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I Think About Suicide Every Day

By tyrsport September 25, 2020 19 answers Last updated September 25, 2020

Hello, I am a young boy of 20 and a few years from Sofia. My life has failed for almost a year. I accidentally discovered a problem with my eyes, and since then I have been telling myself that if I start not seeing, I will commit suicide. A little later, when I least expected it, I got injured and have become even more depressed ever since. I can no longer practice my favorite 2 sports, in general I can no longer play sports - this is something that used to make me happy, at least when I was naughty, and I was in shape and with a pretty good body. From there, my little self-esteem completely collapsed. I've never been particularly attractive to women, even though I've had girlfriends before, but then at least I had a nice body that they liked. Accordingly, the complete lack of female presence in recent years has still depressed me. From full of joy and dreams a year ago, now I am just a wreck with no desire for life. I have already stopped enjoying anything, because after something good such bad things happen to me that I totally dare not enjoy anything anymore and I am just waiting for the next bad thing that awaits me. I also limited my contacts with friends, simply because I was just depressed watching things go well with them in every way, I started going out alone and doing aimless tours of the neighborhood just to distract myself a little, but it didn't work out. And a lot of people aren't looking for me anymore. I have no desire to do anything, I can't sleep, I wake up many times at night and have difficulty falling asleep. One of the things that stops me from committing suicide is that I'm going to hurt my parents a lot, and I don't want to. I have not shared these feelings with anyone, I am basically an introvert. I know I'm a psychiatrist or psychologist, but they can do nothing but prescribe me antidepressants that I will not drink. When I think about it, I can't think of having any purpose anymore, I can't think of anything that will make me happy (maybe just being healthy, but that can't happen). I also don't think I have anything to give and be useful with anything.

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tru.kait answered · September 25, 2020

   Heeey ~~~~ And my eyes are sick, but they do not stop enjoying the sun. It gives me energy and faith in the world. Do you know why? Because while I was setting painfully, it rose every morning, without missing a single time. When I cried, it only wiped away my tears. :) The current moment for you is very critical, just like it was for me when I made my choice - happiness. You have to understand how simple everything is ... that loneliness is an illusion. Try to calm your heart, calm it. Try to listen to your mind. What does he tell you? Why? What is the real cause of your unhappiness? Isn't it the desire to make things look beautiful and balanced. You want your life to be in order, and it is already ... It is as it is. It brings with it reasons, everything has a reason, do you understand? Whether something is good or evil ... So there is a reason for it to be, but we are just people who also carry the cause within us without realizing it. Every moment something comes and goes. Every moment one dies and another comes in its place ... Even if you die, the world will continue to be as it is. Even if you die, you will still live and you will not be able to escape from yourself. Life is just a stage where you dance with billions of other people. Even if you make a mistake ... it doesn't matter, the music continues in its rhythm. Sometimes you can stop and look at others, you can follow in their footsteps or invent your own .. And the music goes and you participate ... You are part of a whole and when you learn to dance to the rhythm of life, you can be you go with dignity. Why aren't there animals that don't want to kill themselves? Because they do not know life. Haha, they only know death and run away from it. You are a man, you are a higher being, who has chosen life and to see life. So don't be afraid of him, please ... Step boldly into him. Live ... with sadness and happiness, with evil and good. Burn, let your body and spirit burn. Use everything you have ... And live, think, look at the picture from afar. Isn't that so bad? The world is full of so many different people and interests, and you are so full of hidden talents and opportunities that you do not suspect. Find your way ... Your own way in the world and to yourself, why should you follow others? Be independent. Five years ago, I also tried to commit suicide. But I was scared. :) I was wondering about the easiest way - just to be gone. The only thing that brought me back to life was the child in me, who, although ugly, was curious and smiling. He loved eating jelly bears and watching space documentaries. One day it realized ... That it was just a speck of dust floating somewhere in the outermost part of the galaxy with other dust. And in case there is a bad day ... there is a little dust left with a bad day ... Look for the child in you and give him a field to express himself. Believe me, it is generous and gives in abundance. Try to see as I see ... Try to get rid of the illusion of loneliness and unhappiness. Just try and you will understand that you can. Try to live ~~~ <3 Now I will write you a quote that I copied some time ago and I knew I would need it someday. Here is the moment: "Don't ask for anything, don't wait for anything and accept everything calmly. I think like this: I am who I am, and I do what I do, just for fun - that's how this game is set up, the wonderful game of There is nothing to gain, nothing to lose and nothing to prove. And that makes life a lot easier. " Antony Hopkins

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justincase9339 answered · September 25, 2020

   To be alive and healthy to be a brother. Maybe things will get better.

