I Don't Have Anyone ...

I don't know what exactly has happened to me in the last 2 years. I ruined my relationship with my parents. I also ruined my relationship with my friends. I moved to another city and there I found amazing people for friends with whom we spent a wonderful 1 year. Forced by circumstances, I had to return to the place from which I had fled. I have been in my hometown again for 9 months now and things are not good at all. I don't like my school, my teachers or my classmates. I failed to establish a close relationship with anyone. It so happened that I started a good friendship with 2 people and because I had doubts about the loyalty of these people, which were later confirmed, I moved away from them quite purposefully. We got along very well with a girl, but she also left this horrible place and found happiness elsewhere. I have at least 4 and a half years of this "exile" and then again I will have the opportunity to get away at least from this environment, from the city - no ... And I'm not perfect, of course. I give a lot of myself and I expect it to come back to me in exactly the same way .. Alas, I only succeeded in such people once and now they are too far from me. My family has always been very important to me. My parents divorced when I was 9. I didn't have a hard time then, but now I realize how deep in my soul it is remembered. Unhappiness, lack of money, disappointment have taught me not to show my true emotions and from the outside I look like the biggest bitch in the world. In fact, I am very gentle, very good, but I am just afraid and I have prejudices against everything and everyone. At the moment I am depressed in my opinion, but I hide it. I'm smiling, I try to behave normally. But nothing changes. I was upset when I returned to where I am at the moment. At the time, I didn't think about relationships with people or anything. The purpose of my life was to insult everyone, to create scandals, to behave like the last peasant and all sorts of unpleasant things. I try to fix things, but it gets worse. I want my family to get along again, make friends and look at life more optimistically. Please give me some advice. I haven't met that special person yet, and I think that's why. This also upsets me a lot. I'm just at a dead end and I want to get out of there. As I said, I have no one to share with and I ask you, people in front of the screen, for a little help with which to make big changes. But nothing changes. I was upset when I returned to where I am at the moment. At the time, I didn't think about relationships with people or anything. The purpose of my life was to insult everyone, to create scandals, to behave like the last peasant and all sorts of unpleasant things. I try to fix things, but it gets worse. I want my family and I to get along again, to make friends and to look at life more optimistically. Please give me some advice. I haven't met that special person yet, and I think that's why. This also upsets me a lot. I'm just at a dead end and I want to get out of there. As I said, I have no one to share with and I ask you, people in front of the screen, for a little help with which to make big changes. But nothing changes. I was upset when I returned to where I am at the moment. At the time, I didn't think about relationships with people or anything. The purpose of my life was to insult everyone, to create scandals, to behave like the last peasant and all sorts of unpleasant things. I try to fix things, but it gets worse. I want my family and I to get along again, to make friends and to look at life more optimistically. Please give me some advice. I haven't met that special person yet, and I think that's why. This also upsets me a lot. I'm just at a dead end and I want to get out of there. As I said, I have no one to share with and I ask you, people in front of the screen, for a little help with which to make big changes. I was upset when I returned to where I am at the moment. At the time, I didn't think about relationships with people or anything. The purpose of my life was to insult everyone, to create scandals, to behave like the last peasant and all sorts of unpleasant things. I try to fix things, but it gets worse. I want my family to get along again, make friends and look at life more optimistically. Please give me some advice. I haven't met that special person yet, and I think that's why. This also upsets me a lot. I'm just at a dead end and I want to get out of there. As I said, I have no one to share with and I ask you, people in front of the screen, for a little help with which to make big changes. I was upset when I returned to where I am at the moment. At the time, I didn't think about relationships with people or anything. The purpose of my life was to insult everyone, to create scandals, to behave like the last peasant and all sorts of unpleasant things. I try to fix things, but it gets worse. I want my family to get along again, make friends and look at life more optimistically. Please give me some advice. I haven't met that special person yet, and I think that's why. This also upsets me a lot. I'm just at a dead end and I want to get out of there. As I said, I have no one to share with and I ask you, people in front of the screen, for a little help with which to make big changes. At the time, I didn't think about relationships with people or anything. The purpose of my life was to insult everyone, to create scandals, to behave like the last peasant and all sorts of unpleasant things. I try to fix things, but it gets worse. I want my family to get along again, make friends and look at life more optimistically. Please give me some advice. I haven't met that special person yet, and I think that's why. This also upsets me a lot. I'm just at a dead end and I want to get out of there. As I said, I have no one to share with and I ask you, people in front of the screen, for a little help with which to make big changes. At the time, I didn't think about relationships with people or anything. My goal in life was to insult everyone, to create scandals, to behave like the last peasant and all sorts of unpleasant things. I try to fix things, but it gets worse. I want my family and I to get along again, to make friends and to look at life more optimistically. Please give me some advice. I haven't met that special person yet, and I think that's why. This also upsets me a lot. I'm just at a dead end and I want to get out of there. As I said, I have no one to share with and I ask you, people in front of the screen, for a little help with which to make big changes. to behave like the last peasant and all sorts of unpleasant things. I try to fix things, but it gets worse. I want my family and I to get along again, to make friends and to look at life more optimistically. Please give me some advice. I haven't met that special person yet, and I think that's why. This also upsets me a lot. I'm just at a dead end and I want to get out of there. As I said, I have no one to share with and I ask you, people in front of the screen, for a little help with which to make big changes. to behave like the last peasant and all sorts of unpleasant things. I try to fix things, but it gets worse. I want my family and I to get along again, to make friends and to look at life more optimistically. Please give me some advice. I haven't met that special person yet, and I think that's why. This also upsets me a lot. I'm just at a dead end and I want to get out of there. As I said, I have no one to share with and I ask you, people in front of the screen, for a little help with which to make big changes. I haven't met that special person yet, and I think that's why. This also upsets me a lot. I'm just at a dead end and I want to get out of there. As I said, I have no one to share with and I ask you, people in front of the screen, for a little help with which to make big changes. I haven't met that special person yet, and I think that's why. This also upsets me a lot. I'm just at a dead end and I want to get out of there. As I said, I have no one to share with and I ask you, people in front of the screen, for a little help with which to make big changes.