Hi, I'm a 15 year old girl. For God's sake, I don't even know how to start my fast ..! It's hard for me to make sense of it and then write it. I'm not stupid, but I act like that. For example, at school I act like I fell from the sky - it's not exactly a shame, but since I've been in this city, school, something has changed in me. Probably not because of the new situation, but because I couldn't find friends. My friendships are slow, but often lasting. Now I can't even go out with someone, I'm looking for someone, but somehow I feel like I'm not going out. That's because we don't have a common story ... and also because I'm already used to being alone. I'm not a talkative person, but when I feel that I like some of them, I start philosophizing. In the summer (every summer is like that) I'm not in this city and I can't make friends. If I was here during the summer vacation, I would enroll in a sports club, for example, and find friends, and why not company. I think I'm full of good qualities literally and figuratively, but somehow I'm not appreciated. I feel it! It used to be my strategy to pretend to be stupid so as not to gain the envy of other girls. Now even the boys make fun of me, yes - they make fun of me, I was ridiculed. Fortunately, this is only in school. I am really charming, unlike others I am noticeable and instead of making me happy and invigorating, it bores me. I can't imagine that a normal young man would run completely alone from seven to nine in the evening in the park, just because he doesn't do anything else (except read a book, listen to music and stay at the computer). Since I don't have friends, it wouldn't actually be normal. My old friends (with whom I grew up and see only in the summer) sooner or later begin to forget me. I don't live in my past, but still only the memories with them fill me with happiness as if ... I want to listen to old rock songs again, to have a picnic, to be out in the fresh air all day and to have fun. I am amused until the evening, when it was the turn of our jokes. Now sometimes in my own eyes I am pathetic. I wake up, immediately open the window and spend the whole day hanging around and doing nothing, everything goes into thoughts, memories and sometimes dreams. And I don't want that to be because I'm not the person I became. I read a book that sometimes fills me with hope. I'm not depressed, I'm not desperate. My mood has been like this for many months. And I think I'm small for such periods, what do you think? I'm not asking you, "Why don't I have a boyfriend?" does he like me '', although I wanted to know the answers to these questions. One thing I know for sure - a person like me does not look like he is in such a "situation". Answer, I will be grateful to everyone (if my post is published).
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It's like I wrote it! That's right, I'm the same age, only I'm the opposite sex. I keep pretending to be stupid, and I don't know why. And my friends think I'm an idiot. For example, we are 3-4 people in billiards and I am constantly wondering how to expose myself and I try to think that I do it consciously ... And just like you, I think about all sorts of things all day long. And so time passes ...
We have all been in unfamiliar environments, and those who are more sensitive than us have sometimes closed themselves off too much. Don't be fooled, this is a period and it will pass. You are obviously smart and at times you sink into thoughts. Practical advice - try not to think about these things so much, do not take anything seriously, deal with the things that interest you; if they tease you at school, react positively - and don't show that you are offended, it will make things worse. If you're still thinking, analyze yourself - why "act like a fool"? Isn't this some kind of mask behind which you hide your insecurity? Whatever it is, once you realize the problem, it will be far easier for you to get rid of the complex. And, personal opinion - it's not good to humiliate yourself in this way. It's downright reprehensible. : D You're smart, it is imperative that others understand this so that you can communicate, and thus be useful to them :) This is how friendships are built. If you make sense of these things at such a fragile age, you have gone much further in your development (and you have a chance at a little more years to think again and choose a better philosophy: D).
I'm a boy and I'm a lot like you. Sometimes I feel like I can do anything and then I feel like nothing. Very common among teenagers. In elementary school, I got along with almost everyone and had many friends. Now it's just the opposite I'm closed in on myself, to school and back, but more and more I want something new interesting. I realized that the people I am with are terribly limited and, say, I am already bored and I have no desire to have anything to do with them. I plan to follow in 1 year. And you do so and you will find people like you. And even so, some people hide their true selves so as not to be hated or harassed. I hope I helped. Good luck.