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diegoforlan7 answered · September 25, 2020

   I feel the same way, but for other reasons! I sympathize with you and wish you all the best! One girl

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thephotosociety answered · September 25, 2020

   You have fallen into some grumbling self-pity, which, I assure you, is different from depression. Yes, you may be depressed and there is nothing wrong with seeking a psychiatrist. He is a doctor like any other doctor and also works with drugs. You have to grab your hair a little and pull yourself together - in this case go to the doctor. You had something in your eyes, so you got injured, you're still coming back from the war. Really, are your problems so severe? Look around how many people around you have a perfect body? Well, a little, I'm just answering you. Well, now Blond Zlatka may pass you if she meets you, but someone else will like you.

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mileycyurs answered · September 25, 2020

   You are not the only one, the situation is similar for me. I've had such suicidal thoughts for five years, but lately I've been thinking about it more and more. And I no longer have any goals, even what I used to enjoy can no longer affect me in any way. A few months ago I got injured and I can no longer play sports, I doubt I will ever be able to. This totally ruined me because I'm not one of those people who likes to be lazy, lie down, etc. Now that I think about it ... before the injury I just didn't realize what I had and I was depressed about nonsense until now at least I have a real reason for that. I don't know what advice I can give you, because at the moment I just exist because of my parents. I have heard (though not so religiously) that the Lord gives suffering to the strong and to those who can handle it. Lately, I've started to believe this, because a lot of bad things have happened to me, and I've always found the strength to cope somehow. Imagine another person in your place who does not have a strong will and a weak psyche, how could he cope with what you are forced to live with. Well, it won't work because it's not you. I'm sure things will change with you. You just have to be more positive and believe that everything will fall into place. Not all bad things happen to you all your life. Think that one day something good will happen to you. And I am of the opinion that a psychiatrist will not help, there is no point in taking various antidepressants and getting worse. Only you can help yourself. who does not have a strong will and a weak psyche, how can he cope with what you are forced to live with. Well, it won't work because it's not you. I'm sure things will change with you. You just have to be more positive and believe that everything will fall into place. Not all bad things happen to you all your life. Think that one day something good will happen to you. And I am of the opinion that a psychiatrist will not help, there is no point in taking various antidepressants and getting worse. Only you can help yourself. who does not have a strong will and a weak psyche, how can he cope with what you are forced to live with. Well, it won't work because it's not you. I'm sure things will change with you. You just have to be more positive and believe that everything will fall into place. Not all bad things happen to you all your life. Think that one day something good will happen to you. And I am of the opinion that a psychiatrist will not help, there is no point in taking various antidepressants and getting worse. Only you can help yourself. that one day something good awaits you too. And I am of the opinion that a psychiatrist will not help, there is no point in taking various antidepressants and getting worse. Only you can help yourself. that one day something good awaits you too. And I am of the opinion that a psychiatrist will not help, there is no point in taking various antidepressants and getting worse. Only you can help yourself.

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barrocazsoficial answered · September 26, 2020

   "When you go through Hell, keep walking." - This is my advice. The wheel of life is spinning and even though you are not feeling well today, things will turn around the next moment and everything will change. Arm yourself with patience and hope, because one thing is certain in life and that is change. Give life a chance. :)

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lauraih answered · September 26, 2020

   Go to a psychologist! He does not work with drugs, but with words. Only a psychiatrist prescribes medication. Make an appointment with a good psychologist and he will help you. I don't know what other advice to give you, since you haven't shared exactly what it is. How much do you not see and what is the other problem?

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illbeyours1993 answered · September 26, 2020

   Hello, for strong eyesight I recommend foods rich in vitamin A, especially liver. For depression - bananas and chocolate. Leaving food aside, find a hobby you like and watch whatever videos you want in the tube, don't give in to gloomy thoughts, get distracted. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your life, a new day filled with new things, do not despair but look forward to the opportunities that open up.

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tobiaskesyu answered · September 27, 2020

   Go to a psychologist. Suicide will not solve your problems, but will carry them into eternity.

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mythicmac answered · September 27, 2020

   First, treatment by a specialist is not just pills. After a few conversations, I saw things I hadn't seen before. What is the problem with your vision? You do not specify anything. I recommend you Associate Professor Dr. Kyuchukov, he works at ISUL, in fact he is the head of the eye department. For me the best doctor in Bulgaria. And ISUL is the place where the emergency eye center is. Learn not to resist, but to accept and seek solutions. You are curled, but your finger is stubborn and there is no other option. Life is not what we see. That's why they are psychiatrists, psychologists ... to help us overcome the difficulty. The intelligent person seeks help from a specialist. The table hides, lies, does not admit, is stubborn and sinks. If you come out of this state you will see that you see the world through the lens that your upbringing, experience, mentality, understanding ... gives you, but this is just a point of view.

