I experienced a very heavy and dramatic love and I no longer have the strength and desire to live. I do not have and believe in life, I have lost motivation. I can't describe to you how hard it is for me, how I can't find solace for my soul. I am overwhelmed by a cruel anguish that constantly worries my thoughts and makes me take stock. I could not marry the great love of my life and I married by presumption. My wife was not bad, but she and I were too different. She lived in her own world - in mine and we eventually got a divorce. I wanted to avoid it, but I couldn't. I lived alone for two years and didn't think about women until I met M. At first I didn't pay attention to her, but then she started to like me. She made a strange impression on me that she was too suspicious and pedantic, but otherwise she was pretty and I liked her. I didn't fall in love at first sight, but little by little I became attached to her, and in time fell in love with her. She was the one who was looking for contact with me, and at first I was cold to her because I was still living in the shadow of divorce and I couldn't shake the pessimistic conclusions about women and marriage. There was a time when I didn't want to hear about women and marriage. I was devoted only to my scientific work and was interested in almost nothing else.
M. appeared in my life somehow suddenly, somehow quickly and at first I was not prepared for a relationship. But over time, things seemed to get better and we started thinking about marriage. I decided to try again and for a while I lived in sweet dreams. M. and I had been in a relationship for about half a year. but after a small and insignificant conflict - she closed herself in, stopped answering my phone calls and messages on Skype. And once in a cold metallic voice she told me not to look for her anymore, otherwise she would file a complaint with the police for harassment?!? I can't tell you what a hell of a soul I fell into. On the one hand, I am tormented by my love for M., and on the other - the insult from her act. I want to end my life because I can't fight my grief that is ruining me. Such a fire burns in my soul that I feel like I'm suffocating. God is my witness - I do not want to live. My personal life is a complete failure. My academic title and the books I have written cannot compensate for my lack of a good wife. I feel terribly unhappy. I feel insignificant, lost, pointless. I just don't see how or what to live anymore. On the one hand, I am tormented by my love for M., and on the other - the insult from her act. I want to end my life because I can't fight my grief that is ruining me. Such a fire burns in my soul that I have the feeling that I am suffocating. God is my witness - I do not want to live. My personal life is a complete failure. My academic title and the books I have written cannot compensate for my lack of a good wife. I feel terribly unhappy. I feel insignificant, lost, pointless. I just don't see how or what to live anymore. On the one hand, I am tormented by my love for M., and on the other - the insult from her act. I want to end my life because I can't fight my grief that is ruining me. Such a fire burns in my soul that I feel like I'm suffocating. God is my witness - I do not want to live. My personal life is a complete failure. My academic title and the books I have written cannot compensate for my lack of a good wife. I feel terribly unhappy. I feel insignificant, lost, pointless. I just don't see how or what to live anymore. My academic title and the books I have written cannot compensate for my lack of a good wife. I feel terribly unhappy. I feel insignificant, lost, pointless. I just don't see how or what to live anymore. My academic title and the books I have written cannot compensate for my lack of a good wife. I feel terribly unhappy. I feel insignificant, lost, pointless. I just don't see how or what to live anymore.
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... you did well to share this with us .... and that requires some determination in my opinion ... well, don't "live" just be alive .... give yourself time, no matter how unnecessary it seems, and there is no way you can't find yourself and someone else, because of which it was worth going through all this ... ZARA
Dude, I want to apologize in advance to you personally (not anyone else) if I make some typos because I'm drunk! Go now and see me in "I'm bad with women, I'm one of the bastards"! Don't read the comments there! Who knows how they spit on me ... I don't care. I am like you. I don't have love, I don't have a shit! It is very bad that they do not want your love! Well, should I die ??? To be as you want ??? End of life ??? You didn't know tikviiiii, you didn't know !!! Never my friend, never !!!! Fuck the whores below and you don't care at all, and since you're like me now and in the luxurious 5 star hotels - blame yourself !!! Curse your blue Johnny shit and get the best whore, and on Monday I'll fire two or three nice, why not two or three nice and happy guys ... Dude, you're a man of science, tighten up! When I was a little ugly at the time, even with no self-confidence because I lost my first and only love and I don't have another one to this day, I thought the world was over, yes but no! Blow it, bitch, blow it! Make fun of me as much as you want and call me whatever you want, but I was good at math, my friend, and the handsome men who fucked beautiful women were dumb bastards, ha, ha, ha, and now they're watching me as the driver opens the door of my limousine. with her beer bellies, ha, ha, ha !!! You are a smart person and you will be a boss like me! What if I did like you ??? Who would be the boss of my company now? Who? Nobody, because I wouldn't be here, but no !!! You are a smart man! Don't do nonsense !!! Procrastinate, fuck your whores, be a good leader and look at science or business and don't do nonsense, do you understand!!! Stupid, tighten up !!!!
