Hello and Happy New Year. I am a girl, I will not write my age, for example I am on April 25. In 2017 I went with my mother to the GP. My mother told her that when I slept I was spinning. and I have to sleep only on one side, for example the right one, and not turn around. Then her mother told her that when I came home from university I sometimes cried because they made fun of me. At university they didn't treat me well, they made me keep their bags and sit in the room. I was never invited with them to the Student Holiday. If you were me, would you cry? I remember them saying in front of me that they would go somewhere and get together, and they didn't ask me if I wanted to come with them. They always avoided me. One girl said I looked old, probably because I didn't have children and she did. The doctor told me to go to a psychiatrist. I went with my mother to the doctor and told her that I had no friends at school because I was poor and didn't wear expensive clothes, I didn't have a smartphone, that I never smoked or drank, then I told her about my dreams that I would like to come true, I remember her telling me I was being too excited. I told her normally and with enthusiasm and enthusiasm. I don't remember what he told me. Then he prescribed me Tritico and Abilify, which I started drinking from March or April 2017 to June or July 2018. I read in the return booklet that I have BAR. I told her that I wanted to have friends who would respect me and go out with me. I read the symptoms on the internet. I have no worries, I go for a walk every day and one day I met a girl. When strangers ask me something, I answer. It is written that those who have BAR have a reduced appetite, and I do not eat regularly. Write, that they have impaired concentration and concentration. Before exams, I always read the most important things with concentration, and at the exam I remember the things I read. I sleep 8 hours or 10 hours of sleep, depending on when I go to bed. I never slept during the day, except as a child. I have never drunk alcohol in my life. I've never been impulsive, I always think about it before I do something. When I see photos of my classmates and university colleagues who have gone somewhere, I cry.
One day I was very sad and cried. I remembered all the ridicule, insults and humiliation from school. My mother told me to call the police to lock me up there or go to the insane asylum. I live with my mother and sister. They do not allow me to go to bars, discos to meet people my age. I was home for Christmas and New Year. My mother and sister insult, curse, humiliate, mock me. I am told that I am ugly and will never have friends and social life. My mother told me that she should have an abortion with me or give me up for adoption. When they mentally harass me, I cry. And they tell me to take my pills until I die. I haven't taken my pills in a few months because we don't have money. When I tell the psychiatrist that I want to stop taking the pills, she tells me that I should take them for life. When I told her that I wanted to have a social life like the others, she told me to drink them again. So far, my mother and sister have not told me about the pills. My sister goes out everywhere with friends to take pictures with. People are told that I have had crises and that I will never have friends, so I cry. One day my mother told strangers that I had never drunk, smoked or walked with men, and then she started laughing. My sister tells me that I will die a virgin and even tells my friends that I am like that. My mother has said many times that it would have been better without me and how they would have lived. I cry because I don't have friends, photos and memories, because they don't let me. And they tell me they'll send me to the insane asylum. According to my mother and sister, in order to have friends, I have to smoke cigarettes, drink alcohol, go after men for their money, have sex. I am currently working and giving them my entire salary.
Do you think they are right and should I start doing such things to have friends? When I read in the book that I have BAR before, they had not done any tests on me so far. I don't have mood swings, it's just that when my mother and sister treat me like that, she cries. When I go out e.g. at the center, my mother tells me why I went out, and my sister doesn't tell her anything. Do you think I have all the symptoms and am I sick with ADHD? Please excuse me that the topic is long and please approve my story. I want to wish everyone in the New Year to be alive, healthy and happy and to make all your dreams come true.
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If you work, then you are OK. Drop your mother and sister and go home. But alone, because there are all kinds of users. It is impossible not to find a literate colleague. The one who is quiet and shy talks to her and that's it. Don't be in a hurry to share the story with someone until you get to know them, because they may make fun of you. It is easy to find accommodation, enter a property. bg and done. Make sure it's in a nice neighborhood so there are no gypsies. You will be OK. You will buy a small dog and walk it. You will not be alone, you can meet someone with the dog in the park. And I would cry over the incident with my classmates. You didn't say what you were like as a person. Why didn't they invite their classmates? Do you talk to them? Are you weird? What is the reason for not inviting you? You look good, normal and decent to me
In my opinion, you do not have a BAR, but an abnormal mother and sister. Really get away from them before they drive you crazy. You have a job and an education, don't be afraid to separate from this poisonous environment.
