I don't know if I acted so low. Last night I went out with my new friend Radoslav. We went to visit a friend of his, where we overdosed on alcohol and amphetamines. Rado and the other boy were happy to do some work and Georgi and I, the host, were left alone. From the lines, through the brandy, we got to the moment where we can kiss, from there - sex. He told me a lot of confusing things, like that he wanted us to be together, that Radoslav didn't deserve me and that he would be better for me. Of course, I didn't believe him, but I was more or less influenced by my intoxication. The sex was nothing more than satisfying, but I was still quite noisy in my groans. At one point there was a knock on the door, and quite loudly, I noticed, and that my phone had several unread text messages from Rado. We quickly got dressed and I went to sleep, which, as dumb as it sounded, was the only thing that came to my mind. Joro opened the door, and Radoslav, of course, was furious. Rado and I have been together for 2-3 weeks, and I have already managed to cheat on him in the lowest possible way. He was gone for almost an hour and a half, and I "fixed" his friend during that time. For almost an hour I filled Radoslaz's head with heaps of lies, about how I had done nothing, and with false indignation, how he could think such a thing. The worst part is that he had even heard us. I don't know in what impossible way I managed to convince him that he was mistaken and that I was innocent. The only reason he believed me was because he couldn't accept how I could do something so mean. I'm so disgusted with myself that I can't even look in the mirror. Rado, of course, suspects I lied to him, but still everything is fine with him. However, I do not know how I will look into the happy eyes after what I did. I don't even know how it happened, much less why. Until last night, I didn't know I was capable of doing something so ugly. The other rather unpleasant thing is that Dimitar can still understand the truth, because I'm not 100% sure of Georgi's ability to keep secrets. I'm so sick right now ... I don't know what to do. I want to erase last night from my life. I don't know what to do. I want to erase last night from my life. I don't know what to do. I want to erase last night from my life.
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You write quite sensibly, and at the same time you don't have a gram of reason about alcohol, drugs and infidelity. I can't understand how hard it is to live without being crammed with this shit that can only get you to the bottom, which doesn't seem very far away. Just as you write sensibly, so you can take matters into your own hands - take the case as a warning from above - and succeed. Winnie the Pooh
"Oh, that Dimitar can still understand the truth, because I'm not 100% sure of Georgi's ability to keep secrets" What !? It seems that the effect of the amphetamines is still there .... Dimitar !? Wasn't it Radoslav?
We found out about your friend Radoslav and his friend Georgi, and who is Dimitar? And if you continue with drugs, there will be even more disgusting events, you will even get to the point that they will no longer impress you. Stop poisoning your brain with drugs until it is fully fermented. Don't you understand what you are doing to yourself? Stop as long as you can !!!
Here is the standard for you to have a good time ... Brandy and amphetamines. Well done! Tomorrow by writing "Help I'm pregnant!" I will not be surprised .. * Syndrome
Your friend "his name is Radoslav, not Dimitar", as far as I understand !!! ;) I'm Trouble-
Dimitar is the third or the friend with whom the boyfriend Radoslav has been out for 2 weeks, while she is messing with the host Georgi! But you don't seem to read carefully! Girl, I don't know you, I don't blame you, I just advise you in a very friendly way, you haven't gone in the right direction in this life. The good thing, though, is that you realize your mistake and still have a conscience. My advice is to stop drinking and shaking, because these things can only lead you to the cemetery. You will break your psyche and life for nonsense and not only yours, but also those of your parents and the people who love you. You see where you went wrong, but you don't go deep into the root of your problem. Let me help you a little, if you were sober would you do what you did with Georgi? Well, what if next time you kill someone or rob a store, will this be your excuse again? The problem is clear and you know it very well, if you want such things not to happen, you should fix your problem. P.S. Drugs give you everything you want and take away everything you need! Yagi
Dimitar is my friend's real name, but since it is not uncommon for some to do such a thing, after I wrote the story I decided that it would be more logical to change his name (but I obviously missed a place). Thank you so much for overcoming your aversion to me (which I'm sure you've experienced) and for giving me real and friendly advice. I see that my life is going in a very disgusting direction, and I don't even understand how I managed to allow it. Needless to try to explain to you that I am not (or at least was not) such a failed person, because after I told you what I did, hardly anyone will believe me, but I still hope you understand that such things do not are inherent in me (which of course is not an excuse). But as Yagi said, in a sober state, I wouldn't even think of such an act. You are absolutely right that it's time to realize where all this crap I'm filling my body with leads me. I hope to be able to get back on my feet before I do something even more serious ... Thank you again for your advice and empathy.