Um, there's no point in ending your life. As a scientist, you know - the Earth will rotate without you, only worms will have more to gnaw. Just think how many good deeds you can do - give yourself to a goal, a vocation. Otherwise, don't stop looking for Love, but why do you immediately think about marriage, about family? There are a lot of single women, single mothers, etc. outside, who, if not great love, can at least offer you love, friendship, understanding, warmth, comfort. Patience can sometimes be the key. Love alone will land on your shoulder, but look for meaning in life, do good, if you want, give yourself to some cause. And in the end, the worms won't run away from us ... just wait for your time to come ...
Don't think about it, put the rope on ...
Everyone has had such moments, you are not the first. They are overcome, but it takes time. Let things just happen by themselves, do not force and control them, then you will calm down and happiness will come only. You will see.
Dude, I've fallen in love and suffered 4 times 4 years 2 years 6 months 1. 5 months Do you notice the trend? I've dramatized it too, but over time it turns out that these are necessary things that I've been going through for centuries, I recently met someone I would normally fall in love with, and I didn't feel anything. and the pleasures remain as such when they exist
And I wanted to end it all. Despair makes everything look gray and black. But life is colorful and no matter how much you close your eyes to it now, one day you will open them and see hope. Give yourself time, really. It is easiest to swallow the pills, but if you do - there is no going back. And who knows, maybe the best is yet to come. Please don't do nonsense! I'm sure that in time you will say to yourself "it's good that I endured then!" Now suffer, experience your pain, but also try to think about what happened. Why did it happen, who made a mistake ... The answers will be a valuable lesson for your future relationships. f 44
Don't expose yourself! What dramas are there - sick and dying children, diseases that make you vegetable, wars, disasters ... Tighten up, take yourself in hand and open your eyes to happiness, if you can't ... try to help others to are happy and who knows ...
Isn't this the only woman in the world? Just as you have met her, you will meet many others like her (even better). Think real (because you are now under the influence of some emotion), is it worth ending your life for the sake of a woman?
It is not worth sacrificing a man for a woman, because nature has created them all just like cats and foxes - vile, nasty and insidious. At the beginning they are hypocritical and supposedly good, and then when they get tired of their partner they hurry to change with another "snsora". That's why people have said that if you don't trust a woman, a politician and a snake, you will suffer badly. What can I say, I took mine for love, I looked at her like a lamb, I dressed her like a princess all in gold, I carried her in my arms, I adored her and I think she will be faithful to me, grateful and forever mine, but no , went with another. I chased her away like a dirty dog, I didn't give her anything, I kicked her like a dog and did I want to kill myself? .. No, I don't care about this garbage, no. The probability of finding a decent woman in this liberated and depraved dynamic and democratic life is less than 1%, so don't get too carried away when you go with someone, for it is not known what he will offer you. If it turns out that it is not a jester's product and it is not there, the next one and so, if you are lucky, you may come across a person. Come on, health is not so bad, but we make it so. Sometimes we like it a lot and what does not cross our minds, but to know this white world, boy, it is very difficult to leave because it is beautiful, and down in the earth there is only darkness, black wet soil and worms, nothing else. You're too sensitive like me, and most people around us don't care about anything, and that's our problem. You will live a long time and be happy in the future, you only need to change your thoughts a little. Sometimes we like it a lot and what does not cross our minds, but to know this white world, boy, it is very difficult to leave because it is beautiful, and down in the earth there is only darkness, black wet soil and worms, nothing else. You're too sensitive like me, and most people around us don't care about anything, and that's our problem. You will live a long time and be happy, you just have to change your thoughts a little. Sometimes we like it a lot and what does not cross our minds, but to know this white world, boy, it is very difficult to leave because it is beautiful, and down in the earth there is only darkness, black wet soil and worms, nothing else. You're too sensitive like me, and most people around us don't care about anything, and that's our problem. You will live a long time and be happy in the future, you only need to change your thoughts a little.