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paola_herrera answered · September 28, 2020

   Hello. There was a similar topic here and one of the comments to the man was to see the story of Nick Vujicic and his motivational videos. The person is born with a very rare anomaly - without limbs. The only thing that helps him is a small growth in the lower part of the body, through which he moves in a sitting position. As a child, he wanted to commit suicide, but somehow moved on and is now happily married to a beautiful woman. In all his videos, he is so smiling and positive that I even felt dumb watching them, because a disabled person has a thousand times more will to live than I do. Think about whether your problems are simply due to your weak will at the moment. Do you know how much this person would give to make your aimless walk in the neighborhood? Do you know he swims? As he has no arms or legs, he swims with the help of the small body he has. Your injury is no excuse for you not to play sports. You had a nice body, now you don't and you don't get attention from the girls. Well, he has half a body and he still found a girl to be by his side and love him. In one of the interviews, she says this is the person she was looking for. She was impressed by his personal qualities, not his physical ones. In another video, they give him lectures / seminars in front of a huge audience. People listen and watch him and at the end of the lecture they cry and hug him. Because a person, without the right to choose what to look like, has tightened up and decided to live, not to feel sorry for himself. After what I wrote to you, decide for yourself whether to look for it. The way a person looks is shocking and not for every psyche. But his words against the background of what you see are even more shocking. You simply have no excuse not to live and to voluntarily destroy everything that life has given you. Stop aiming high and first evaluate the things you have. Rediscover the things you love to do. I'm sure your interests are not limited to two sports. There are so many things that can deliver pleasure and adrenaline. Find which ones are yours. As for the eyes, I strongly doubt that you will stop seeing. We live in an age of such highly developed technologies, incl. medically that almost every disease has at least two ways of adequate treatment. Get the nonsense of suicide out of your head. We will all die sooner or later ... But why do you have to hurry before you have tried at least a little bit of life? Tighten up and try to make him happy. There are always ways. Stop aiming high and first evaluate the things you have. Rediscover the things you love to do. I'm sure your interests are not limited to two sports. There are so many things that can deliver pleasure and adrenaline. Find which ones are yours. As for the eyes, I strongly doubt that you will stop seeing. We live in an age of such highly developed technologies, incl. medically that almost every disease has at least two ways of adequate treatment. Get the nonsense of suicide out of your head. We will all die sooner or later ... But why do you have to hurry before you have tried at least a little bit of life? Tighten up and try to make him happy. There are always ways. Stop aiming high and first evaluate the things you have. Rediscover the things you love to do. I'm sure your interests are not limited to two sports. There are so many things that can deliver pleasure and adrenaline. Find which ones are yours. As for the eyes, I strongly doubt that you will stop seeing. We live in an age of such highly developed technologies, incl. medically that almost every disease has at least two ways of adequate treatment. Get the nonsense of suicide out of your head. We will all die sooner or later ... But why do you have to hurry before you have tried at least a little bit of life? Tighten up and try to make him happy. There are always ways. which can deliver pleasure and adrenaline. Find which ones are yours. As for the eyes, I strongly doubt that you will stop seeing. We live in an age of such highly developed technologies, incl. medically that almost every disease has at least two ways of adequate treatment. Get the nonsense of suicide out of your head. We will all die sooner or later ... But why do you have to hurry before you have tried at least a little bit of life? Tighten up and try to make him happy. There are always ways. which can deliver pleasure and adrenaline. Find which ones are yours. As for the eyes, I strongly doubt that you will stop seeing. We live in an age of such highly developed technologies, incl. medically that almost every disease has at least two ways of adequate treatment. Get the nonsense of suicide out of your head. We will all die sooner or later ... But why do you have to hurry before you have tried at least a little bit of life? Tighten up and try to make him happy. There are always ways. before you tried at least a little bit of life? Tighten up and try to make him happy. There are always ways. before you tried at least a little bit of life? Tighten up and try to make him happy. There are always ways.

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lsrp_official answered · September 28, 2020

   I'm a 17-year-old girl and I can't help you much, but at least I can tell you you're not alone. I feel the same way as you and the only thing that sustains me is that I found (albeit virtually) people going through the same thing. Life is not easy, but we must remind ourselves that it is not easy for others and help each other. Look for a loved one, if you can, and share some of your pain with him. Life is colorful, although it is difficult to see sometimes. We just have to hold on a little longer

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sweeeethoney answered · September 28, 2020

   Suicide is never the answer. Rest from the things you do, give your body time to recover from the injury. You are an athlete, accept these things as obstacles you can go through. These bad thoughts are your opponent, show him that no matter how hard I hit you, you will not break. Life is structured like this - between the good moments there are bad ones and you have to see how to get the best out of every situation. You must not let life bring you to your knees. Believe me, you will have good moments and success as long as you do not give up. Whatever you do, never make the mistake of committing suicide!

