The topic is quite delicate, but I hope the moderators will release it, because I really need to share my emotions. And precisely because of the delicacy, I can't talk to anyone about it. I am a 29 year old man. All my life I have felt lonely and unhappy, and lately this feeling is getting stronger. And I'm starting to think more and more about how nice it would be to end it all. Like turning off the TV on a stupid show or closing a boring book. I want to reassure readers that I am unlikely to really do it. I'm too cowardly. And the very fact that I am writing here means that part of me still holds out hope of finding meaning in living. Honestly, my problems are not so serious from the side. People have also faced more difficult challenges. But I don't have good things. I can fight, but I lack incentive. Everything is empty and meaningless to me. I don't get along with my family and we hardly keep in touch. On holidays I am often alone. I have few friends, I have a hard time getting close to people. Relationships with women are what bother me the most. I'm the type of good guy that women only use to brush their self-esteem, but they don't create real attraction and passion in a woman, they can't attract her so that she falls in love. I know, it's obviously about genetics. Otherwise I'm not a handsome man, but I support myself, I play sports, I dress decently. People think I'm smart and funny. I'm not rich, but I make normal money. However, this does not change things. If I saw any light in the tunnel and a chance for something to change, I would fight. But I don't see. I can live a miserable existence by being alone and going to prostitutes, I can catch up with the first one I meet, just because she only liked me, without loving her. But I don't think it's worth such a life. About suicide - I do not aim to make someone feel guilty, nor do I want to attract attention with a failed attempt. It's just that my pride is too great. If I do, I'll make sure it's safe, I won't be ashamed to blow myself up. There will be no death letters, posts, etc. I even think about how I can make it look like an accident. I would be happy if no one found out how weak I really was. I thought about an "accident" in the mountains, but I just won't have the courage to jump from a height. Thanks to everyone who took the time to read the story. I needed to share with someone, albeit anonymously. that such a life is worth it. About suicide - I do not aim to make someone feel guilty, nor do I want to attract attention with a failed attempt. It's just that my pride is too great. If I do, I'll make sure it's safe, I won't be ashamed to blow myself up. There will be no death letters, posts, etc. I even think about how I can make it look like an accident. I would be happy if no one found out how weak I really was. I thought about an "accident" in the mountains, but I just won't have the courage to jump from a height. Thanks to everyone who took the time to read the story. I needed to share with someone, albeit anonymously. that such a life is worth it. About suicide - I do not aim to make someone feel guilty, nor do I want to attract attention with a failed attempt. It's just that my pride is too great. If I do, I'll make sure it's safe, I won't be ashamed to blow myself up. There will be no death letters, posts, etc. I even think about how I can make it look like an accident. I would be happy if no one found out how weak I really was. I was thinking about an "accident" in the mountains, but I just won't have the courage to jump from a height. Thanks to everyone who took the time to read the story. I needed to share with someone, albeit anonymously. I will try to be sure, I will not be ashamed if I die. There will be no death letters, posts, etc. I even think about how I can make it look like an accident. I would be happy if no one found out how weak I really was. I was thinking about an "accident" in the mountains, but I just won't have the courage to jump from a height. Thanks to everyone who took the time to read the story. I needed to share with someone, albeit anonymously. I will try to be sure, I will not be ashamed if I die. There will be no death letters, posts, etc. I even think about how I can make it look like an accident. I would be happy if no one found out how weak I really was. I thought about an "accident" in the mountains, but I just won't have the courage to jump from a height. Thanks to everyone who took the time to read the story. I needed to share with someone, albeit anonymously. you took the trouble to read the story. I needed to share with someone, albeit anonymously. you took the trouble to read the story. I needed to share with someone, albeit anonymously.
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Don't despair :) Everyone has a soulmate somewhere in the world. It's only a matter of time before you find her. Just keep looking! Meet girls, go out, make compliments, give flowers ... Focus on the type of girls you like and who will fall for you. Just be patient. But just sitting and waiting is not enough ... take up flirting, etc. It will happen, maybe not the first time, but ...
