As you can see the title describes how I feel. That aside, let me start with the story after all. I am 14 years old and generally I have no hobbies, I am ashamed of my classmates because they have achieved many things and are good in school. Especially if they put me on the board and confuse me, they start making fun of me, which distracts and petrifies me. I don't feel brave even to talk to someone because I don't know how they will react. I have a friend with whom I can talk freely. I constantly compare myself with others and their successes. I measure everything around me, how precisely it is done, I wonder how many people do it and how I feel. I didn't feel a problem before because I was constantly playing games, but after my keyboard broke I stopped, BUT I hadn't opened a textbook before and it's really hard for me. Our people don't give me a lot of money and because I have a brother and they are not high-income anyway. I live with my grandparents. My grandmother has a rather low pension and does not give me even BGN 5. My grandfather is not a scientist and is selfish .. Oh people, I hope you understand me, I will be very grateful for the advice.
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I wonder how much your classmates at 14 have achieved? It's not too late for you, get ready for school and concentrate on the future. Now your family may not have great opportunities, but that does not mean that you will be the same. You just need perseverance, perseverance and self-confidence. Yes, at school, especially when you are younger, there will always be someone to make fun of you for anything. They may laugh at your socks. Do not underestimate yourself and boldly move forward.
Go back to the computer. One keyboard costs 15 leva. And now seriously! I'm the same, I compare myself to everyone and I try to be better than them and I'm not angry because I think it's right that I want to be better than others. Do you understand what I mean by dates? !! Change your thinking and comparing yourself to others won't bother you because you think it's right
Catch up! Forget the games. Even if you have a keyboard. There are free group training - sports. Sign up - better health, self-confidence and contacts. Free events, etc. Try to ask a better child to help you after class - this way you will show a desire for development. Talk to teachers during their reception hours. Explain that you have realized that you have made a mistake, but you are ready to work to correct it. Each teacher has a reception time during which they give a consultation. When they see that you are really trying, they beg them not to put you on the board while you catch up with the material. I don't believe they will refuse you. How old are you? Find a job in the summer and raise money - a waiter, picking mushrooms, picking cherries. Yes, it will be difficult for you, but it is better than nothing
Start playing sports. This will give you confidence.
From what I've written, I can assume that you've been addicted to games for years. There was a gap in your childhood that prompted you to alienate yourself from the world and want to flee to virtual worlds. I would say that games are as harmful an addiction as cigarettes or even drugs, but socially. Your peers are successful in school, they have friends, boyfriends, they may lose their virginity already, but you feel weak and run away from your problems through the screen. Don't get me wrong, any boy could have gotten into your shoes, as long as the factors were against him as he grew up. I myself have not yet completely shaken off the years spent in your situation, so I cannot give you much advice. Just realize how you found yourself in these circumstances and start taking steps to climb out of this pit. Think about how you can change your environment, not be near places or people who are depressing to you because of the past. Kind of like a cat panicking when you bring it close to the sink.
Don't suppress your feelings. Only when you are yourself will you shine in the eyes of others, and most of all you will shine for yourself. Be in touch, there is no need to avoid contact with people. Know that not everyone can like you, but if you don't like yourself, if you think you're not worth it, who do you expect to do it with you. You play games so you don't think about your problems. You do not need money, but courage and more love from you to yourself. Take the first step. Somewhere there is a good friend waiting for you, start with yourself
Look, I completely understand how you feel. You are 14 years old and I think you are the first to have the opportunity to develop. Do not compare yourself with others, because everyone is different. Ignore the ridicule of your other classmates ... just remember that what you do is only for yourself. Believe in yourself and do not give up!