Hi, I've been wondering for a long time where to pour my anguish, I'm glad I finally found the place where I can do it anonymously. I am 14 and a half years old and I train football. I have been training since the end of the 2nd grade. until I was 13 I was playing like that, I didn't drool, I was focused and I was trying to progress. From time to time I painted graffiti that I had been passionate about before. I lived calmly and carefree. I can't complain about problems (whatever they are) at home, everything is fine. Nothing bothered or confused me. What is it now. For a year and 2-3 months, however, something else happened. I started to wonder if I really wanted to play. The moments of hesitation alternated with moments of strong desire (for football) and this confused me even more. I was wondering if I would become a footballer, if I had the qualities. And this continues. I stopped doing graffiti because of that, that I blamed myself for not spending enough time with football. Half of June and all of July I kicked a lot. But really a lot - 2 times a day (morning and late afternoon, from 11 to 4 is heat) and more than half times alone. I often cry when I'm confused, or sometimes for no apparent reason. At one time I wondered about the meaning of life and similar questions (and before I didn't even think about them). Otherwise, everything is fine at school, I get good grades ... There were moments when nothing was done to me. But nothing! -complete apathy to everything. But it's not apathy to lie down like that, not to care about anything. On the contrary, I am sick of wandering and not knowing what to do. I am tense and I think constantly. When I feel this way, I think that something is wrong with me, because in principle no one is wrong. Or at least I don't know anyone like that (except me). I'm very confused now. I wonder what I want to be. I love a lot, but a lot of football - that's a fact, but for a professional footballer it takes a lot ... I'm not sure if I want this life. The other thing that worries and irritates me is that the moments "I'm not happy with football" and "I can't live without football" are changing. Quite often. And from one extreme to the other. Partly because of this attitude towards football, my teammates, with whom I play now, are also to blame. Most are not from here and have formed a group. They often insult me and joke with me, but it sucks. I don't owe it to them either, but it's different than being alone ... Earlier I was even captain of the team (7-8 months ago). And this period was the most difficult for me. They are all a group and they want their man to be a captain and they fuck me, they call me not your captain ... This is not in front of the coach. And then I had a few bad games and they took my tape. It is easy to hit 1-2, but then they will kick me out of training. These things are only with my set 96 ', when I train with 95' (because when we are separated because of the school changes it happens that I train with 95 ') I have no problems, everything is OK and I even think I play better. I'm calmer and I'm doing better. But they are all from the city and are not ridiculous like the others ... I wonder if this confusion of mine is not the result of being in puberty, or something else. But it's a fact - before these thoughts came to me a year or so ago, I was completely different. I still look the same, but inside I'm different ... I don't know. When I see some of my classmates not caring about anything and just looking to have fun, I think I'm kind of ... wrong. If you can write 1 post, whatever it is and thank you to those who read it. I hope you give me advice, I need it.
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I completely understand you ... You don't know what you want from life and that confuses you even more. I'm so constantly tense, I think all sorts of nonsense, and that my life has no meaning .. Football is just a sport, that now you play a lot normally .. you have a passion for something, and a lot of energy to spend. Just calm down and think POSITIVE .. If you read books I would recommend one that helped me personally "The Subconscious Can Do Anything" by John Kehoe ..