Don't worry, girl. He understands you to some extent, because I am like that. But on the other hand not, and I could not. As the saying goes, let me tell you about the delicious apple I ate a minute ago and explain how delicious and juicy this red apple was. Until you taste it, there's no way to know what it is. NO, you've always been that way, you just didn't know it. And in this case, the circumstances are the engine to discover something foreign in yourself, and later to understand that it has always been in you, but only now you understand it! And as for the fact that you don't look the way you feel ... Not everything is as it seems ... I am too. I don't have a good name in school (I'm in 9th grade). I don't find friends easily and I feel lonely all the time. Abe is the same as your symptom, except that you are in another city and therefore in another school. I am 15 years old.
The author: Oh, well, I either have to change or find friends, but how to do it ... I can find friends right away, but I'm against hanging out with someone just not alone. I need time and patience, but I don't know how much longer I will last. I talk to everyone, but I can't sit down and tell "female" stories (like who said what, but where did he buy the cool bracelet). That's why I always stay away and I'm always outside the "group" of girls in the class. Well, I admit there have been many cases where I've talked about bracelets and things, enough to pass the break and not sit as an outsider at the desk. If I talk about my work (I forgot to say that I am interested in many different things - Bulgarian history, facts, where you come from, sports, mystical things, abe, many) will surely make me think crazy. I haven't told anyone that. And if I talk to someone of the opposite sex - a boy ... once I was coming home from school and a classmate who was in my direction unexpectedly decided to wait for me on the sidewalk and called me, but I know how he treats me (' "Was she a brother", etc.) not only did I not pay attention to him, but I also laughed at him. I did it because I was afraid he would do the same and others would think I was crazy. And he and the others do it very often (to joke). I'm a charming girl, I have a lot of flaws in my character, but I'm really weird with a main C. BUT Still, whoever managed to get under my skin and get to know me better was not disappointed with my essence. I haven't told anyone that.
And if I talk to someone of the opposite sex - a boy ... once I was coming home from school and a classmate who was in my direction unexpectedly decided to wait for me on the sidewalk and called me, but I know how he treats me (' "Was she a brother?" etc.) not only did I not pay attention to him, but I also laughed at him. I did it because I was afraid he would do the same and others would think I was crazy. And he and the others do it very often (to joke). I'm a charming girl, I have a lot of flaws in my character, but I'm really weird with the main C. BUT Still, whoever managed to get under my skin and get to know me better was not disappointed with my essence. I haven't told anyone that. And if I talk to someone of the opposite sex - a boy ... once I was coming home from school and a classmate who was in my direction unexpectedly decided to wait for me on the sidewalk and called me, but I know how he treats me (' "Was she a brother?" etc.) not only did I not pay attention to him, but I also laughed at him. I did it because I was afraid he would do the same and others would think I was crazy. And he and the others do it very often (to joke). I'm a charming girl, I have a lot of flaws in my character, but I'm really weird with a main C. BUT Still, whoever managed to get under my skin and get to know me better was not disappointed with my essence. who was in my direction decided to unexpectedly wait for me on the sidewalk and called me, but I know how he treats me ("was she a brother", etc.) not only did not pay attention to him, but also to him I laughed. I did it because I was afraid he would do the same and others would think I was crazy.
And he and the others do it very often (to joke). I'm a charming girl, I have a lot of flaws in my character, but I'm really weird with a main C. BUT Still, whoever managed to get under my skin and get to know me better was not disappointed with my essence. who was in my direction decided to unexpectedly wait for me on the sidewalk and called me, but I know how he treats me ("was she a brother", etc.) not only did not pay attention to him, but also to him I laughed. I did so because I was afraid he would do the same and others would think I was crazy. And he and the others do it very often (to joke). I'm a charming girl, I have a lot of flaws in my character, but I'm really weird with a main C. BUT Still, whoever managed to get under my skin and get to know me better was not disappointed with my nature. that he will do the same and others will think I'm crazy. And he and the others do it very often (to joke). I'm a charming girl, I have a lot of flaws in my character, but I'm really weird with a main C.
BUT Still, whoever managed to get under my skin and get to know me better was not disappointed with my essence. that he will do the same and others will think I'm crazy. And he and the others do it very often (to joke). I'm a charming girl, I have a lot of flaws in my character, but I'm really weird with the main C. BUT Still, whoever managed to get under my skin and get to know me better was not disappointed with my essence.