Man, don't be silly! Many people go through this, but it is inevitable, so you have to look ahead and forget what happened. Wasn't this minor conflict beneficial to her? You haven't thought about it. Very comfortable situation. I would not do such dramas for a woman.
It's one thing not to want to live, it's quite another to think of committing suicide. Suicide is MURDER. And the most disgusting reason I've ever heard of such a murder is "that I have nothing to live for." Can you kill someone just because they don't know what to live for ?? Would he kill his mother, his father, if they didn't know what they were living for? Why then would you kill yourself, who is a mixture of the two? And you cause the great burning and suffocating torment only because you hate yourself and do not want to be well. How, say, can someone else love you (for example, this M.), since in such moments it is most clear that you were not worth it as a person. To me you are a tyrant, sorry :( When it can't be yours, you go to extremes. I hope you change.
You don't want to live. or You don't want to live like that. Which of the two is true? If it's the latter, change it to "yes". Do something unusual for you, get off the track. Challenge fate and see what happens.
To the author of 12 comments: You know, today this possibility came to my mind that she may have been hesitant in her feelings between me and her ex-boyfriend, who lives abroad. She was supposed to break up with him, but not quite. Apparently the woman has decided to warm up with him and has been waiting for this moment. I want to thank those commentators who sympathized with me and gave me good advice. It is very nice that in this cold and alienated world someone understood my pain. Maybe those who have experienced my nightmare and know what the pain of such a separation means have understood me. I also have such a problem that when I become attached to someone - I find it difficult to part with him and I always miss him in one way or another. Of course, I am left alone with the pain, but I am already satisfied that people have been found to understand me.
You are an intelligent person, do not do this nonsense! Bulgaria needs like you. Be sure to visit a psychologist. Happiness belongs to everyone, you are no exception, you have just strayed from the path. Marilyn
SCIENCE has saved you for the last time. Thank you and appropriately. You are incredibly lucky. The good is ahead of you - wait for it patiently.
I was impressed by the author that you blame the women in your life for your divisions. I thought about it, read your topic again and came to the conclusion that maybe women do not accept the conflicts between you as small and insignificant, for you the conflict was a "small and insignificant conflict" and she took it so hard that she did not want to hear about you. Because she told you: don't look for me, I will accuse you of harassment, you are offended, so you are also insulting, if you hold on to two words and you are almost as angry with her as she is with you. Before you go to feel sorry for yourself, think about whether the blame for what happened is not on you. If it had happened only once in your life, ok, but every woman who loves you, to stop loving you and not want to continue her life with you, then the mistake is in you.
answer to №18 Yes, it is definitely in me. As the saying goes: once - a coincidence, the second time - a coincidence, and the third - is an enemy attack. The mistake is in me, but the pain is mine. Believe me - I wish it wasn't so. I am neither aggressive nor rude and tactless. As far as I can - I am tolerant. Of course, I am also aware of my shortcomings, and this makes me even more uncomfortable and overwhelmed with a sense of hopelessness. It's like being sentenced to life and knowing that the only way out of this situation is to simply cease to exist. I once had a relative who often jokingly said that one should have two lives: one to learn to live and the other to live. But the bad thing is that there is only one life: he is first, he is last. I wish I had more life wisdom, than academic knowledge. But my life was spent writing and studying, and I didn't have time to work out my philosophy of life.