Unfortunately I am in the same situation and I cannot give you good advice. Very sorry. I hope everything goes well and you find the love I am sure you deserve! I wish you all the best! F 15
At one time I was like that. But now I have a happy marriage with a child for whom I can turn mountains. What I realized was that nothing should make a person happy. No people, no money, nothing. The desires in us are not really our desires, but those of the universe (God), because it wants to create through us, to create as it creates thousands of celestial bodies every second. She loves to create. And since she cannot create everything on her own, she created us to create through us what she cannot create on her own. I want to tell you that just accepting your desires as your own leads to your unhappiness. You are afraid that you will never achieve them, you are in some dependence on their achievement. Accept that what you feel comes from misinterpreting who is the source of desires - you or the universe. Interpreting them as their own, you prevent them from coming true. Just look at them as the divine in you, it has the power to come true only without effort. You just have to stop opposing him through these fears and worries. Don't try to fight the fear, you will only bury it inside. Just accept that he is a part of you and is due to a misinterpretation.
I completely understand you. I feel the same way. Everything is so confused - the whole world - I can't understand and comprehend so many things !! Why, how so? I am constantly thinking about various nonsense and problems, probably for the most part completely unreal, if only I had become a screenwriter! I think too much and sometimes I just want to shoot myself! And for me, making friends is a test, I just find it hard to find people to fit in with and find interesting. Otherwise, it's as if I've lost my time and energy - everything. What to do - introvert person, I do not like people. I'm 25 and I've been thinking about suicide for almost a day, I've watched a bunch of docks. movies about such trends and the topic itself is very interesting to me. However, I also doubt that I will ever take my own life - not because I am afraid, but because I still have faith that " Maybe you need a change of environment? Since we are terribly similar (judging by what is written) I will be happy if we can meet somehow ... and I know exactly how here ... All the best! Maybe you need a change of environment? Since we are terribly similar (judging by what is written) I will be happy if we can meet somehow ... and I know exactly how here ... All the best!
Author, I don't want you to offend me, but I have the feeling that you men go crazy when you approach 30! I haven't seen it in one or two, which is the most disturbing ... Otherwise, as far as your suicide - think well. I firmly believe that life, no matter how nasty and gray - is worth it! I'm a woman of 25 and my life is not the most rosy at the moment, but I've never thought of such a thing and you know why - because I love myself! You have to learn to be self-sufficient. You have to learn to appreciate yourself. You must, author, learn to love yourself as you are! Now my advice about women - breathe! You are only 29 and life is ahead of you. If you live with the attitude that your life is empty, it will be like that. We women are very intuitive and feel desperate and desperate men, and this is honestly repulsive. I personally don't need a gloomy grumbler for half. Or some insecure and windy guy ... I think he understood me. I wish you success and get rid of this thought!
Don't expect a woman to make you happy, you just have low self-esteem and think that if a woman falls in love with you, it means that you are a valuable person, a real man. However, women fall in love with men for completely different reasons, the main one is due to sexual attraction, which is determined by appearance, status, self-confident behavior, what kind of man it really does not matter. Even if a lady decides to be together without being in love, just for convenience, it still won't be for you. If you care so much about being good with women, sign up for a pick-up seminar, there are some in BG. This is not the important thing, however, life is not lived for someone else's sake, but for one's own sake, I'm not talking about what sin is at all. But for a start, start doing things that will meet people, it may be new work, sports, dancing, language course, I have already mentioned the dumps seminars, there you will go out in groups and take off babes and you will see that women like you (well, not everyone), the approach is important. But you will realize that this is not the important thing.
