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I Want To Kill Myself

By marianorajoy October 14, 2020 22 answers Last updated October 14, 2020

Hi, I'm telling you, I want to kill myself ... it sounds stupid, I know it, but ... I'm just tired of failed relationships ... I'll tell you briefly now. A long time ago I had a relationship with a boy I really loved, BUT his father died and he went the wrong way - drugs - heroin. I really loved him too, but my parents found out about the heroin he was taking and forbade me to see each other. We continued to be together, it was like a phone love (we are not from one and I am a city, but he just made me the happiest girl in the world, he knew how to make me feel special and unique). After a while he hurt me with infidelity (sex for one night), but he claimed that he loved only me. He claimed that he loved only me, but I decided to end everything between us, although I really loved him very much .. I visited psychologists ,, I was taking sedative pills, but somehow it was extremely difficult to overcome him and I decided to move on .... A few months passed and I met a new boy, everything was going more than perfect between us, but at one point he stopped trusting me, the thing that is extremely important for any relationship. I live in a small town, I'm beautiful and everyone brags that I slept with them, which is not the case, most of them don't even know them, but anyway. He started believing gossip that is not true, he lost trust in me, not in others and it started to hurt me .. I really hold on to him, I love him, I tell him, I show him, I prove him, but he doesn't trust me, but people he doesn't even know. Anyway .. I want to kill myself and stop suffering and hurting myself .. to stop hurting my family too, these are the only people who really love me,

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jhaycortez answered · October 14, 2020

   Are you going to kill yourself ... take matters into your own hands and start dealing with the problems ... You give up very easily ... greetings, Uzunov

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prixike answered · October 14, 2020

   You can always die - put it off for later. Besides, I don't think you're serious - you're dumb. Know one thing - to have a single successful relationship - everyone before it must have ended tragically. Besides, you'll soon stop taking things so tragically - you're a teenager now, and first relationships are always a big drama. Then one grows up and learns to weigh things at an early age - for example, to fall in love, only to make sure that the person is worth it - and not to sink and then see that it is not worth it. Drop it now - so you don't dump it later. During the time you save this way, you will be able to cry and calm down. Next connection will be 100% and then you will wonder where it was in your mind to think about suicide, because of some asshole. And finally - are you crazy - are you young, are you healthy, are you right, you have parents and you think to draw the line of everything because you suffered ??? What can people say who are sick, have lost their parents or are barely making ends meet? Many would gladly live your life, which you are ready to throw away lightly.

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dickingaround22 answered · October 14, 2020

   A person who really wants to commit suicide does not write on forums, but is dead.

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AnnyJoy answered · October 14, 2020

   It was calm, you! Qui suicides qui 5 levs. In 10 years you will be amazed at your childish mind with which you are thinking at the moment. You will still have to fall in love and fall out of love.

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tinydancer0107 answered · October 14, 2020

