Hello. I am a girl of 16 from a small town. My family is poor, one of my parents is retired due to illness. I have a grandmother, she lives in our house, but downstairs and helps us a lot financially, but she is old and sick. I love her, but at any moment I expect her to leave. If she doesn't have her help, we will have to dig in the buckets to eat. There is tension at home, there are scandals every day (forever because of money), sometimes even ours fight, and often I take such a nice fart, there is no peace, no love and understanding, as in other families. In general, the atmosphere at home is terrible. It's like everyone hates each other. I keep repeating to myself that I was going out as soon as I could because I was a burden to them and they couldn't stand me. I don't feel well, I don't feel loved and it's very hard for me. I have no friends either. I notice that nowadays people understand a "friend" as a person with whom you can waste your time and not be bored. And I do not want to communicate with such people. I want to have a girlfriend with whom we can get along, help each other, share everything and love and support each other, like the girlfriends in the movies, and I have witnessed such friendships in my life, but I can't to come across such a person. I don't have a sense of security, I don't have the feeling that someone is holding on to me and supporting me, I don't have a person to whom, as they say at 3 in the middle of the night, to call for some nonsense will happen and come. Nobody cares about me. I have a girlfriend, we have known each other for many years, but our relationship is small, like in a song I heard recently and I was very impressed by the lyrics. "Cream of hypocrisy, then a little powder of confidence, they even want to take my money to cover part of the monthly expenses. How do I save to get out of this hell by finishing 12th grade? How did I earn such a life in misery? Why do some have everything and others suffer? Why is life so dishonest? Why does everyone around me hate me? Why can't I find the answer to all these questions, no matter how much I think? Am I going crazy? Is it normal to start thinking about suicide? I am completely desperate, I see no way out ... as much as I think? Am I going crazy? Is it normal to start thinking about suicide? I am completely desperate, I see no way out ... as much as I think? Am I going crazy? Is it normal to start thinking about suicide? I am completely desperate, I see no way out ...
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I don't hate you and it's not true that everyone hates you, just get up at 18 and move out and you'll still be able to find a job and a place to live. It's not just you in this state.
Life has never been honest. The world is a very hypocritical and insidious place. There is a lot of pain on the ground ... But don't end your life! Live for yourself, and show that you are SOMEONE! But it is dishonesty that gives us the courage to keep going, because the lessons learned help us. Have goals, and live with confidence. Show that you will win life in his own game. Life is in front of you, live it. So at least you will know that you tried :) While reading your story, I wondered if I did not write it .. But the difference is that I already have the will to live. Find her too :)
Once you become an adult, go to work at sea seasonal work without telling yours. Gather the most necessary luggage. When you return, find a place to stay, a cheap room with some lonely elderly people in exchange for taking care of them, for example, shopping for them. But in no case do not go back to yours, when you go to school you can work part-time in your free time. There was a girl from the next class who lived only in a dormitory, supported herself by working at night and came to school during the day, it was difficult, but she managed and when we finished she went to study in London! So I believe that you will manage too, just don't give up. The other option is for you to go to the social services, they will give you either to foster parents or to a home or dormitory at SOS Children's Villages. A friend of mine lived with his alcoholic father in an unimaginable misery in a basement meter by meter, mice and rats passed by them, went to school with no torn clothes and everyone helped him in any way they could, the teachers gave notebooks and clothes from their children, and I I also gave him clothes, the wipers and they gave him from their children, arranged for him to eat for free in the chair. Then, in the 9th grade, his aunt was a teacher at his new school and somehow arranged for him to go to a youth dormitory at the SOS Children's Villages and get him out of misery. The conditions in their dormitory were not bad at all, they were in a new building with joinery, the rooms were colorful, nicely furnished, they brought them catering, gave them pockets, took them a week at sea and 5 days in the mountains in summer, bought them textbooks, clothes for the sea. . He had become a radically different person there,
Study to become a student, you will live in a dormitory, then you can go on brigades, you will meet many people, you will earn money.
Honey, you'll be done soon. You will move out, you will find a job. Slowly, but surely, you will go up and realize that everything taken away from you in your childhood will happen to you. You will have a wonderful life, I'm sure! :) I wish you success! F16
Study, enroll in a dormitory, get a scholarship, and when you can - look for a job in a cafe or restaurant. If you need a signature from yours for the job - lie to them that you will help them financially. They will sign up immediately. Fight and get out of there. Good luck and don't give up! Emanuela 25g.