Hello! I am in a terrible state of mind. I've never felt that way, people. I can not any more. I feel that I am worthless, that I have no talent, that I am incompetent, incompetent, etc. If only you had seen me before! I wrote poetry, I sang, I was sunny, cheerful, intoxicated by the truly meaningful and beautiful things in life. I'm gone now. And I want to die. Ah, I forgot. I'm 25 years old. I teach. I edit books. That's what I do. You guessed it, I don't feel like I'm worth these jobs, do you What will I teach the children? To what? Well, I want to kill myself !!!! Why live nothingness like me? The man I loved left me. A lot. A LOT. I still love him. I can't stand this emotional hell. It is starting to affect my health as well. I have the feeling that those around me consider me worthless and make fun of me, apparently even. Well, it doesn't make sense. I will never be the previous one. There is no mention of the sun man. I do not want anymore. That was it. Forgive me, mom.
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And I was like that ... when you fall in love, the meaning of your life will return and the joy that is now gone ... Until I found out, I felt love in the same way ...
The story and the pain you write with makes me feel a lot. You are nothing, don't underestimate yourself :) You are another good soul who has not found her place in the world. But do not despair that for what to surrender, if life is not in front of you, it is in front of you. I understand you, I am clear what it is like to lose your meaning, and every day, to extinguish your inner flame. You know what you need, someone to evaluate you, but before that someone, try to evaluate yourself. You deserve more than you've ever received. And I think that you live on it, it is felt by your words. You want to live, but right now you are very gloomy. Hey, you should not grieve, if you lose something, time will take you to another, which will restore happiness to you again :) Yes, that's right, it's not easy to think positively, if when you look around you, you don't see anyone to see it is taking care of you. And to put your pain on someone else's heart will surely be unforgivable for you. It all starts somewhere, whether it will be today or tomorrow, just try something new and different. Go out at least one day, and be where you haven't been, do what you haven't done. You have so many reasons to live, even for life itself :) He abandoned you, you say, but he was not the man for you. If he loved you, he would be by your side and help you, save you from the difficult moments. And he's gone, you love him, but he doesn't deserve your feelings, he doesn't deserve them. It is unlikely that only he is in your mind, you have other pressing problems that torment your mind. But you remember him, because he was the light for you, he was what made you strong. For you, everything was real. You will never be right before, but you can be better than your previous self :) Believe me. Just calm down, sometimes it's best to say enough pain, and at first a little forced to recover. Until you get back into rhythm. He was hardly the only one, give the opportunity to another. Allow yourself to fall in love again, and this time to be happier. Love heals the soul. ~ winterfire ~
I don't seem to have lived in a deep sleep until now, I don't know, but for several months I haven't found meaning in what I do - study, work. I do it because I have to, not because I want to. :(
Excuse me if I sound rude, I do not intend to offend you or mock your feelings. I think it is foolish and immature to identify with a single person whom you love and who for one reason or another is not with you. Who has never suffered from love? There is no such person! And what if everyone commits suicide, who will live? You are 25 years old. Don't turn your back on life from now on. Think about how many people there are who suffer more than you? Repeat to yourself that every evil is for good, learn to love every little thing that surrounds you. You work with children - direct all your energy to them and you will pass. Sooner or later. As the saying goes, "It hurts, it hurts, how much it hurts." To conclude, I will add something I read somewhere that seems appropriate to me: A man cried that he had no money for shoes until he saw a man without legs.
I don't know which time I'm writing it, but winterfire is right. You need someone to appreciate you and be by your side. Don't despair. From what you have written, I see that you are a learned and capable woman, so you yourself remember that you just fell into a period of depression. Don't let this condition engulf you. Stand in front of the mirror and list all the good things in yourself. Make up, make a new hairstyle and go out, albeit aimlessly. See some old acquaintances you haven't been in contact with in a long time. Laugh together. Do something different in your day. Something crazy, though, to get you off track. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you, but I see that you have a strong character and I believe that you will succeed. cake
You are nothing! No such thing! I see that you are a smart and talented woman. Apparently, the fact that your loved one has abandoned you has hurt you and made you think such bad things about yourself. At 25, life is ahead of you. You need someone to appreciate and love you. Everyone needs love, and the thought of living without it is destructive. Give a chance to someone else who can truly love you and support you in difficult times. Shom has abandoned you, so it's not for you and it doesn't deserve your feelings! Life is a struggle and you have to fight. Do not give up, you will have many more happy moments. A blessing in disguise. AC / DC
If you do not learn to live with yourself and for yourself, you cannot be grateful for life. Thank the Lord for creating you and participating in the magical cosmic game with him. And the stupidest man knows how to live ready, when he only receives, receives, But when it is necessary to manage things alone and above all himself, he begins to whine. The thought of suicide is the lowest and most sinful thought that can go through a person's head. What you are writing is shameful for a person who is on the threshold of life, and today's reality offers great opportunities. But until you become acquainted with your spiritual, cosmic nature and that the meaning of life is only in receiving, you will be left only with whining. IT'S ALWAYS BETTER TO FIGHT THAN TO MOAN. Most people happen to fall, the sensible and the strong find a way to stand up. The weak perish. It is up to you which side you will take. Petrov - Naturopath.
A: "I was abandoned by the person I loved. A lot. A LOT. I still love him." In fact, the opposite is true, you have abandoned the person who loves you the most in this world, more than anyone and everything else ... yourself . You are the person who needs to be loved the most and that is what you need to teach children, to teach them, to love each other. Lola
Thanks for sharing your opinion with me. Thank you all. But I have to say that it's not just leaving my boyfriend that affects how I feel. I found that I was a very insecure person. But you have no idea how much. I don't trust myself at all. And it always has been. And now I don't know how to overcome it. The author