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danidezzi answered · September 29, 2020

   Turn inward, all you need is yourself. What has happened to you is a lesson not to seek sensual pleasures and not to become attached to anything, because happiness is not in pleasures, but in peace of mind and the eradication of desires. If you commit suicide, you will ignore this lesson and go to hell. A healthy body, sports and women are not everything - sooner or later everyone crashes, the body transmits it and ceases to be of interest to the opposite sex, there is nothing eternal. I advise you to follow a spiritual path, in particular that of Buddhism.

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veryuk answered · September 29, 2020

   Human life is already short, at least in my eyes. If you put an end to it now, you admit that you are not worthy to live it. I'm telling you this to find a new goal - to show that you deserve to live, and not just be part of the statistics. If you do not want to hurt your parents - do not commit suicide. Live for them (at least for now). I gave you a goal, people to live for, but I have to tell you one last thing. It is the most important: - Do not die for dead love!

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daddyissues_sweden answered · September 29, 2020

   Read the book by the medium James Van Praag "Conversation with Heaven" - the chapter 'Souls of Suicides' has been published for reading on the Internet. In short, this chapter says that if you reach out to yourself, you are trapped between two dimensions, you see, you hear the people around you, but they do not see you and they do not hear you. At 20, instead of giving up, struggling with the difficulties in your life, try to regain your health, look for ways to have fun even when you're alone, watch comedies, join fun Facebook groups and socialize with other people, play games on your tablet, the site 'reader' has thousands of free books of all genres, reading you gain life experience and become stronger as a person. To have a beautiful body, long walks, abdominal presses, push-ups, lifting dumbbells, cycling are enough. Eat delicious and favorite food - food makes people happy. Difficulty falling asleep, sleeping with repeated awakenings and lack of sleep are the cause of depression and other health problems. After an unawakened 8-9 hours of sleep, everyone is charged with energy and overflows with happiness. Drink herbal teas with a calming effect or mint onions in sugar factories have a soporific effect. Listen to good music, it will improve your mood. Look at life with a more sense of humor. Success! Look at life with a more sense of humor. Success! Look at life with a more sense of humor. Success!

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gia_tease answered · September 30, 2020

   "Don't ask for anything, don't wait for anything and accept everything calmly. I think like this: I'm who I am, and I do what I do, just for fun - that's how this game is set up, the wonderful game of life. There's nothing here to win, nothing to lose and nothing to prove. And that makes life a lot easier. "Forgive me, Sir Anthony Hopkins, a wonderful actor, but not a counselor. When I read this quote and the depressive episode only intensified, it is almost - everything is meaningless. Just for fun ... this thinking of people kills me slowly, precisely because they don't think, but they want to live lightly and comfortably, without thinking about anyone or anything. You have fun, yes, selfish, and others die. Let everyone take care of themselves, ... use yourself while you are comfortable and then - everyone is alone. It's just that there are sensitive people, who do not tolerate the rudeness of others and cannot become like them - nephews and egotists. The only way for a truly sensitive person to survive in this world is to limit contact with people, but unfortunately for me, I can't help but communicate with anyone, and because I'm a magnet for daffodils and psychics, incl. and in such a family I grew up, always mournful, and I pitiful, so everything is sown to me with each deeper contact with someone. That's why I decided to communicate superficially like most people, even though it's an empty job, like living at 50%, but I'm tired of being emotionally ill, which affects my psyche, my body, and my life. And yes, spiritual literature and classical music, as well as nature walks - help, but in our lives we do other things that can burden us to the point of being depressed again, and such situations cannot be avoided .... What about your own family - with whom? Since I do not have faith in the person opposite, in order to have faith, I must close my eyes and open my heart to receive a new dose of pain. The bad thing is that the most unconscious people, in search of happiness and fun, look for other people, be it for a relationship, friendship ... but when they are unconscious - they only hurt. Hey, they can't live alone because they feel how empty they are. I'm not a filler. About suicide - even that makes no sense to me. but when they are unconscious, they only hurt. Hey, they can't live alone because they feel how empty they are. I'm not a filler. About suicide - even that makes no sense to me. but when they are unconscious, they only hurt. Hey, they can't live alone because they feel how empty they are. I'm not a filler. About suicide - even that makes no sense to me.

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hsanghyuk answered · September 30, 2020

   And about @ 19 and 'food makes people happy' is complete nonsense, especially for a person with mental or emotional problems, or for someone with bipolar disorder type 1 or 2 with cyclical episodes of mania and depression. One of these obsessions can be anything that brings pleasure, incl. food ... orthorexia, bulimia, anorexia ... I've all gone through periods of mania, so don't say that food makes people happy ... for people like me, anything can be turned into something irrational. I hope the author is better than me.

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akula778 answered · September 30, 2020

   I hope you are still alive and better. Yes, you need a psychologist or psychiatrist. Make an appointment. And take what they prescribe. Why not take antidepressants? They will help you. There is a cure for you.