I walk the streets and gather so much pain and weight. All these people with their happy faces, some in a hurry somewhere, others carefree. Their ordinary existence and their ordinary human problems. All this fills me with a very sad feeling. The sun that shines over them, the rain from which they hide. Mothers pushing strollers, groups of teenagers, the old age of retirees. Suddenly I hated everything and everyone in this world. I can't put up with his device. I can't accept that I will have to work at least 8 hours a day. I don't want to work and have no time for real miracles all my life. Call me a lazy slut. I don't want a family, children. I do not want to live the life that mass culture has predestined us to live. I have other priorities. I want to travel the world in a cheap caravan and have a rock band of real and liberated people. I don't know what's happening to me. I'm only 18, and I close without going anywhere, just me, I think, the many books and the music I love so much. I do not have friends. I don't have people to share how I feel. No wisdom around me. Why everyone lives so superficially. Work, sweat, bills, a nice house, a well-paid job - is that life, damn it? I stopped caring. For hunger, for poverty, for all global problems. I don't want to save the world anymore. I feel like I'm from another planet. I can't find my place. I live in my own fictional world even when I walk the streets, even when I talk. I just can't accept that reality. I want to die, and that's how I live, but not in such a reality. Hopefully at least one will appear in the comments, who doesn't tell me to stop dreaming and visit a therapist. Thanks for your time!
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You don't want to die. You just want to live differently. If you are interested in music and sing well, look for like-minded people. You can really reap success in the field. For the Fa to find the right people, however, you must not shut yourself in. If you're in 12th grade, don't go to university, at least not right away. You will have to make the victim work, a boiler would provide you with funds for music, instruments and everything related. I don't think you're a low-intelligence sloth, you don't sound like one. You're just in an existential crisis.
Look, you are free to live as you want - remember this, never forget it! No matter who tells you what, as long as you follow the laws of the country you are in, you can live as you like. Don't explain to people about your dreams and plans, just follow them. But here with this topic you risked a lot of criticism from various uncles, aunts and various other evil souls - I tell you to know that some of them may write you something that will burn you .. The only way is not to be attached to them. HOWEVER, YOU MUST FIND SOMETHING TO MAKE MONEY FROM !!! THINK ABOUT WHAT ATTRACTES YOU, SELF-EDUCATE YOURSELF IN THIS FIELD AND DARE.
Well done, at least one realized that the whole scheme that people have built for their lives is just a waste of time and we waste our lives with constant MEANINGLESS obligations.
Don't worry, many people have similar views on life. You don't have to die or get depressed. Look for something or someone to make you happy. Thus, you will abstract from things. This for the rock band, I liked: p. Let's hope there is a benefit from our comments on the site.
You are depressed. I was the same until I found a job in an office. We were 30 people and it was very cool. I also socialized. This restored my desire for life. Now I have changed jobs and I miss my colleagues. As my new colleagues are older, I am afraid I will return to loneliness. I hope I'm wrong ...
You're definitely a liar. Maybe not lazy, just infantile and elementary.
There is nothing special or impossible in your movie hippie dreams. The thing is, the caravan costs money, and you're unlikely to find anyone to give it to you. If you find - thank you. Then, while touring, you will need food, but if you have a rock band, you will earn from concerts, for example, and you will take food. Your problem is that you don't realize how society works. Such "rebels" as you do not realize that if it were not for this society, for which we have to work for I do not know how many hours (not all of us work 8 hours, some are 4) we would not have, for example, health care and emergency care , we would not have police (which, no matter how inadequate, is better with it than without it), we would not have schools, etc. Otherwise, I'm just asking you not to call your hippie dreams "true miracles." There is no greater miracle than creating a new life.
Man, it was literally like listening to myself as I read this. Unfortunately, I can't give you advice, because I'm in the same situation, but I can tell you that I fully understand you. Nowadays, everyone lives so superficially that they do not even notice for a moment the true beauty of life, which is in the slightly deeper and more meaningful things. I'm glad I found a person who thinks like me.
Read the book Rich Dad, Poor Dad of Kiyosaki.
