Hi, maybe I'm another woman who tells a similar story and makes the same mistake I'm in right now. Understand, this is really masochism or a thrill of being sick. I'm 24 years old. I recently broke up with a boy to whom I was very attached, and he was making me sick in every way, telling me not to show my feelings and not to trust him. I thought it would be short, but it lasted a little longer and I fell in love.
I couldn't overcome it, it was very difficult. I looked for all sorts of substitutes so as not to think about him, I found a job that relieved me and thanks to it I was able to completely overcome it. I overcame it, I said enough and I will not bother with inappropriate people anymore and here I met a married man, right at this job, older than me by over 20 years. I didn't think about what I was starting, and he didn't think about me, though he warned me that it would be difficult for us since he had already slept with me. I'm obviously too stupid not to think about myself. And we both fell in love. I knew that the moment would come when we had to part, and now I feel it. If we continue, we will suffer.
I show it to him, I prepare it, and I can't say a word to him about it. I do not know-how. And we promised ourselves a lot and I promised. Tell me things I can't help but bandage. People, I dreamed of meeting my soulmate, in every way, but I'm already sorry because we met at the wrong time and situation. I had a period in which I felt good, happy, strong, and ready for anything. I was not as empty as I am now. I have this person next to me, and at the same time, he is not next to me. I've never liked a man so much. In general, my men become uninteresting and elementary.
At the beginning a thrill, an interest until you realize that you have to take some other step and the person next to you can't. It happens, I progress forward, at a fast pace and I can't stay for long with one way of thinking. I am annoyed by the monotony. And I myself am different every day. Come on, I accepted to have a wife, I resigned myself, but for me, people are an open book. Looking at the man in front of me, I already know what he is doing, how he lives, and what he thinks. I guess you've heard of such abilities and know for sure that they exist.
I developed them and I'm somewhat happy to own them, to some extent not. Do you know why "no"? Because I know there is even another mistress. I even feel when they're together, it just comes out and I know that he has been in touch with her for at least a year. I am glad that I am often given warning signs. She is a sales consultant in a grocery store. Do you think that I wish him a happy stay with her, that he leaves me on my way and that he is happy with her? From the very beginning, before I started with him, I saw her and said to myself: "this is the other one". Do not think that I am constantly standing and thinking and thinking...
I live my life, work and at some point scenes appear before my eyes, although I think about much more important things. Since we talk about everything, there is no topic that is foreign to us, I plan to ask him why he started with me when there is another. But he doesn't even know I know. I am not an evil person, I am not vindictive, I always part with good. And even if my ex calls me, I don't mind hearing them and knowing how it is. How to part after, as everything is still so fresh? We say kind words to each other, the fact that he tells me that he needs me and he couldn't do without me, I have the feeling that he wants to keep me, but he doesn't know how difficult it is for me. Thank you!
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Drop it and look for a free, modest boy. Then you will feel really loved! 5
Calm down :) the world doesn't end with the next one who doesn't know what he wants;) you know - it's not unfortunate that the girl lost the love of a fool - the unfortunate fool lost the last chance to become a man! Boldly go ahead, find someone who is on your wave and most of all to be the ONLY woman in his life. Develop and think mainly about yourself, after all, the only person who is not just a guest in your life is yourself and after a while your children! I wish you a lot of success and smiles :) Wall;]
Honey, I've been through the same thing a thousand times. This is really masochism. We are doomed to suffer because we seek it for ourselves, damn it. The only advice I can give you that will really help you is to isolate it from your thoughts and life. There is no other way simple. I've tried everything, it doesn't work. The only thing that will help you is time, but in order for it to help you, you have to ask for it. I hope you don't think about it soon and it doesn't hurt :). Success!
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Yes, zarezhigo !!! Do not despair, they are few, but there are decent ones. You just haven't come across the right one. I am sure that you will also find a soulmate, just BE PATIENT !!! GOOD LUCK AND HEAD UP !!! ^^^^ ЛуДкАрКаТа ^^^^
Why "Horror" number 1? FROM THE AUTHOR: I can't end the relationship. He is more than just a contact partner for me. I am afraid that I will never be able to break up and I have the feeling that it will last forever. He soon told me that life was ahead of me and that I would find much stronger connections and that I deserved more. Our relationship is reasonable and we feel more than respect. I was very sad and I try not to talk about serious topics and to burden ourselves, because they will not help us with anything. Because we see and feel the whole truth with our whole essence. It is very tough for me. Many times I said to myself "I want to meet my man, my essence" I met him and I am sorry. Do you know? I gave up on him many times, I said to myself: "I leave him, he has a happy family, he will find another mistress, he will manage from now on and without me" . If I don't stop him, he won't do it, for his own good and mine. I told him that he was my dream and it became a reality. What I had to go through and how much I had to change to prepare for it. Now nothing can dazzle, and impress me after him. This is the worst. I am not a woman who seeks only sex and material needs. When I meet the other after him, which I am sure I will always look for him. But people don't repeat themselves ... I will always look for him. But people don't repeat themselves ... I will always look for him. But people don't repeat themselves ...
If you are well, continue the relationship. He's not just with you anyway, so look at your life, and at the same time look for your man.
I couldn't stand it. About 2 weeks ago, I stayed home on Saturday and Sunday. I was fine, I watched movies all day. I told myself that I wanted a complete break from everything. We couldn't see each other every Saturday and Sunday, we didn't see each other. He couldn't get out of the house. And so Monday came. It woke up after work, but I was not feeling well inside, and I felt some tension in my eyes. I didn't feel comfortable, but I still saw him. He asked me what was wrong with me, what was upsetting me, whether it was work, my friends. And I didn't and no, and in the end it was on my tongue and I told him that I had started the most complicated relationship in my life. He will stay forever, and he accepted it normally because he has been through it many times. He wasn't surprised, I'd even say he was relieved. I felt and realized that he wanted him more than me. Do you believe I'm devastated? I did it myself and I will carry the cross on my back. I don't want to hear about connections. He asked me if he would call me, and I told him I needed time and didn't want him to call me. There is nothing more to say. I miss him a lot, I've never missed a man so much. I will be traumatized for life. I can't breathe, I don't feel like living anymore. I have never been dependent on anyone, I have always been interested in work, my family, my friends, but once I have met him, he cannot be replaced by anyone or anything.