Like many young girls in puberty, I admired bad boys. I was happy when we left ... the happiest. I never suspected what he would become, as I was inseparable from him all these 5 years. We smoked weed from time to time, ostensibly to relax. We have had very serious scandals over the years. When we were arguing, I always understood from somewhere that he was taking something. It just blackened me. I didn't know what was going on until our last year together. Another serious scandal about something-there-there. We got along, of course, I decided to give him a chance, I was very mentally exhausted from this fight already. Then he slipped me with drugs. Then I said to myself, "Well, they're not that bad, what's wrong with them." Yes but no. My inner universe revolved only around white dust. I started behaving badly with my family and friends, without even realizing it, I behaved well for me.
My psyche changed a lot, I had panic attacks and I was suffering from constant depression. I would even commit suicide. I did not yet realize the nature of the problem. I read topics about drug couples and there were stories with a happy ending. This kept me hoping that one day the sun would rise for both of us and everything would be fine. Again, yes, but no. He got sick. His teeth began to decay, he seemed to show me that he loved me very much and he could always stop. I believed naively. Perhaps his greatest love was heroin and still is. He didn't beat himself intravenously, and that gave me some hope. Not to lag behind, I decided to see what is heroin and what is so good. I did not find such pleasure in him, only that my lover adored him. So we drove it for a while, it was great for me because I removed all the obstacles in my way, I got out of us and threw myself into the deep pit, supposedly to help him stop ... but now that I think about it, the drugs spoke for me. One morning, however, I woke up because I had been brutally drunk the night before and my head was hurting a lot. Somehow, the reality was different ... I began to realize what was happening around me and that things were already very bad. I decided to stop messing with the "cold turkey" method and got out of abstinence even though it was nasty. That's when I decided to break up with him, I did it. After a while, I shook his hand again. I wanted to help him, I sincerely wanted to help him and show him how beautiful life can be. He refused. He pretended to be inaccessible and told me that his life was wonderful, and I have wasted my chance at a good life with him.
We would have had a wonderful life, I would not have found someone who loves and appreciates me as much as him .... nonsense on the tarkalet. I loved it, but I still realized that my life is more valuable. No one but my family and 2 friends knows that I have ever used drugs. It was not easy for me, but I managed to support my family and my dear mother, who reacted immediately. As for my ex-boyfriend, as far as I know, he hasn't stopped. He likes it anyway and will live. Don't be blinded and stupid, girls. When I found myself in this environment, it was only then that I realized how many addicts there really are. Appreciate your life.
Lately, more and more of my friends have been complaining that they like drug addicts or that they started because of them ... society is a country of such people and the choice is yours. About the expression "there is no former drug addict" ... No, I know, no one knows if tomorrow I will not fall into the abyss again, but I know that I will not give up without a fight. They offered me, I refused with a smile. Maybe it's all about freedom. I am writing this because I know that the problem is epidemic at the moment, and I just wanted to share. If I can help one person, I will be very happy.
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Hello, author! Drugs are a very dangerous thing! It destroys you! Have you seen the movie "MORPHINE"? Watch it, you won't go wrong! It is about a young, newly graduated doctor, assigned to work in a deep rural village! In the evening he feels unwell - his sister gives him a morphine injection and this is just the beginning of his fall! I have already read the book, but the film gives an accurate and clear idea of what drugs can lead to! In principle, the drug is used exclusively under strict medical supervision and only in very exceptional cases - it is kept in turnkey steel boxes, which are accessible only to medical staff, and a record is kept of exactly how many packages and ampoules are in the box and how many are used! And the fact that the drugs "came out" on the street is due to the drug dealers, who do not stop at anything, just to get rich on someone's back! And drugs are becoming more accessible, thanks to the Internet! Too bad your friend fell! As soon as he is left without teeth, it turns out that he has not yet realized! And be careful where you go, do not get together with some rascals who are looking to offer you something and sleep with you! There are such cases, so be careful! No trust in strangers and dubious people! Thanks to this distrust of everyone I met, I kept my life intact! I go to cultural events and film them with my camera, there are actually no passers-by! I am 36, fortunately I have never had and will not have contact with any drugs! Life is much more fulfilling as it is - without drugs! that he has not yet realized! And be careful where you go, do not get together with some rascals who are looking to offer you something and sleep with you! There are such cases, so be careful! No trust in strangers and dubious people! Thanks to this distrust of everyone I met, I kept my life intact! I go to cultural events and film them with my camera, there are actually no passers-by! I am 36, fortunately I have never had and will not have contact with any drugs! Life is much more fulfilling as it is - without drugs! that he has not yet realized! And you be careful where you go, do not get together with some rascals who are looking to offer you something and sleep with you! There are such cases, so be careful! No trust in strangers and dubious people! Thanks to this distrust of everyone I met, I kept my life intact! I go to cultural events and film them with my camera, there are actually no passers-by! I am 36, fortunately I have never had and will not have contact with any drugs! Life is much more fulfilling as it is - without drugs! I go to cultural events and film them with my camera, there are actually no passers-by! I am 36, fortunately I have never had and will not have contact with any drugs! Life is much more fulfilling as it is - without drugs! I go to cultural events and film them with my camera, there are actually no passers-by! I am 36, fortunately I have never had and will not have contact with any drugs! Life is much more fulfilling as it is - without drugs!