Isolation, music, a superficial world, no wisdom, no suicide. Everything is there so far. You must be wearing black and cutting yourself with a model knife. We both know that you accept us, you pass on "wisdom" to us, so there is no point even in experience. And if we accept that your call is not just a pathetic whining for attention, then you will not be dissuaded from death. So just a few truths before you reach for the razor again. Our mutual friend (life) likes to remind them. Life is what the individual defines for himself. What is "superficial" for you is fun for another. The only superficiality here is yours, because in your unconscious arrogance you reduced the lives of the people in question to "work-accounts-house". I reduce the priorities described to you to "cart-rock-alcohol". You don't agree and I don't care, as you don't care about my description. This should lead you to think that you do not know much of the "superficial" life in question. I know it won't, but it should. Which brings us to the next part - people do what they can with the opportunities they have. The key word: do. They don't "stand and mumble," they "do." Your goal is to shake the caravan with other lazy hippies and drunks to play in circulation bars? All right, do it. But to make money on it ... you have to work. Mom and Dad won't arbitrarily mortgage the house so that their princess (whose musical talent isn't even guaranteed) can spit into the microphone after midnight. And with this friendly isolation you are in, I wonder where the other liberated people will be. And now the finale: there can always be a change. There are other interests, there are different ways to have fun and live. Shock, but there is work that is not a pain to die. You can adapt or maintain the status quo - self-pity with grumbling. If you choose the latter, then don't be surprised why society will rightly call you a "lazy league".
Hey! Your dreams are wonderful. Why do you want to die? Your life is just beginning !!! You just haven't been in the right environment. You must be from a small town or village and the people around you have different understandings of life. Work is needed so that a person can eat, have a place to sleep. But you don't have to work 8 hours a day. It depends on how you settle. I do not work 8 hours a day, but I earn as much as the average salary (I live outside Bulgaria) What do you mean by "work"? For many people, work is something annoying and unpleasant that they are obliged to perform in order to receive money. But work can be a nice thing. Choose to study something that you like and provide a good income. Why not develop an online business? Haven't you thought about that? Many people who travel the world make money through online business. They are not millionaires or rich, but they earn enough to be able to live and travel. There are people who travel and look for work on the spot. It all depends on how a person will organize. Traveling is not a luxury. I understand that in Bulgaria, unfortunately, people are very harassed, and in general there are no avid travelers at every turn. But that doesn't mean you have to give up your dreams. Why do not you write to me? I'm older than you, but my dream is the same: I want to travel the world, to get to know other cultures. So far I have not traveled outside of Europe, and there are many more to see from Europe. I don't think about children yet, but I'm already 28. I'm a very unusual person. Write to me at mileisabelcg @ gmail. com. There are also many Facebook groups and Internet pages with useful information for people like us. Blogs, etc. If you know English you will see a lot. There are people who travel and look for work on the spot. It all depends on how a person will organize. Traveling is not a luxury. I understand that in Bulgaria, unfortunately, people are very harassed, and in general there are no avid travelers at every turn. But that doesn't mean you have to give up your dreams. Why do not you write to me? I'm older than you, but my dream is the same: I want to travel the world, to get to know other cultures. So far I have not traveled outside of Europe, and there are many more to see from Europe. I don't think about children yet, but I'm already 28. I'm a very unusual person. Write to me at mileisabelcg @ gmail. com. There are also many Facebook groups and Internet pages with useful information for people like us. Blogs, etc. If you know English you will see a lot. There are people who travel and look for work on the spot. It all depends on how a person will organize. Traveling is not a luxury. I understand that in Bulgaria, unfortunately, people are very harassed, and in general there are no avid travelers at every turn. But that doesn't mean you have to give up your dreams. Why do not you write to me? I'm older than you, but my dream is the same: I want to travel the world, to get to know other cultures. So far I have not traveled outside of Europe, and there are many more to see from Europe. I don't think about children yet, but I'm already 28. I'm a very unusual person. Write to me at mileisabelcg @ gmail. com. There are also many Facebook groups and Internet pages with useful information for people like us. Blogs, etc. If you know English you will see a lot. I understand that in Bulgaria, unfortunately, people are very harassed, and in general there are no avid travelers at every turn. But that doesn't mean you have to give up your dreams. Why do not you write