There he is. Tall, dark stranger. A 41-year-old bachelor Dude from everywhere. Smart and shrewd, with a shocking sense of humor. His warm eyes pierce me approvingly. I, a single woman of 37. Meeting in broad daylight, in my city, in the parking lot in front of a large hypermarket. Trivial. And it started. The emotion kept me going for a week (at least) after each of our meetings. Feelings overwhelmed me, without even being intimate. I tried not to make it so obvious to him how intrigued I was. The man turned out to be exactly my type visually and as a character, worldview. Seen through my eyes was / is great! We also matched in astrological and numerological aspect / if this matters at all /. I missed him to the point of physical longing, but I had left the initiative to look for me to him. I did not force myself to bother. Here is the solution: after a few months of acquaintance, he certainly defined our relationship as hopeless because he was looking for a partner with whom to start a family / or at least cohabitation / and to give birth to a child while I was a realized woman / for the record - I have two children in puberty an unhappy marriage ended early /. I am of childbearing age. Physically and mentally healthy. My need to love and be loved is absolute. If it is love, pulsating with mutual thrill and passion, if it is provided emotionally and financially for me - I would give birth to a child ... Anyway. I am looking for a serious partnership in which I will be supported and I will be supported . I'm not just looking for sex. And I will not push where I am not wanted. And now I'm terribly upset. Is it because it was a long-awaited love Is it because I was one step away from making my faded dream of love a reality? I respected his choice. I hope a woman is found to appreciate it properly. He offered to contact us only as friends, but I refused. I repeat that there was no sex between us, sex was coming. I don't have the strength to communicate with him just like that ... There is no way for the wound to heal in this way. I have my job / interesting and prestigious /, my children / wonderful, amazing / and yet I stayed on the edge. Overwhelmed ... I was digging through the pain, and it was heavy. The pulse was hiccuping, thirsty for the end ... I trusted my intuition, I had clear indications that things between us would happen and get, but it wouldn't ... Good health! I did not betray myself - earthly, devoted and honest. I shyly accepted the compliments on how wonderful I am, how cute, sexy, cool, smart, etc. I don't want to be another for someone, I want to be the only one! The pain came back ... I didn't expect it ... Nooo ... Not again ... Like a hungry beast, it stuck sharp claws deep into my heart and drowned it in blood. I am writing to you in a moment of great oppression and sorrow ... I wanted to tell him and show him so many things, but it doesn't make sense. They will remain locked inside me forever. It's scary when you lose faith, when hope collapses ... to sprout again. I force myself to meet girlfriends, to distract myself, but it doesn't get any easier. I'm thinking of doing something different, like a stylish tattoo for life. It costs me a lot of effort to hide the sadness and treacherous moisture in my eyes! I know that often small doors open to large rooms. If you successfully shake off all the negative energy influences, you move forward - with positivism and a smile. And you don't know who your luck will be. Will there be a man who loves me strongly, unconditionally and unreservedly ?! Let there be the sun in my day, the wind in my sky, the waves in my ocean and the rhythm of my heart ... No man's land / no man's land /
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This one is not for you, believe in your dreams, they come true, you just have to wish it strongly ... on the other hand, you know every evil for good and now don't imagine that you will suffer, on the contrary, dream
I am very moved by your writing and especially the finale. It will be found, believe it :)
Hello, sister"! I allow myself to call you that because I am currently experiencing the same things you share here. It's like I wrote them. So, I decided to tell you about my "Love". We met 4 months ago. He is not from my city. We traveled, now he with me, now I with him. We talked on the phone every day. We talked for hours, laughed, shared, what not ... I had the feeling that I was looking for him all these years. I felt it was my other half. We complemented each other in every way. But gradually he began to back down and share, as if with regret, that I was "everything he dreamed of." Words that would make any woman happy, but not said that way. I realized that the fact that I had a child made him so insecure. He didn't expect that things would get so deep. He told me that he wanted a family, a child, but did not expect "that he would be in this shape"? This offended me a lot. My child is this "form". He puts his desires and dreams in a framework from which they should not go. But what is the guarantee, if the frame has it, that the picture in it will be the same as he dreamed of? In my opinion, both "your" and "my" people do not feel such strong feelings that they accept this fact unreservedly. And if they do not feel such strong feelings towards us, we will certainly not be happy ... Believe me! Things in a relationship need to be shared to work. I offer you my email, if you want to share how you are doing - [email protected]. Write me there. We can help each other. if the frame has it, will the picture in it be the same one he dreamed of? In my opinion, both "your" and "my" people do not feel such strong feelings that they accept this fact unreservedly. And if they do not feel such strong feelings towards us, we will certainly not be happy ... Believe me! Things in a relationship need to be shared to work. I offer you my email, if you want to share how you are doing - [email protected]. Write me there. We can help each other. if the frame has it, will the picture in it be the same one he dreamed of? In my opinion, both "your" and "my" people do not feel such strong feelings that they accept this fact unreservedly. And if they do not feel such strong feelings towards us, we will certainly not be happy ... Believe me! Things in a relationship need to be shared to work. I offer you my email, if you want to share how you are doing - [email protected]. Write me there. We can help each other. I offer you my email, if you want to share how you are doing - [email protected]. Write me there. We can help each other. I offer you my email, if you want to share how you are doing - [email protected]. Write me there. We can help each other.
One correction from №3- my email