Hello! I really enjoyed reading your torments - there are very few young people like you - to write competently and express themselves in this way. Congratulations! Being worried about your future is a very good thing, because most people your age live day by day and that's how life goes. I want to tell you that at your age I felt exactly the same way - confused, divided. , upset .. It is quite normal and I am convinced that it is from puberty. It affects everyone differently, but most become irritable, insecure, emotional ... I wandered between singing, athletics, acrobatics, swimming, judo, dancing ... until I found what I wanted. And let me tell you - 5 years later I still don't know exactly what I want. Try not to take things so seriously, let time do its job - you will understand what you want and what makes you happy. It doesn't happen that way, from today to tomorrow - you say to yourself - I decided to become a WRITER and OK you find your vocation. No ... that's the point - to wander, to try, to make mistakes, to lose and win, to understand what kind of person you are and what you want. My advice as a person who has been in exactly the same position as you is to just play sports. And not to make a living from it or to become super famous, but simply because sport is strength, energy, health. Sport hardens and teaches, no matter what it is. And it is better to invest energy and strength in your health than to say in drugs, cigarettes, alcohol. Congratulations on training and I advise you to keep going and do your best. And those moments when nothing is done to you and you feel somehow empty will pass, be absolutely sure. Well, not forever ... I, now grown up, have such moments, but they are not so common. And, when, for example, nothing is done to you, you don't feel like going anywhere, you are bored and empty, I advise you to read books, as the girl before me told you. (She recommended a very good book to you, you will not regret it ..) There are many books for self-knowledge, spiritual growth and exploration of the world around us, which will help you look through different prisms of things and will definitely cheer you up and help! I wish you success and whatever you decide and do - do not regret and think sooo much .. The things that happen to us are not accidental .. :)) Mrusnella you are bored and empty I advise you to read books, as the girl before me told you. (She recommended a very good book to you, you will not regret it ..) There are many books for self-knowledge, spiritual growth and exploration of the world around us, which will help you look through different prisms of things and will definitely cheer you up and help! I wish you success and whatever you decide and do - do not regret and think sooo much .. The things that happen to us are not accidental .. :)) Mrusnella you are bored and empty I advise you to read books, as the girl before me told you. (She recommended a very good book to you, you will not regret it ..) There are many such books for self-knowledge, spiritual growth and exploration of the world around us, which will help you look through different prisms of things and will definitely cheer you up and help! I wish you success and whatever you decide and do - do not regret and think sooo much .. The things that happen to us are not accidental .. :)) Mrusnella
Dude ... I'll only advise you one thing, train your football and don't give up! Unfortunately, I did not have this opportunity to start training at a young age, and you have already built a foundation and I advise you not to destroy it. And this for the hesitation is completely normal, it is from puberty, it will pass in time. Good luck with football, dude :)
Honestly, dude, I'm in exactly the same position as me. I can only tell you not to pay attention to those who offend you and to move forward without other thoughts. During the game, if you are still training, you need to be calm and just think about how you will play the next position. And don't be afraid that you will make a mistake, but on the contrary, you should always try, because Berbatov said "those who play with fear remain anonymous", so play calmly without being confused by the rest.
So I know that it is very difficult for you and I know that you will overcome it. I am still young. I train in Ludogorets Razgrad in 2001 and to tell you that teammates insult you is not normal. I am in the team for a year and no one has annoyed me. if you want, try to get closer to them in some way
It's different for me, so up to 10-11 years. I couldn't play very well and they insulted me for it. When I was 12, they sent me to the village, so to speak, and I was very dumb there, and I decided to train a little bit of football. I returned to Sofia and the next day I was called to kick. I did some feints that I had watched on youtube (after I came back from the village), I didn't know what was happening just without wanting to do these feints, my legs were just moving without me making them (you still won't understand me). The next day I was called to play again and I was very weak. I liked that feeling. I started playing more football, I got better. I started wanting to become a footballer. But I worry about 2 things, 1. that I am very long 1: 76 cm, although I have not grown since last year (now I am 13) my classmates are somewhere 1: 70 cm. 2. In my opinion, it is too late to train football, more who train have already formed. I ask you if it makes any sense to continue or not. (I was told I had a flair for the game). I asked my mother if she could enroll me to train at Levski and she said yes. My grades are not the best. If it's really too late to train, it's better to focus more on learning.
Train, It's never too late! WHITE BEAR
I have the same story and sometimes I think to give up football but it's not like that DO NOT GIVE UP you will achieve a lot just try and have fun don't pay attention to your friends or people none of them will arrange you in a team you have to do it yourself prove emphasize football and most importantly DO NOT GIVE UP !!!