   So you want to kill yourself, huh? Have you thought about what you will do to your family? How will your mother live after that? No, right. Certainly not you. Now I will tell you my story. I'm terribly ashamed, but I'll do it just so you don't repeat my mistake. I was 19 when I went to study abroad. At the beginning I didn't know anyone and it was stupid, but when you live in a dormitory, in time you make friends with people, and in the end I met him too! I fell madly in love, I believed that he loved me too. We were inseparable, I moved to his room ... the others laughed that we would both get married. In short, I lived in Heaven! Until my birthday ... he dumped me right on my birthday! Things developed too fast, he needed more space to study ... fuck fuck fuck ... later I found out he was seeing other girls and he lied to me, that he goes to read in the library. The shock was huge! It was my birthday, I was alone in a foreign country and the only person I loved brutally dumped me! I went back to my own room and cried my eyes out. At that moment, I didn't care about anything or anyone (yes, even Mom) and I just wanted to get rid of everything. I took out the bag with the medicines and since I only had various aspirins, vitamins and the like, I decided to dissolve them in nail polish remover and drink them! Can you imagine how bad I was !!! I poured my nail polish remover into a plastic cup, poured some pills and was going to drink it, but the nail polish remover literally made a hole in the cup and everything flowed. This hit me like a slap! I picked up the phone and called my ex. I knew he wasn't happy to hear me, but when he knew what I was going to do, he came right away. He first took me to the dorm doctor's office. From there they gave me a referral to a psychologist or psychiatrist (I don't remember exactly) and told him not to leave me alone for 5 minutes, that I could do something stupid again. I was with him all day, and in the evening he took me to a friend and her roommate. There were 3 beds in their room, but there were only two. God bless these girls! They saved my life! How many nights they stayed with me and we talked when I couldn't sleep! Then I went to various doctors, they gave me a bunch of sedatives and antidepressants and decided that it would be best to be with my family. I returned to Bulgaria and stayed here for a whole month. My mother and sister literally did not separate from me. They took me to a psychologist, they tried to distract me ... my father was also wondering what to do just so I wouldn't be sad. I didn't want to go back to the dorm, but I knew that then I won't be able to take my exams because I'm missing a lot of material. I'm back. It was difficult at first, but my friends were there and continued with the care. Then I found other cool people ... and so slowly I came out of the hole! As for my ex, when he saw that I was fine, he started taking me down again, but I already knew it was rubbish, and while I was rinsing my eyes in the doctors' offices, he was with others. So I definitely cut it! 13 years have passed since then! If I tell you that this Christmas he sent me a mail card again. I didn't even answer him! I don't want to have anything to do with him! To me he is dead! However, it opened my eyes to many things and especially to how wonderful life is and who my real friends are. We are still friends with the girls who helped me so much, and although we rarely hear from each other, because they live abroad and in America, I know that if they are online we will always talk and laugh. So if one can learn anything from my story, it is that life is too good to give it up just like that. You know then how often I was grateful I didn't drink that shit! How many things would I miss! I would never graduate, meet the right man, get married, travel ... I would just ruin my family and their lives would never be the same! How do you think your mother will live if you commit suicide? Because you will do it easily, but do you know that you will kill her too? No, maybe not physically, but you will kill her soul and she will never recover completely. So if not for yourself, live for them! Because you love them and you wouldn't hurt them. You will not regret your decision! Because it's easy to die, it is difficult to live and not only to live, but also to live in such a way as to make your loved ones happy. Yes, I will not lie to you and my life is not just roses and happiness. I also have dark periods, but I promised myself that I would NEVER, but really NEVER allow my selfishness to take precedence over the love for my family and choose to run away. Because what is suicide? Well, just an escape, which, however, does not solve problems, but on the contrary creates many new ones for the people who love them. Because if you think that's how you're going to make this boy sorry, you're wrong. Yes, he may feel guilty for a while. Then he will find another and forget you. And your mother? She will live with this horror for the rest of her days! You don't want to do this to her, do you? I will not lie to you and my life is not just roses and happiness. I also have dark periods, but I promised myself that I would NEVER, but really NEVER allow my selfishness to take precedence over the love for my family and choose to run away. Because what is suicide? Well, just an escape, which, however, does not solve problems, but on the contrary creates many new ones for the people who love them. Because if you think that's how you're going to make this boy sorry, you're wrong. Yes, he may feel guilty for a while. Then he will find another and forget you. And your mother? She will live with this horror for the rest of her days! You don't want to do this to her, do you? I will not lie to you and my life is not just roses and happiness. I also have dark periods, but I promised myself that I would NEVER, but really NEVER allow my selfishness to take precedence over the love for my family and choose to run away. Because what is suicide? Well, just an escape, which, however, does not solve problems, but on the contrary creates many new ones for the people who love them. Because if you think that's how you're going to make this boy sorry, you're wrong. Yes, he may feel guilty for a while. Then he will find another and forget you. And your mother? She will live with this horror for the rest of her days! You don't want to do this to her, do you? Because what is suicide? Well, just an escape, which, however, does not solve problems, but on the contrary creates many new ones for the people who love them. Because if you think that's how you're going to make this boy sorry, you're wrong. Yes, he may feel guilty for a while. Then he will find another and forget you. And your mother? She will live with this horror for the rest of her days! You don't want to do this to her, do you? Because what is suicide? Well, just an escape, which, however, does not solve problems, but on the contrary creates many new ones for the people who love them. Because if you think that's how you're going to make this boy sorry, you're wrong. Yes, he may feel guilty for a while. Then he will find another and forget you. And your mother? She will live with this horror for the rest of her days! You don't want to do this to her, do you?

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fossil answered · October 14, 2020

   He masturbates. Love your hands. Don't look at men - they only ruin women's lives. Don't get involved in any other relationship. Overcome them, you can! Success!

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bonjovi answered · October 14, 2020

   One of the moments when you have to grit your teeth and prove to yourself that you are a valuable person and you are stronger than the situation and circumstances. Heads up, I know it hurts, but you can handle it - don't resist the pain - accept it with the inner conviction that you are stronger than it - and you have to prove it! M 36

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joe_gatto answered · October 14, 2020

   Exit the movie;). Your family will suffer 1,000 times more if you commit suicide. When you're tired of failed relationships, you don't deal with boys and that's it. Everything falls into place when you don't think about it. I wish you happiness!

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xWildNaughtyDollx answered · October 14, 2020

   Your second story is a bit like mine with a similar individual, safe from such plows! Do you know how it ended, with separation and even worse ... but I will not tell you about myself, I will just tell you to end the relationship if it continues to behave in this way. Do it to you because if he leaves you he will not tolerate it, I barely got out and I had reached my limit, but I recovered. Repeat every day, I am a beautiful and good person, I deserve to be happy and respected, I will survive on everything and everyone!

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tomwlaschiha answered · October 14, 2020

   Stupid girl!!! How will you commit suicide after all, life is in front of you. You will find much better boys than these two. It's good that you broke up with the first boy in your story. It could have lured you to drugs, which is extremely bad. And that bastard who doesn't believe you is complete rubbish !!! If he cares about you, he will trust you and I will not listen to the rumors! And remember: do not pay attention to them! They talk because they want to discredit you and those who are next to you will not listen to them !!!