For me, the situation is similar, only everyone says outsiders, you have toxic people around you. I never had a calm atmosphere. Ever since I was treated, even before that - for my cousins and relatives I either don't exist or they shout at me. People commented on me in person, at school and I was a bag hanger in front of the toilet. They don't want to take pictures with me, so that their friends on social networks don't tell me tomorrow
You do not have BAR, psychiatrists often use this diagnosis because you have the right to cash registers for it. You really have some anxiety, not BAR. But for anxiety and depression, the fund does not pay anything and that is why they write BAR. They also take advantage of the fact that depression is part of the bipolar spectrum.
What crazy and nasty people there are, it's unbelievable! Dear girl, you have no BAR! Trust me! A psychiatrist is not a psychiatrist at all. It was easiest for him to throw you some pills! But how to live, but that's funny! You have nothing. Remember this! Н я м а т и н и щ о! You live with your crazy mother and sister. Get away from there. It still seems to me that you have written here before. Move out and live elsewhere and your life will improve. Buy various self-help books, if you know how they help, they become your friends. Look for Louise Hay, Joe Dispensa and others. And stop those pills. It is normal for a person to cry, especially when they are ignored and have no friends. I don't either, but it doesn't mean I'm going to take pills and believe something's wrong with me. Just get rid of these slugs and live your life!
Hello dear! You are not crazy - EVERYONE would cry and be upset by the situations you describe. In my opinion, you do not have a BAR - with him you are either in euphoria and you are confident and sociable and everything is wonderful, or you are in the deepest hole and the world is completely black - the states alternate, and with you it is not there. Your mother and sister just program you extremely negatively and cripple you mentally - run as far away from there as possible and break off any relationship with them! You have already graduated from university, you have an education, you work - set aside some money and move out to live alone. A room with a grandmother in the center with the use of a kitchen, for example, will not be expensive for a start. So at first you will have a home until you calm down and orient yourself, and when you get on your feet you will find something better. You will be lonely at first, but it is also lonely with your mother and sister - see to save for a cheap tablet so that you can use the Internet by moving out and not be totally cut off from the world (maybe on payment with some minimal installment) Important is not to hide everything in yourself - if you have no one to talk to, a good therapy is to start keeping notes or a diary on your own - describe everything that goes through your head, what you are sick of, what you are sad about - by writing it on paper lightens. And gradually other things will start to appear in the notes - what is interesting to you, what has created a positive emotion in you. Try to paint, whether you have talent or not - it will also make you feel better. Search blogs and forums on topics that interest you, sign up for some tourist club, take more walks. Things will gradually get back on track - just be careful with people at the beginning and don't openly share everything they share here so that they don't take advantage of you. You have no social experience, so it's good to be more closed and silent - it's not bad to be more withdrawn as long as you feel safe. And no matter what happens, don't start from the position that others are normal and cost something more than you, and you are not! Not so. Stop criticizing yourself, don't let others criticize and crush you - accept yourself and you will see how gradually others will start accepting you. Everything will be fine, you just have to get away from your mother and sister - they are pulling you back too hard and they would not allow you to change. Act! We are all with you and we support you - write here when you need to talk to someone or share how things are going,
What you have is an abnormal "family." Your mother and sister don't love you, they humiliate you ... It's normal to be depressed and cry. Get away from them an hour sooner and start doing a hobby or something in your free time. Surrounding yourself with people who respect and love you in a completely different way will make you feel.
1. Get out of the house, go out to the apartment 2. Keep working until you get used to 3. At the same time look for people who have had the same problems and share and give each other 4. Guarantee that it will get better