If you want to become a good football player, train hard, and if you are worried during a match that it is very clear that you will make a mistake, you should play as if you were playing with friends on the street and when someone shouts at you because you made a mistake or something else. you say to yourself "end, I give up" and try to get better. To become a professional {Good} footballer you must have a desire to become a footballer and if you have a desire for everything else experience easily, I'm talking about feints, accurate shots, good placement on the field all this you can do. And one more thing, I read that at some point you didn't see meaning in life, let me tell you, I thought the same thing until I set a goal in life to become a football player and now I see the meaning, you have to do what you love.
I am 14 years old, the same thing happens to me! In my opinion, this is normal. And I am trying to become a football player, to join a team ... Go forward, don't give up DESPITE EVERYTHING!
From the author: thank you all for the comments, I accidentally remembered this topic, which was written more than 2 years ago and decided to "remember" my torments since then. A lot of water has run out, a lot of things have changed, I still train football, but unfortunately all these years I have always been hesitant about whether I want to play or not. Do I want to develop professionally in this direction. I have been very, very bothered about this issue. I can't think of anything to put more mental effort into. But now I drive it more calmly. I no longer think about the meaning of life and similar issues, I try to live the way I think we should live. The thing that I may have missed then, and now I notice in the perspective of time, is the lack of character. Another mistake I made then, was that I didn't communicate enough with my teammates, I wasn't partying with them. I thought there was no need for empty talk, I spent my time deep in thought. Now I have changed, I am much more sociable. I still have a lot of dilemmas ahead of me about my future. I have not yet decided what and especially where I want to study. 1-2 years ago I thought of studying abroad or at AUBG, but now I'm not sure and, to be honest, I study more at a Bulgarian university. The thing I've been thinking about a lot lately are the girls. Because I am also a Christian, I believe in Christian values, it is difficult for me to find a suitable girl for me in the current situation, looking at most of them. Life really is a school. Which teaches in a nasty way. I've learned a lot so far. I will definitely study more. I was not partying with them. I thought there was no need for empty talk, I spent my time deep in thought. Now I have changed, I am much more sociable. I still have a lot of dilemmas ahead of me about my future. I have not yet decided what and especially where I want to study. 1-2 years ago I thought of studying abroad or at AUBG, but now I'm not sure and, to be honest, I study more at a Bulgarian university. The thing I've been thinking about a lot lately are the girls. Because I am also a Christian, I believe in Christian values, it is difficult for me to find a suitable girl for me in the current situation, looking at most of them. Life really is a school. Which teaches in a nasty way. I've learned a lot so far. I will definitely study more. I was not partying with them. I thought there was no need for empty talk, I spent my time deep in thought. Now I have changed, I am much more sociable. I still have a lot of dilemmas ahead of me about my future. I have not yet decided what and especially where I want to study. 1-2 years ago I thought of studying abroad or at AUBG, but now I'm not sure and, to be honest, I study more at a Bulgarian university. The thing I've been thinking about a lot lately are the girls. Because I am also a Christian, I believe in Christian values, it is difficult for me to find a suitable girl for me in the current situation, looking at most of them. Life really is a school. Which teaches in a nasty way. I've learned a lot so far. I will definitely study more. Now I have changed, I am much more sociable. I still have a lot of dilemmas ahead of me about my future. I have not yet decided what and especially where I want to study. 1-2 years ago I thought of studying abroad or at AUBG, but now I'm not sure and, to be honest, I study more at a Bulgarian university. The thing I've been thinking about a lot lately are the girls. Because I am also a Christian, I believe in Christian values, it is difficult for me to find a suitable girl for me in the current situation, looking at most of them. Life really is a school. Which teaches in a nasty way. I've learned a lot so far. I will definitely study more. Now I have changed, I am much more sociable. I still have a lot of dilemmas ahead of me about my future. I have not yet decided what and especially where I want to study. 1-2 years ago I thought of studying abroad or at AUBG, but now I'm not sure and, to be honest, I study more at a Bulgarian university. The thing I've been thinking about a lot lately are the girls. Because I am also a Christian, I believe in Christian values, it is difficult for me to find a suitable girl for me in the current situation, looking at most of them. Life really is a school. Which teaches in a nasty way. I've learned a lot so far. I will definitely study more. I study more at a Bulgarian university. The thing I've been thinking about a lot lately are the girls. Because I am also a Christian, I believe in Christian values, it is difficult for me to find a suitable girl for me in the current situation, looking at most of them. Life really is a school. Which teaches in a nasty way. I've learned a lot so far. I will definitely study more. I study more at a Bulgarian university. The thing I've been thinking about a lot lately are the girls. Because I am also a Christian, I believe in Christian values, it is difficult for me to find a suitable girl for me in the current situation, looking at most of them. Life really is a school. Which teaches in a nasty way. I've learned a lot so far. I will definitely study more.