Author, that's enough - there are passengers for each train. If our grandparents, mothers and fathers lived today, they too would separate and reunite. Unfortunately for us women we have become quite pretentious lately. Otherwise, things are the same as before - a woman wants a strong shoulder, a man with confidence, someone who can make decisions, yes? offer security and protection. Find a woman who can accept you and appreciate you for who you are. Usually these are women from the countryside with a failed marriage and children. A woman who has fought every day and chased her husband around the pubs will be able to appreciate you. Look for a woman with whom you can live in peace, to have home comfort, regular sex, with whom you can talk, go on vacation. Look for a woman-friend who will accept you, even admire you. Love will come
Don't do nonsense because of a woman, are you okay? there are no more decent women, they are all ku .. and. When you tell them, they are offended but they know that it is so. Think about whether there is a difference between today's women and a prostitute. Yes, with the prostitute the price is specified and with the woman you pay until you feel dizzy, and it is not known whether you will fuck. Sorry ladies I know what you think of me, sorry. I wasn't like that. Life and especially people;) who went through my life made me like that. So buddy up your head and don't bother with dumb ku .. and what only money is in their head.
Women are like that - they do not like to be direct, they refuse to talk, they avoid dialogue, they hide their true intentions and feelings. It's disgusting. As an open and honest person, I expected the same thing. But no, one of my harmless (yes, completely harmless, damn!) Statements led to a lot of nonsense being told to me, and things were initially defined as "no problem". There was a corresponding wonder on my part, a desire for comment, dialogue, but that made things even worse. Some time ago I saw a picture on the net: How to argue with a woman - are you right - yes / no - you lose. I would add after you lose and more: you lose even more because you lost the argument. The same thing happened. I think I understand you. Maybe the blame is partly in you, but it can also be sought in the other side - the truth is that until women realize, that men are prone to compromise, understanding and accepting their hesitations, emotions, feelings and torments, BUT ONLY IF THEY SHARE THEM, then many people like me and the author will be crushed and depressed by the fairer sex. I don't know what happened in M's head when she fucked you, but I'm sure if she had just told you "So and so ... it doesn't work.", You would have just accepted things normally and philosophically - no I think it would be different if you were a man of science. Instead, what happens - an inadequate reaction on her part, which leaves you confused, offended, saddened by life, which is completely normal. Until yesterday, you enjoyed attitude, understanding, friendship, contact, and today you are served such an insult, which a sober person simply can not pass, really. I don't think I'm wrong if I say that most of all you have experienced a disappointment so great that it feels like a mental tsunami that can completely destroy a person's entire inner world. Such are women, and the only advice I can give you is to comply with these quirks of theirs, because otherwise it is impossible to try to explain them, and acceptance is the only other alternative. I have gained such an experience to dare to claim the young age I am at at the moment, but I think it is quite useful. And bitterness and depression, you will apologize, by the way, for somehow belittling them in this case, but they are transient if you realize all the things I wrote above. My views may be idealistic, but if someone can convince me why a relationship should not be based on refinement (and this is achieved through discussion of problems and dialogue), I will recognize you as a genius.
A little harsh look from numbers 11 and 21, but there is a lot of truth in their words.
How much easier it would be if women knew what they wanted.
Where did you hurry? A little more and on December 21 this year we are all passengers! It is guaranteed! So calm down! ;)))
You won't do it if you go and tell ... you're just looking for attention. It takes courage to commit suicide - and a lot of it.
I don't want to suffer all my life, there is a reason that prevents me from living normally, it doesn't matter what it is, but everyone else in my place would think about whether he would continue to fight. My relatives will suffer the most, but at least I can think selfishly once, I will not know what will happen after death, I will not see their reactions. I'm not a bad person, I don't want to become an angry person and this will happen in the future, I want to be remembered for who I am. I can't take revenge to feel better, so let those who have no morals or scruples live. I don't want to live in this world of disgustingly evil people, I'm tired of being strong.