Hello! I don't know where to start, because at the moment I would sink to the ground in shame. For starters - I'm a girl, 99 sets (in mid-June I turn 20), I'm from Sofia, if it matters and I've never had a boyfriend, just short dunks with boys, I did not succeed, I've always been in depression because of boys and nothing was right, I had my first kiss when I was 18, and the first sex - a week ago, that's why I'm writing the story. I've always been far behind with the material, I have girlfriends who are 2-3 sets and already have extensive experience with boys, even in sex, I'm literally like the last hole in the kaval - always the last in life. Let's start the story itself (I'll tell you in dates) - on 04.05 I was looking at a group on FB, in which different drawings are uploaded and I saw that a boy had uploaded a very cool drawing and I decided to send him an invitation, I did not expect him to accept it, and he, in addition to accepting it, wrote to me afterwards. We started writing to each other, how old we are, where we are from, the ordinary things in an acquaintance, what interests we have, etc. He told me that he is also from Sofia - I am from Lyulin, he is from Druzhba (I will not say more details ), and whether we can see each other these days, because it will be stronger to meet live.
I told him I could, even though I wasn't entirely sure. The first time I told him I had a job (05.05), but on 06.05 we decided to see each other. He told me in a chat that the weather was not very good and we could stay in them, which didn't sound very good to me, but I told myself that if I felt something was wrong, I would just leave. We saw each other and went to them. He started showing me his paintings, even finished one of them in front of me, we talked about music and all sorts of things and so on for about 2 hours, then he went to bed and told me to come to him, I was a little embarrassed, but I still agreed. We hugged, we didn't do anything until he started rubbing inside me and we started pushing, first I pulled away and he stopped, but then I continued, and we did it - we didn't even have a condom, well, it didn't end in me. There was a lot of pain, there was blood, but definitely the pleasure was greater. Then we made oral love, I didn't even have the experience, but he obviously liked it. Then we lay naked, I even slid my hand to his and behaved like boyfriends, we kept talking, a little later we got dressed and he sent me to the taxi, as it was 1 o'clock after midnight, and my mother and father I wasn't very proud of the fact that I was coming home so late.
After 2 days we saw each other again and we did it again, even 2 times in a row with more poses, we talked more about our previous relationships, but the worst thing happened to me that he told me that at this moment he does not want relationships, soon had finished his last, not looking for a relationship, and I need just that. I think we have a lot of common interests, our age is okay (it's the 96th set, I forgot to mention), I have a strange feeling that it's like he likes me, but he's not sure, he told me he's a very honest person and he's he says everything that leads me to think that he may have nothing to do with me, but to be with me only for sex and for me to imagine some things, he tells me a thousand times that he wants us to be friends and he is happy, but I don't understand why after sex we hug and lie down, kiss on the forehead, cheek, mouth, caress me and tell me that I'm cute, etc .. We don't write hearts in chat, etc. n., I wrote him a heart once and he answered me, it's not like he doesn't answer, but he doesn't write me anything, he even started writing to me less often these days. Even before 10 o'clock he shone on me, came in and didn't write to me, it's weird. I'm hell-bent on it, I'm even afraid to see him if he offers to go out again because I don't think it will be the last time, in which we see each other. I like him, she is in love, for the moment, but I feel where things are going and I am afraid to become attached so as not to be hurt again.
What would you advise me to do in this situation? I literally feel like garbage, which I use for one time and it is no longer worth it, the worst thing is that I gave myself the virginity of the boy in question and this first time will be a memory for a lifetime. I apologize if the story was long, but I tried to be as comprehensive as possible,
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It wasn't forced, you liked it. Virginity is just a zipper, don't adore it so much. Don't push the boy - if something happens, it happens. If you ever meet the man for you, he will not have to be a virgin.
A bang-bang for a lifetime memory. Believe me, in a few years you will vaguely remember him for the first time, whether you are with this boy or with another. It's important, but not as much as it inflates. Otherwise, I'm squeezing your thumbs to get everything in order. Try to stay calm, panic will only hurt you.
In order not to feel like that another time, FIRST study what a man expects from you and then go to bed with him. But what happened happened. My advice for now is to continue having sex - whatever he says now will eventually fall in love with you more and more.
He made you a girlfriend with privileges - you're not boyfriends, but you act like one. You have sex, you kiss, you take the emotional and sexual part, but you refuse the responsibility. That is, he can do it if he wants to with others, just like you. Honestly, if you are not happy, you are to blame, you could have stopped, but you decided to continue.
Well, whatever happened, has already happened more than once. What can we advise you? Don't play on a first date? You probably already know that. If you don't know - not everything they write on Facebook is true, not everything they tell you - too. And sex is necessarily done with a condom, carry a box in your bag that you will need, maybe a particle, it's up to you. And with this wait, if he wants to be with you, he will look for you, if not, it has been so far, you have had fun and that's it.
Hello, as I tell you, you will suffer because of this boy, you have sunk and you are in love, and he is a thug. If you do not want to suffer, try not to see him. I know that whatever I tell you, you will continue and in the end everything will end in a nasty way for you. I just want to tell you you're not rubbish. Your hormones are raging, your blood is boiling, you are alive. Now is the time to make mistakes and see the bad so that one day you can appreciate the good. Don't think so much, just try not to be available to him non-stop.
You acted very stupidly to do it without a condom with a stranger, this is my comment so as not to go into detail. And yes, he definitely only wants you for sex when it's convenient for him. At 20, think a little with that head. F.25
And my life goes that way. But these things will be much more late, so you don't sleep much;)
Sex always with a condom! Such as keeping you clean is a complete fabrication. The man will say anything just to shine on him, especially if he realizes that she is inexperienced. So do not take faith and always insist with. Now this may be a bully, it may mean nothing to him. You will meet others like him, users, but also very decent. Just don't put it to heart, a man is rarely happy with his first experience in sex. Think of it as an experience.