To some of you, the story may seem like a banal movie and you may think I'm a fool, but you don't choose who to fall in love with. I'm a 19-year-old girl, I graduated last year and came here in Canada after being accepted to the university I wanted. I wanted to earn separately and on my own, so that I could use the scholarship and the money from ours for the training, and for my personal needs and pleasures to spend my own money. So I started working part-time in a piano bar as a waitress. And here I met the perfect man for me. At 27, slender, with dark hair, a beautiful smile, and the most beautiful blue eyes I had ever seen. He was a bartender and something like a manager, as the owner was always absent. But it wasn't his appearance that attracted me as much as his beautiful character. When I went to work there, I was very worried about making a mistake, and although I know the language almost perfectly, I'm not English-speaking by birth, and that made me panic. He noticed this and helped me calm down, he was very kind, he made me relax, he talked to me and so we got closer. We started going out of work, to dinners, to coffee, watching movies at home or at home. In general - as boyfriends, only we were best friends (and still are). But I fell in love, I loved him more than a brother.
I kept telling myself that he wouldn't like me, that I wasn't so beautiful to him, even though he kept telling me how unique I was and that the man who won me over would be the luckiest in the world. I don't know exactly how it happened and how we talked about boyfriends, but he told me that he was gay and he even liked a man there with whom they corresponded, he showed me photos, they had even seen each other several times. I was glad he was happy, but I felt very heavy inside. I've never been lucky in love, I've always chosen the wrong ones, that's why I'm still a virgin, but that's another topic and just when I hit 10, he turned out to be gay ... Nothing, I told myself that once I knew that , at least my falling in love will "pass" gradually, and it's better than tormenting myself, but instead it got worse. With each passing day we get closer and I fall more and more in love with him, but he already has a boyfriend (the one I mentioned earlier) and he loves me as a sister. How can I also love him as a brother, how can I drive him crazy?
I can't replace it with another, it's not that easy, and I don't want to hurt anyone. What can I do, dear people? I've never been lucky in love, I've always chosen the wrong ones, that's why I'm still a virgin, but that's another topic and just when I hit 10, he turned out to be gay ... Nothing, I told myself that once I knew that , at least my falling in love will "pass" gradually, and it's better than tormenting myself, but instead it got worse. With each passing day we get closer and I fall more and more in love with him, but he already has a boyfriend (the one I mentioned earlier) and he loves me as a sister. How can I also love him as a brother, how can I drive him crazy? I can't replace it with another, it's not that easy, and I don't want to hurt anyone. What can I do, dear people? I've never been lucky in love, I've always chosen the wrong ones, that's why I'm still a virgin, but that's another topic and just when I hit 10, he turned out to be gay ... Nothing, I told myself that once I knew that, at least my falling in love will "pass" gradually, and it's better than tormenting myself, but instead it got worse. With each passing day, we get closer and I fall more and more in love with him, but he already has a boyfriend (the one I mentioned earlier) and he loves me as a sister. How can I also love him as a brother, how can I drive him crazy? I can't replace it with another, it's not that easy, and I don't want to hurt anyone. What can I do, dear people? ..
Nothing, I told myself that once I know this, at least my falling in love will "pass" gradually, and it's better than tormenting myself, but instead, it got worse. With each passing day we get closer and I fall more and more in love with him, but he already has a boyfriend (the one I mentioned earlier) and he loves me as a sister. How can I also love him as a brother, how can I drive him crazy? I can't replace it with another, it's not that easy, and I don't want to hurt anyone. What can I do, dear people? .. Nothing, I told myself that once I know this, at least my falling in love will "pass" gradually, and it's better than tormenting myself, but instead, it got worse. With each passing day we get closer and I fall more and more in love with him, but he already has a boyfriend (the one I mentioned earlier) and he loves me as a sister. How can I also love him as a brother, how can I drive him crazy? I can't replace it with another, it's not that easy, and I don't want to hurt anyone. What can I do, dear people? How can I also love him as a brother, how can I drive him crazy? I can't replace it with another, it's not that easy, and I don't want to hurt anyone. What can I do, dear people? How can I also love him as a brother, how can I drive him crazy? I can't replace it with another, it's not that easy, and I don't want to hurt anyone. What can I do, dear people?
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Does he know about your feelings? Not that anything would change, but at least if you step away from him (it's best for you), he'll know the reason and you won't leave him hostile to you.
You have found a great friend, you must be happy about this fact. Most of us don't even have an ordinary friend. You will find a boyfriend, there is no point in getting obsessed with impossible movies with this gay man. Just let the mind in you and transform your love.
"I was glad that he was happy, but I felt very heavy inside." - you seem to be happy, but inside you are heavy !? This is not sincere joy, but selfish. He is not your property, you can love him in any way. I have a pet dog that I love more than my wife, because it is true to me indefinitely, but it does not weigh on me "from the inside" when another dog fucks him. I love him sincerely and I am always happy when I see him that he is happy too. He hugs me like a small child, we look into his eyes with our sincere eyes and without words he shows me how happy he is. I don't want to compare your friend to a dog, but I want to tell you that the feeling of love is born in good souls. It is not love that causes you "pain from within." Only pathological cases do this. You are not looking for a friend, but a sexual partner, so you are disappointed and envious of others.
Author, it's not easy for you. Gays are extremely attractive because they not only know how to support themselves, but also have the thinking of a woman. They are not afraid to be gentle, kind and are very good friends, because they are real men (they lack in most cases intrigue and the like), but in fact you can talk to them on any topic. But, as in your case, if you fall in love, they are like the forbidden fruit - so close, and at the same time impossible to try it. He can't change himself, so you have to try to find love elsewhere - because of you, because of him and your friendship.
My opinion is that if you are so in love, it is better to break away from him. I have a gay friend, he is very cute, but even when we met I knew he was gay, his Facebook profile showed and he never hid it, sometimes we go out, but I'm not in love, but if he wasn't gay for sure I would try to have a relationship with him. In order not to start having feelings, I just avoid seeing each other often. It's best to find another job and leave this one so that you don't see it too, there is simply no other way, or you perceive him as a friend, or if you are so in love, get away from him and do nothing but hurt yourself.
Author: As difficult as it is for me, the comments here made me think, and I think that I will overcome my feelings, I will go out on meetings, as well as with other friends, but I will not leave my man and I will continue to be his best. -good friend. I'm not selfish, and my thinking has bordered on selfish so far, but I'm still human ... Thank you very much!
I allow myself to give you a drop of optimism, ask him ... it could be Bee. I think it's better to share it with someone than to be jealous and not have it at all. This jealousy has nothing to do with love. And his boyfriend can be wonderful too :) You will make a fantastic threesome .... I can even imagine how they make you a double vaginal. Bass, I have a problem with you honestly! M35