I don't know where to start. My life is completely wrapped up. It all started when I was 17 (now I'm 22). Together with my friend, we smoked grass every day, sometimes 2 cigarettes depending on the mood. At 18, we're already stoned with every junk. It happened to be Irre
We were already junkies. They both left their families and we lived the house together, we stopped going to school. Every night, I'm organizing a crazy dog-house-you know a lot of dope, weed, booze, and for dessert sex. My boyfriend was taking drugs for a seizure, and since I was the only girl in the company, his buddies were cutting me one by one. They raped me in the most brutal way. And he--my love didn't know which world it was in
When I told him he was starting to laugh and saying, "Why are you lying now?" "And so I resigned because I didn't want to lose... He was all I had... every night after another party, he fell asleep, and the three of them (his friends) were talking to me. It's not like I've lost all my friends, only my brother, who is two years older than me, did not give up and continued to pour my brains into the head. But I never listened to it. Everything went on last year in May. On 22 May, my friend and I had a very cruel fight, because I realized that
Cheated on me with the woman who supplied us with the drugs (because he had no money, he paid in kind) I came out from home furious and went to my brother's apartment... in the morning I went to our apartment to tell my friend that I forgive him because I can't live without him.
I found the love of my life lying on the floor in the unconscious with a needle in my hand. I called an ambulance, but when they came it was too late.
The other day after his funeral, I found a note at home, which he wrote to me: "I'm so sorry I cheated on you, I will never forgive myself for losing you. I love you. This note is the only thing I have left of him. Then my brother sent me to a commune in Italy (I speak Italyanski). I can safely say that I have been clean for 1 year. Six months ago my parents talked to me. I have a job, I get a decent paycheck... but I'm not happy... my friend is so missed. I'm dreaming about him all day.
I don't even know why I shared all this, but there's just no one to say I miss him. My parents don't allow mentioning his name. My brother also believes that by not talking about him I will forget him more easily, but not so. It's been 1 year and 7 months, and every day I think about it.
I can't and I don't even want to forget it.
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sherry_lee answered · May 15, 2020
Hi, I want to tell you that I accidentally stumbled across this site and your story, she excited me very much. I'm glad that after all this grief, you've been able to get out of this terrible talk. I wish you luck on the future!
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marymar_sotelo answered · May 15, 2020
Hi! Just because you were a junkie, nobody's insured of it, everybody's wrong. I have children and I beg to fall into such an environment. If all this is true, I'm sorry you've had such a period in your life. But the important thing is that you are already clean and you have the opportunity to not repeat this mistake. You're alive and life goes on, that's the point. You're young, and I'm sure You'il find the man who will love you and you. Look ahead and be happy!!!
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alishalove20 answered · May 15, 2020
I'm happy for you that you've managed to deal with this really, very, very big problem. I know a lot of people have told you that life is ahead of you. Everyone has had a hard time in their lives, but it is our duty to fight and continue to live... enjoy life and you will succeed.
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msivy8117 answered · May 15, 2020
It is good that consciousness gives a person the opportunity to remember, but sometimes it is not enough, because this remembers remains in the realm of our imagination, which alone is a pure illusion at the present moment, that is, if the memory in the past was some reality, now at the present time and in the future moment it is not, and can not be. More importantly, if a person manages to take stock of the past and apply it in the present. You mention in your story that you interrupted school, but you're not telling if you went through with it. One of the ways a person can push his thoughts out of consciousness is when he engages his mind with new ones, i.e. learning, and information related to the learning process is precisely this mechanism, except that learning can also be an environment for new acquaintances. But in order not to go into details, and in the realm of another topic, I will leave the conclusions to make them yourself.
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evayourdream answered · May 15, 2020
I support your last comment, too. It's a good thing you've done it all, and you've poured out of this recurring day of the same enchanted world. I think your friend will come back, maybe not with the same face, and you can find him, so you can figure out how much longer-just think about him.
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miss_riss answered · May 15, 2020
Very sad Story:( I'm glad you managed to overcome the drug problems.. I'm sorry you lost that way the boy you love... But be assured that one day a boy will come in his place to be your companion in life! Be happy, you deserve it!!!!!!! Do not look back:)
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cowboyxfit answered · May 16, 2020
It looks like a story from a newspaper article with a personal drama story
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j_e_e_s_i_c_a answered · May 16, 2020
Ha... Here you can observe the heavy influence of Puerto Rican series on labile personality, trying to attract attention and sympathy to yourself on the internet:)))))))))))))))
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jessycrown answered · May 16, 2020
Honey, you're lucky to be out of this hell of a drug! It's a big accomplishment that you've managed to get over it. You must be a strong character. About the fact that you can't forget your friend, 9, you're going to need time--it doesn't work that fast, but if you want to get over this grief on it, it's better to talk about this problem, not to shut up and suffer. If your parents don't want to hear about it, talk to girlfriends.
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kristen____ answered · May 17, 2020
You're 22 now, you've been pretty stupid before, and I can't understand why you're so sad about your past? Frankly, I also have experience with drugs, but I never overdo it. I'm not sure you've still figured out the whole situation. Just forget it, meet other people, make sure they're not from those circles, you'il see that it can be fun with them.
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drunk_angel_ answered · May 17, 2020
Don't Be SORRY, dear child! You've been through hell and you're alive, you can be proud of yourself! You regret your friend, but remember the rape, even though they were without his direct involvement, he indirectly participated because he introduced you into this environment, you're happy to have such a brother, you're not alone in this world! I'm going to find a friend to love you and feel the most special in the world! There is a Roman proverb "Patience is a virtue " , have patience and things will happen!
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merrybarbie answered · May 17, 2020
I have the same problem with my daughter, I don't know how to save her.
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yourvirtualxxxslut answered · May 18, 2020
Number 12, I think I can help you.
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kristinahouse answered · May 18, 2020
;( It's really getting to me. I also involved in this environment, but I broke up with my friend on time. I continue to get a shake now. I was one step away from seeing him die of an overdose... We're not together anymore, but I really miss him and I don't want to go back to him and I know I'm going to have problems again. I am much smaller than you, with 7 years
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sweet_adellexxx answered · May 18, 2020
Dear Girl, you returned from hell who brought you there? I don't think you loved him or he loved you, you just loved the dope.
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carola9090 answered · May 19, 2020
You're still strong after all that many people have happened to you in your place, they would surrender to you, bravoooo
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lunaqueeeen answered · May 19, 2020
Number 12. I think I'm currently solving a problem with your corner and you're successful--only with your son.
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annasteisi answered · May 19, 2020
Well, good for you, I just really admire you, how after all that you've got the strength to move on, you're a very strong man to me, that's all I wanted to tell you. I wish you a lot of success for the next! And it was successful-only with my son.
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milkystrawberry answered · May 19, 2020
I believe your story is real... Anyone can happen... You make me cry! Appreciate the life, please! Because of your friend who gave life to you! Think that if you hadn't developed things like that, you might not be the only one, but you're not now among the living. So live for him, yourself, and the people who love you...
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ballsy2121 answered · May 20, 2020
Why write such tearful stories I can not understand?? !! And asking you when your friend wrote that letter after he collapsed??? Nonsense you write only and some good people who are not aware of your things sympathize and they regret you. I don't understand why you do that.