You took football too seriously. Take it as a workout, it's good to have one to move. Man is a mobile being and needs a dose of movement every day. But don't trust yourself too much! The chances are very, very small to achieve something really, it is not worth risking half your life in pursuit of an uncertain dream, especially since you have such periods of hesitation. Although you don't have to be so absorbed in your dream that you don't have periods of hesitation. I play bass guitar and before when I was studying, I wondered if I really wanted to continue, if I would ever play like a real musician. Well, with a little practice, work and most of all patience, I answered the question.
Hi, I'm 14 years old and I have the same story. I am in Portugal, and not everyone touches me like that (there are two of them). I'm actually the best on the team, the fastest. And then during the training we split up there and started to play and I did it in the most cultural and painful way (twine) and I proved myself to the great coaches of SPORTING and BENFIC. But unfortunately, my coach always found a reason to get tired of the matches, meaning that he hated, for example, a Bulgarian to play the most of all Portuguese (a twisted envy) and that's why I'm leaving for Bulgaria tomorrow. To try out at the LITEX academy. Don't give up and train a lot. And don't be afraid of the ball, and play calmly, don't be hasty.
if you are tense just lie down on the grass and listen to your calm music. And if someone annoys him, ignore him and don't listen to him. That's what a 10-year-old boy tells you, so be ashamed
Let me tell you, so am I! Now I'm 12 and every day since the summer I go out to play football and with each passing day and year I get better, but they probably won't let me train in a team because I don't have much time. We will go to Germany in time and I will want to train in Munich! I hope they will accept me, because I have improved a lot in football! That's why I advise you: train your football (you better become a football player, because on top of that they have high salaries) and don't care that they offend you! :)
There is no better life than that of a football player! It is worth every workout, every drop of sweat. It is not easy to become a professional, but if you become one - you will not regret it. It's too late for me, but there's time for you. Don't give up because football is worth it!
Hello, I am a 15-year-old boy. Is it possible for me to be accepted into a football team and can I become a football player? I have been playing football from the age of 7 until this age and I continue to play and will continue to play. 3 years ago I signed up for a football team, I played for 8 months, but every day after school, when we were training, I went home and left my backpack, had lunch and left for training. But after a while my parents started arguing with me, but it started every day I come from school and while I was going to train they always quarreled with me for a few 3 or 4 or something else. This put me under stress when we trained, I ran slower, my head hurt, I had no motivation. And when I came home from training in the evening, they scolded me again until I went to bed. This went on every day until one day the coach told me there was nothing to bother with you and me and another boy.
I am a girl and have been training at Athletic for three years. This summer I stopped training to think if I really wanted to. I have a great passion for football and I am grateful to my friends who encouraged me to play football.
Never give up football. If you want to become a footballer, you have to tighten up. I am small (12) and have been training football for a year. Yes, I started playing very late, but when I started I was terribly passionate. And weak. That's why in the summer, in the village, my friend and I caught up and trained the whole vacation. When I started school I scored 3 or 4 goals per game without a problem. Never give up. If you are weaker than others, train, and if there are great results you will feel something that will make you never stop football again. SUCCESS!