Hey, not so author, the head above everyone has even a little happiness in this life, don't be in a hurry to despair I won't let even a stranger suffer you are still so young life has not confronted you with really insurmountable things and you want to give up don't it is not worth doing it to live stubbornly to all who cannot appreciate you ..calmly know that in the life of everyone is destined to be happy one day do not rush to refuse to wait for him did not say whether you work or something but if you are out of work then start as it is and in other topics make a registration in someone social network send friendship invitations to girls from your city free and who do you think are like for you make friends so there will be someone to go out with and you can get an invitation to coffee with someone get to know her you can call her at home to watch movies and order pizza and popcorn for example what are you looking for I'm talking about modest girls and not "tigers"where they want only se * with life is in front of you you will find a girl one day if you want you will have a child you will start a family and everything will be great author because he said that you are uncommunicative anxious in the beginning and it will be easier for you while live if you don't have many friends you don't go out much so that you can meet someone and no wonder the dream woman .. just calmly everything will be fine and you act on the issue then you will be happy and you won't despair like that or go out to discos with friends have fun but forgive * tki and such things are quite hurried and stupid young don't think nonsense but live and have fun as you like and don't commit suicide,don't try it, come on, if it happens, you will get rid of it, but if you come to life and you are a disfigured invalid, just don't do it and think that life in a crooked wheelchair will not be easy for you, so this is nonsense, kill them from your head :)
Bobby, is that you? You sound like a friend. Whether you are or not, things are never so bad as to give up. Think about what you will do to the people who value you, to your parents. The scariest thing is to bury your child. You have nothing to worry about - men become breeding for 60 years. The fact that you have not met the right one should not despair you. You will meet her sooner or later, you just don't have to stop looking for her and trying. Sometimes you look for one, and she has been in front of you all the time. Be patient, things will work out. Fingers crossed! AKATIM
Another 8 billion people are in the same situation !!! Don't be silly, and even if you are an absolute atheist, think that there is still some possibility that there is a Higher Power or God, and in that case suicide will not only not be a solution to your problem, but you just have to to pay for cowardice with interest !!
Hello! For starters, it might be a good idea to share with someone what's bothering you. I know, it's not easy at all, and once you choose to write here instead of sharing with someone around you, you'll probably think that what I'm writing to you is kind of crazy. If you still do not find the strength in yourself to seek help from another person, you have much more to do to help yourself. I'm trying to tell you that the options are many, you just have to look around. You are currently immersed in yourself. You may feel sorry for yourself without even realizing it. And when a person begins to look at himself as a victim, he begins to suppress himself and often leads to depression, or in even worse cases, thoughts of suicide. Well, not everything is black and white. First, the thing you would have seen as a bystander if you hadn't shut yourself in, that if your time is busy with things to do, you won't have time to think about suicide or other obsessive thoughts. Do you have a hobby? If so, start spending more time with him. If not, sit down and think, but this time not about the things that make you feel bad, but think about what makes you feel good, to be happy? Maybe you like sports? Then exercise hard. The point is, with each passing day, the time you spend in negative thoughts becomes less and less until it disappears completely. Find your ways to fill your time with pleasant things. Get to know yourself and love yourself. Slowly or quickly, gradually or not, there are no deadlines here. The question is to find out how to be happy with yourself at first. The second good thing to do is start reading literature that focuses on positive thinking, to watch positive videos, to listen to music that fills you with good emotions. Yes, sometimes you won't mind. You are human and it is normal to have both positive and negative emotions. Allow yourself to cry sometimes if you need to. If you have a prejudice of the "men don't cry" variety, throw it aside. People are crying. Men and women are first and foremost human beings. They have feelings. They have emotions. They have hearts. When something weighs on you - cry, let it lighten, but do not sink in and do not feel sorry for yourself. Just let the emotion come out of you and then continue again with the search for the positive, the beautiful, the good in life. Look, the struggle you start - in it the only motivation that should support you in the first place is to help yourself. Once you help yourself, you