn 17. There is something human left in me, still ... But I can't do it alone. What should I do? I have never been so deeply depressed.
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You understand your problems, you only need will.
Oleee, until recently on Instagram I watched geeks like you. This is off topic, but your Instagram is full of pictures of alcohol and cigarettes, right?
Girl, tighten it. What nonsense are you talking about? Do you have any idea what the word "depression" means? I hope the story isn't true because you're just pathetic. Let me have your problems.
Honey, you must have fallen in love with him quickly. But why did you start dating when you knew each other for a while? One cannot admit one's feelings for you in such a short time. First you had to get to know him better and then start these things. This is not a big deal. Please don't roar about an idiot who must be having fun with the new one now while you're roaring. You will find better than him. I was in more or less the same situation, but I realized that life was not over just because of a boy who broke me. There's no point in screaming and hurting yourself about this boy, yet you haven't cheated on him. Don't punish yourself for something you didn't do.
If I were you, I'd explode. Stop sniffing, snorting and there Who are you doing. It doesn't help you at all except it hurts you. Stop dramatizing and take matters into your own hands. I made the same mistake. I got caught with a boy, he was my first boyfriend, but we spent 1 month, I felt like my life was falling apart. I have never smoked or drunk, but I fucked up my teacher from a person with high success, I managed to get to 7 items for repair. But the last few months I've been dating a guy who's liked me for months but I haven't noticed him. I managed to fix my success and now 3 years later we are still together and we love each other. Really, when you think about the fact that you have made a crate and run away from you and a teacher does not help the situation in any way, he will not return.
If you don't want to act like a failed girl, don't do it. I know it sounds easier in words, and this advice may seem insensitive to you, but it's something I repeat to myself in difficult times. You are not able to control your feelings, but it is entirely up to you how you will react to them and how much you will allow them to manifest in your actions. Drugs, alcohol, tattoos and naked clothes ... doesn't sound good at all, does it? You are not like that, your essence is completely different, but you have fallen into the hole of the broken heart and it is difficult for you to recover. Just because it's hard for you doesn't mean it's impossible. By punishing yourself for other people's mistakes, you will not go far and you will not achieve anything good. Your ex doesn't care at all that you're about to hit rock bottom, he's looking after his life. The only people who will suffer will be you and your loved ones. Impose self-discipline, invest more energy in overcoming what happened. You are currently sinking into gloomy feelings, you are not fighting them, you are not letting them pass, you are dressing in their energy and absorbing it. Don't do that. An addiction is not easily overcome, try not to get it at all. People's opinion is irrelevant, but if there are rumors that you are bloody, you will be like that in people's eyes for many years and everyone will have one thing in mind for you when you meet. Get out of this trap, impose it on yourself, do it by force. Crawl on your stomach, if necessary, cry all the way, but do not give up the idea that you will get better days and cope. Don't do that. An addiction is not easily overcome, try not to get it at all. People's opinion is irrelevant, but if there are rumors that you are bloody, you will be like that in people's eyes for many years and everyone will have one thing in mind for you when you meet. Get out of this trap, impose it on yourself, do it by force. Crawl on your stomach, if necessary, cry all the way, but do not give up the idea that you will get better days and cope. Don't do that. An addiction is not easily overcome, try not to get it at all. People's opinion is irrelevant, but if there are rumors that you are bloody, you will be like that in people's eyes for many years and everyone will have one thing in mind for you when you meet. Get out of this trap, impose it on yourself, do it by force. Crawl on your stomach, if necessary, cry all the way, but do not give up the idea that you will get better days and cope.
Stop marijuana, it leads to depression and you are a normal person with the problems that everyone at this age has.
Oh, I don't know what you're taking, but when it comes to depression, I have a lot of experience with stimulants, if it's synthetic drugs, they're the ones that get depressed, and it's very hard, and so is weed. You drain your dopamine and serotonin at once and then it doesn't have time to recover. You see, these things are not difficult to stop, there is only a mental dependence. It wasn't easy for me to stop them either, but I did. Go to the gym or sports. It's a terrible antidepressant, to be honest. From the current bulamach, which is sold, it's no wonder you just go crazy. And once there was at least quality .... the market was different, now they poison you with whatever they catch.
First of all, I want to say that you will not find help here, most commenters have no idea how to answer, but they do not try. Don't pay much attention. Some are even more confused than you. See. Your friends feel the same way after you have decided together that the use of alcohol and drugs is the best solution. Ah, is it? You have the will to seek help here. You can also change your beam point. I can't solve your problems by saying what I think is the best solution. I'm not a psychologist, I don't know you. I cannot answer, affecting only your situation, expressing a consistent opinion. You need the opinion of an outsider, you need someone else's experience, presented appropriately. Everyone here answers only according to their own, not considering how his comment will affect the reader. I will send you a link to a site that helps me a lot. You will make your own impressions, seeing many different and interesting points of view. From socialists and beginners, from everyone like us, seekers, testers, learners. https: // www. quora. com / There is a solution. Look. Judge. You are the best and cruelest judge of yourself. Girl of 17
First of all, I want to say that you will not find help here, most commenters have no idea how to answer, but they do not try. Don't pay much attention. Some are even more confused than you. See. Your friends feel the same way after you have decided together that the use of alcohol and drugs is the best solution. Ah, is it? You have the will to seek help here. You can also change your beam point. I can't solve your problems by saying what I think is the best solution. I'm not a psychologist, I don't know you. I cannot answer, affecting only your situation, expressing a consistent opinion. You need the opinion of an outsider, you need someone else's experience, presented appropriately. Everyone here answers only according to their own, not considering how his comment will affect the reader. I will send you a link to a site that helps me a lot. You will make your own impressions, seeing many different and interesting points of view. From socialists and beginners, from everyone like us, seekers, testers, learners. https: // www. quora. com / There is a solution. Look. Judge. You are the best and cruelest judge of yourself.
Don't worry, everything is fine, you just feel miserable at the moment and you can't see that things aren't so bad. 2-3 years ago I was 17 and I went through things like you. As for shaking and drinking, don't blame yourself. When you get your life in order, you won't need to drink or snort. The best advice I can give you is to start going to the gym - even if you don't want to from the beginning. In no case do not shut yourself in for more than a day because, from the isolation you start to really get depressed, I guarantee you. And if you have a hobby, do it, sing, dance, paint! In a year or two, it will be funny how seriously you take your situation now. Good luck.
Depression is to have lost 8 years in 2 higher educations and: - to receive a minimum salary - for your subordinates to take more - for the money to be enough for rent, taxes and food - to go to work with a poorly operated hand and not be able to find a capable doctor to correct you - to take care of sick parents 52nd set - to make fun of employers at work, even though you do everything for them - not to be able to afford to leave work - to think about suicide every day Here it is leads to depression, Author !!!
Depression is a mental illness and patients have no choice. They can't say to themselves - well, because I'm not terminally ill and my relatives are ok and I get good money, I have no right to be depressed. Let's think logically and not project our own problems on people who seek advice here.
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The problem is that you are looking for the wrong things in life. The grass lasts so short and takes so much if you don't have balance. (I have never smoked, my friends have smoked and have always been taken away and inadequate - stay away from such things). The only meaningful thing you did was sing. Forget the boy, there are many beautiful boys, there are more decent ones. This may be your first disappointment, but in love it is. When you have strong feelings for someone and you realize that you loved more and it was in vain, then it sucks. But it is overcome. Nothing is lost, life is in front of you, you will love, you will be loved by Happy End. My advice is not to think about this boy and it will go faster, the more you let him into your thoughts, the more depressed you will be. F 28