to me? I'm older than you, but my dream is the same: I want to travel the world, to get to know other cultures. So far I have not traveled outside of Europe, and there are many more to see from Europe. I don't think about children yet, but I'm already 28. I'm a very unusual person. Write to me at mileisabelcg @ gmail. com. There are also many Facebook groups and Internet pages with useful information for people like us. Blogs, etc. If you know English you will see a lot. I understand that in Bulgaria, unfortunately, people are very harassed, and in general there are no avid travelers at every turn. But that doesn't mean you have to give up your dreams. Why do not you write to me? I'm older than you, but my dream is the same: I want to travel the world, to get to know other cultures. So far I have not traveled outside of Europe, and there are many more to see from Europe. I don't think about children yet, but I'm already 28. I'm a very unusual person. Write to me at mileisabelcg @ gmail. com. There are also many Facebook groups and Internet pages with useful information for people like us. Blogs, etc. If you know English you will see a lot. I want to travel the world, to get to know other cultures. So far I have not traveled outside of Europe, and there are many more to see from Europe. I don't think about children yet, but I'm already 28. I'm a very unusual person. Write to me at mileisabelcg @ gmail. com. There are also many Facebook groups and Internet pages with useful information for people like us. Blogs, etc. If you know English you will see a lot. I want to travel the world, to get to know other cultures. So far I have not traveled outside of Europe, and there are many more to see from Europe. I don't think about children yet, but I'm already 28. I'm a very unusual person. Write to me at mileisabelcg @ gmail. com. There are also many Facebook groups and Internet pages with useful information for people like us. Blogs, etc. If you know English you will see a lot.
Do not visit a therapist. You are not sick! You're just different. We should not all be the same.
OMG OMG Marry me !!! : 3 I am a boy of 20 years. I understand you very well! Simply, this stagnant being in which we find ourselves, the only thing is to live in order to live, to make money and to have some "status" in society. Tsyayayayayayal life teacher, university, then what, from home to the trash can, from there to the hut, it gets dark, through the store and in us ... Saturday and Sunday in the park? !? !? НЕЕЕЕ! I want mountains. Let's just lie on the grass and watch the waters of the lake stop, they don't rage. A hut out there somewhere would do me a good job. To watch the endless fields or the sea strips. Nice music, a caravan, a girl next to you and the road .... I would like to have one child (no more), but I don't want to live a hectic life in the office .... NO! I am very happy, I have girls like you !!! I really hope I came across one: ) Keep smiling and do your best to achieve it! Money and luxury are not everything, they are NOT!
Don't you live like that? Was life meaningless? A rock band, grunting and peeing in the ditches was the tip of the ice cream? You haven't slept - you are oversatisfied, you don't care and you create them. Calm down - it will pass when you become 30-40;))
It's just part of growing up. Intolerance of the world of the great. It happened to me in 12th grade, a few months before I graduated. I began to imagine that in a few years, I would be at work for 8 hours, and after a while I would have a family to take care of. And I asked myself the stupid question: When will I have time for myself? Every time I thought about these things, I started to feel really nauseous, my stomach tightening. I am now 21 years old, a student. I spend most of my day lecturing, practicing, and working. I go back to the apartment where I don't live alone and start cleaning, cooking. It's weird, but it's not enslavement to me. I like the place where I live. It is not my home, many things are missing here, but I made it home. What's more, I made it my corner. I have a cat that is evil, but I like that I take care of it myself, without my mother revoking me against my will. I packed my things, bought books, read them, and left them on the shelves. Nobody interferes with me. You work and study in order to have this privilege, to live normally in a place that expresses yourself. You will work 8 hours, but you will be able to buy a cheap caravan and travel. There are no achievements without hard work on our part. I go home, finish my duties, and then indulge in everything else that makes me smile. Nobody makes you get married and have children. Nobody makes you go home and fall asleep right away. Life is as we make it. Life is what we choose to see from it. Tighten up, your feelings are NOT abnormal, but they will pull you back if you stare at them for too long. You will be so obsessed with protesting that you will miss the good.
More than 18 comments are waiting. It will be interesting here, unless a story is made up;))
I didn't understand only after you want and don't want this and that, who will want and be interested in your rock band? Go play in the woods and feel free. If you are not integrated, they will not be interested in you (except for other similar crazy people). Get someone to fuck you at last and you will start to enjoy the hurried people on the street. Now you're wondering where your hat fits, and it's not a hat, it's pants.