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hotblondyx answered · October 14, 2020

   A suicide never speaks because he wants to commit suicide. :)

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mcfly8989 answered · October 14, 2020

   Seek God and He will help you ... when you find Him He will solve your problems. He created me and you around us. Do you think it will be a problem for Him to help you ??

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Bigglasses answered · October 15, 2020

   There is no greater pain than this parent to bury their child! Do not think. that this will alleviate the suffering. It is no coincidence that people have said that suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems. Now you think this way, but you never know what fate will determine for you. Hope that your life will be in order. You are the one who can determine the direction in which it is developing.

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corysweety answered · October 15, 2020

   Whatever the reason, there is no point in committing suicide. Only weak people want to commit suicide if you are one of them. I can't believe you will do such nonsense :)

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pregnant_girl_fantasy answered · October 15, 2020

   What you are saying is written unconsciously and in an emotionally broken state. You will not commit suicide. At least because the people who do it never talk about THAT THEY WILL DO IT. (personal experience) I advise you not to do such things as ending your life at all. The consequences are more severe than you think. Your spiritual teachers will not be fascinated at all. You too, by the way. I assure you that the fate of suicides is not at all sweet THERE. Understand that such fatalistic decisions only push you back. You will come back here again, and you will face the same problems again. If I can call your thing "problems" at all. Look around and see how much you can do for your loved ones, friends (not only intimate) and even STRANGERS. See how much THEY have to give you. Think about the future. For all the wonderful things which are before your eyes. So many amazing books that are worth reading! So many breathtaking destinations worth visiting! So many things to do for the first time! I know, I know it's hard, I know everyone has their moments of despair. But nothing is constant, here on earth. Nothing eternal happiness, no eternal self-flagellation. Think about it and don't do things you will bitterly regret :)

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ako02 answered · October 15, 2020

   You are very lucky to have got rid of the wrong people for you, I will tell you this, be glad that you will have the opportunity to meet the right person for you and have a family, you loved these guys, but if they do not treat well you and your last friend don't trust you, so he doesn't deserve you. I am very glad that you got rid of such rubbish, next time you will have more success be sure! :)

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Herana answered · October 15, 2020

   My first big love died when we were boyfriends. I was a teenager then, I suffered a lot, I was sad, now when I think about it I feel sad again for a ruined life. It never crossed my mind to end my life, I managed, I grew up. Different men in my life came and went, for some I suffered, for others not .... I'm sorry for the long comment ... but I wanted to tell you by example that a person should always love himself and find the strength to rejoices, not wants to get lost, because of someone there that decided not to be together ... So? Love life, enjoy the things around you, fall in love again, even if you are disappointed, take the risk and fall in love again ... Greetings Sylvia

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jack1njill answered · October 15, 2020

   You will not achieve anything with this idea. You will hurt your loved ones even more. Do you want them to suffer even more?

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dreamgirlyours29 answered · October 16, 2020

   Exactly the same story was with me when I was 16-17. Everything is calm for a while, one day you will meet the love of your life, you will start a family and you will laugh at those things for which you now want to commit suicide. Respect yourself !! Don't let any "men" make you suffer. In no case do not commit suicide !! 1. At least it's not worth wasting your life that way. It is "given" to you to live and to learn to overcome difficulties. 2. It takes a lot of courage to commit suicide, few people have it or they just aren't mentally well or they just can't really go through something, but there are a lot more scary things that can happen to you, this can now be called nonsense . 3. Suicide is a sin! Do you want your body to be outside the cemetery? 4. You write, that you love your parents very much. Do you know what it's like to raise a child? !! Do you know what a pain it is to see your child sick or crying ... let alone if he wants to commit suicide ...

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KinkyJustyn answered · October 16, 2020

   Yeah Al that sounds pretty crap to me, Looks like people aint for me either. That drug addict must have bragged about how he sprayed your body when he got drunk and of course the rumor that you are a rabbit has gone. Alas, this hug will not change things, on the contrary, they will say to themselves that fallen simple pussy finally hugs the bouquet. If you want to change something, it can only happen if you show them that you don't pay public opinion tax and you have to be strong. Including the fact that you don't care about a cane that relies more on other people's opinions instead of your love. And don't forget now that no matter how depressed you are, there are men who would give anything to be with you and make you happy.

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sova_vegan_butcher answered · October 16, 2020

   How can I not ... I will commit suicide because of failed relationships. I am a woman of 28, behind me not one failed relationship, I was dumped, I dumped and I ... should I commit suicide ?? If you need to, visit a psychologist. If a person cannot deal with the problems on his own, this is a good solution and there is nothing shameful. Good luck without such thoughts!

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love7886 answered · October 16, 2020

   You don't want to hurt people and consider the worst option !? Tc .. just have millions of men and take the principle of "trial and error" and so on until you find something quality ...