will be able to focus on the good things that lie ahead. Let this also be a motivation for you. You don't know how many good things are ahead of you. You are about to meet the woman you love and she will love you. You are about to start a family, to have children to enjoy. And you would give up all this and take your own life, given that the most beautiful thing for you is yet to come? You must first be happy with yourself. Only then will you see how you will not have to "look" for the woman for you with whom to create time and family, because everyone attracts what they radiate. You are not happy at the moment. And how do you create a relationship, love, relationships, family? With negative or with positive? I'm sure you can answer that question yourself. You are an intelligent man and I can say it even if I do not know you personally, because I see the way you write, I see how you express yourself, and besides, the fact that you write, albeit anonymously and ask for help when you see that you need it, speaks very strongly about how strong a person you are! Do not be ashamed of yourself, but be proud, because there are many people who do not have your courage - to seek help and shut themselves in more and more. You are a strong person and you will do it! Believe in yourself. Fight for yourself. Struggle to be happy and in harmony first with yourself, and then you will see how things will work out, because you yourself will begin to find the answers, because you will no longer look only at yourself, but you will be able to to look away and it will be much easier for you. You will succeed! I wish you a lot of will and perseverance and do not forget - you can not lose the battle if you do not give it up. Don't give up, fight, looking for ways to succeed. If sometimes it doesn't work, start from the beginning until you find a way and start living your life with the thought that this life we live is a gift and we should appreciate it, be grateful and live happily just because we breathe. that we are here and that we are as we are. Success! :)
I am very saddened by your story, because this is partly my story. I am 24 years old and I have been in hell for 6 years. There are really no dramatic events or difficulties around me - it's just an inner state, I feel alone, without direction, meaningless, I feel constant inner pain. The thought of death calms me down, and I, like you, play out in my head many different scenarios of how exactly everything would happen, and this brings me some peace of mind, but in reality I would hardly do it. Have patience and faith that this will end and a better period will come.
I will not comfort you and tell you how everything will fall into place. I will tell you only one thing - travel! Quite spontaneously, go somewhere far from here. If you have that opportunity, of course. Go to a warm country where people are different, where their culture is different. A place where everything and everyone will be interesting to you, a place where you will forget about your gray and monotonous life. Travel! This changes a person a lot. Really a lot. Visit an Asian country, see the people there. Make friends. Communicate. Forget about your miserable life here. And when you return ... I promise you will look at life with a different eye. The way of life does not change in the same environment in which you lived in your case for 29 years ... the change of environment and its people is the key, if I may say so. I share with you from personal experience. You have to start doing something different. Something which has never been in your daily life. :)))
I'm sure if you don't kill yourself, IN A FEW DAYS something amazing will happen to you and you'll be glad you didn't make that mistake. You know you have parents and friends: how will they feel after you die? Have you thought about it? You're not ugly either, but don't be stupid ... Otherwise, in my opinion, the best suicide is to stuff yourself with ice cream and pizza and waste your money ... But don't do it. This is the best solution - leave it to fate and do not do this nonsense, because if you have heard "He who commits suicide, his soul never finds peace."
Hello, you are depressed but there is a way out of this emotional state. Enjoy life, rejoice that you are alive and well, there is nothing better than that. Health is the most precious gift of destiny ... Enjoy every day of your life, rejoice that you wake up every morning and you can take a breath - there is nothing better than BEING ALIVE! Everyone has difficulty understanding you but you have to take the first step with a woman TRY. Appearance is not everything in this world - it is more important what kind of soul you have. Appearance The packaging is transient we all get older over time we will not look good. More important is how you look from the inside. Man's eyes are a window to the soul and to its essence. Think about it. Appearance does not make a person. And if you have big criteria, you will always be left alone.
I was too, but believe me everything will be fine. Smile, go out and meet new people, maybe online, it's easier. Just be yourself and don't take things seriously, I understand you're 50, but at 29 life is ahead of you and it's too early to give up. :)
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