And when you get hungry, you immediately get over the depressed depression ... And I don't want to work 8 ... and not more than 12 hours a day, but I want to eat well, to dress well, to relax well, to drive well. car and to maintain it, to travel and to have money for fuel. And to travel you need money, a lot of money to eat, get dressed and keep moving. Otherwise, you live like a tramp somewhere in a basement or on the street, with smelly clothes, no bathroom, and eating moldy snacks from cauldrons. You choose how you want to live, it's up to you. And one last piece of advice, you didn't lie down, but it seems to me that you overdo it with the grass, like most of your generation! And that's why you're in this hall.
You are still young, you have seen little of life and you have not been hungry enough. You don't have serious problems and that leads to inventing them. 20 years ago, Mr. and I thought so, now I am part of this mass of people, but still with dreams that I follow and most importantly I slowly realize and that makes me alive. Then life acquires meaning! Go to the Music Academy, finish with a guitar, make a band, break your ass from working with that band (literally because I used to be a musician) and then travel around the world. Musicians are sought after on all cruises, hotels, etc. around the world. Here is a solution to the problem.
Become the best mathematician in the area, spend 3-4 years in a specialty related to mathematics and finance, break your ass and study 18 hours a day, spend two years on the stock exchange in a reputable institution and you will have enough money to invest and to lie on your stomach for the rest of your life :). A friend took a 60,000 euro bonus this year, but is only 24.
https://youtu.be/fS-L_lALPFM ;)
number 7 I see that she experiences herself as some kind of super authority of the mega earth type - ultra populist, but not to allow herself to call our police inadequate, because there are people working there, and just like her - on a patch of some and a lot of them have values just like hers, especially about what is the greatest miracle in life. (also some of these people may enter this site and be offended by reading her speech) And also not to impose any great miracle, because for each person it is something very individual, no matter how much she does not like . I still don't understand how people like her even notice such topics. There is a huge semantic contradiction in this, a person like her, who probably has a daily routine filled to the brim with all sorts of obligations (because it sounds like family to me), and to go rummaging through the Internet various sites, to comment on various topics .. Or she writes from work, which does her no honor at all. Freelancers can afford this because we are our own bosses, but those on a contract should not. It is not ethical. It makes a bad impression on me that when a girl posts a topic related to a depressed emotional state, depression is something, and there is always someone who writes to her 'it's real sex and everything will be fine' (I'm referring to comment 20). So I'm not against sex at all, let someone not think so, but such advice seems to me somehow belittling the emotions, the soul of the author. Notice that when a boy releases a topic related to depression, such super mega-wise, profound, philosophical speeches begin, I would say even quite intelligent, and not that I mind,
The title reminds me of a gypsy's statement - "I really wanted to vote, but I didn't want to".
You are not a therapist. For your psychiatrist. Ask him for a haldol.
You touch on a taboo subject for life here. Many people have struggled to survive, to achieve something, and they want to see the point in it (whether it really exists or not) ... Otherwise, to die is not as easy as many (at least in the West) think. .. There are books written about how to die "correctly", and if you read how to achieve it, it's even harder than working 8 hours a day, making families and building a career ... It all depends , in which you will put your efforts and how you feel about it. Many commenters here think you just want to run away from the effort, but I don't see that being the point. Find the right thing for yourself that is worth living and achieving. If it weren't for that, you wouldn't be born here. It doesn't have to be what the "table" thinks, especially nowadays. Just "
You just go from one phase to another. This is always associated with a certain amount of stress from the unknown. Now you don't know what it's like to work eight hours a day, five days a week, but you feel sick. I can tell you that if you find a job that gives you pleasure and a job in a pleasant environment, things will not be like that. And what's wrong with being useful? This is not slavery, but the natural order. You give something, you get something. You cannot receive if you have not given. Try this life before you reject it. If you don't like it, there are other ways ... How many people work freelance or remotely from wherever they want. :) But work is always a necessary condition. Whether it will be in an office from 9 to 18 or floating hours set by you ... you decide. As for family and children, no one can force you. G30
"I want to travel the world in a cheap caravan and have a rock band of real and liberated people." ... "- is this life, damn it?" According to the slimy Hollywood movies with a happy ending, this is extremely easy to achieve;) According to the real life - this is achieved by stringing yourself to the end of a rich producer, but there are many such candidates, so the competition is fierce. Learn to blow and do everything in bed and you can achieve your dream;)