For me, there are no more useless and failed people than drug addicts. Attempts to help one are like filling a bottomless barrel, it is pointless they are doomed. The worst thing is that they fish for others around them. That's why they hang them in the Far East.
Well done! Thanks for sharing.
I am number 1! And you can also watch "BASKETBALL LOGS" for a boy, another student-girl lures him with drugs before they go to bed and from that moment his fall begins, but he recovers and is a full-fledged person again!
Next to number 1 Abe, movies on such topics are very interesting to you! I don't know exactly what the happy ending is for the boy in "Basketball Diaries", except that he didn't break up in his youth. He missed the chance to at least go to college with a full sports scholarship, his whole neighborhood realized he was on a needle, these things are not forgotten like in the movies, and his friends died. In fact, his youth was gone. To the author "No one but my family and 2 friends know that I have ever used drugs." "It has nothing to do with your story." After this statement, I even doubt whether it is real. If! How come you're not angry about the wasted years and the fact that you had to tie in a completely different way. This time cannot be made up. Maybe if you're a beauty and you've taken off someone wealthy, be patient.
Up to 5 by the author I am angry, of course, but for a former drug addict the strongest thing is the will and optimism. What you quoted: when I returned to my life, I told all of the above. Otherwise, yes, there have been people who have seen me, but they are not a factor in my life. And, there is a difference between know and suspect. Many people suspected during this period, but seeing me now, happier than ever, these suspicions quickly disappeared. I am physically beautiful, you are right here too. But I'm single at the moment and I'm focusing on myself more than looking for someone wealthy. And so as not to say that it is because there is no one to tie me, here I will say that I have suggestions every day. But I don't care about money at all, because I have it. :) I can't get my time back, fact. I don't think, however, that I have to waste my present time unfortunately. Exactly the opposite.
From 5 to the author Thank you very much for the answer. I also try to be an ex, albeit addicted to lighter things - marijuana, coffee, cigarettes - these are my addictions. For now I manage, it is difficult for me only if I am with / around people. Sometimes I feel like grabbing a cigarette from the hand of a tobacco-smoking interlocutor, I try not to sit at a table and coffee for at least 10 years, I just have the feeling that without marijuana I can not socialize, it has never been my strength, not that I'm intoxicated. Out of two or three coffees, my brain works in a better way, but then I can't blink in the evening. You are lucky to be beautiful, popular and from a family with opportunities, so the rescue beach is closer for sure. I was looking at pictures of women, already clean and happy, overcoming hard drug addiction online - all of them were beautiful, from 8/10 upwards. And since this topic is my weakness - books, interviews, movies, music - I should recommend one or two films. Look! the Danish! movies Pusher and Pusher 3, if you missed it by accident. Not to mention the best on such a topic, be careful not to confuse the first with his nasty remake.
Author up to 5 You pleasantly surprise me with your answer! Yes, I'm lucky I was spit on a lot during my drug days. I just didn't fit in this environment for long. Otherwise, coffee and cigarettes are my addiction, I am a passionate smoker. The fight is difficult, I know that in history everything looks like a magic wand, but it is not. Before I did not believe that there are "former drug addicts". That's how life turned out, that I'm one of them. You know, I did the exact opposite. I started to socialize more, to go out more. So I prove to myself that I can. Interestingly, people like me already. If the opposite is beneficial for you, I am glad! :) Regarding the movies, I will not miss them, I will watch them. Thanks! :)
5 to the author I like the discussion with you. I wish you health. I plan to write an extensive commentary, my story briefly. I'm still looking for inspiration, but I feel the need to share it with someone. You will be the first person after my author's parents. Internally, I need to talk about my story, but I'm not ready for a separate topic, and I want to tell someone with similar experiences. These days I will fast, I will be glad to read.
Author up to 5 I'm glad you want to share (I'm already switching to "you") I will read with great pleasure, I am active on the site and I enter it as often as people enter Facebook. Be healthy too! I will wait :)
From 5 (E) to A (the author) And I like this site a lot, I like it. I even plan to take a month or two to refresh my knowledge of language culture and I hope to improve it. It irritates me a lot when I read the comments and find mistakes out of ignorance or neglect. I speak tolerable English and good Russian, but my gaps in the 3 languages are similar and I will clean them starting from the bottom of the pyramid. I discovered "Share" by accident in the first months of 2019, while looking for a solution to my problems. As I said, the subject of my addictions is a weakness - movies, interviews, books, comments, personal stories, observations - I'm obviously looking for answers and solutions to questions that bother me. Slowly I find light, but time passes. I enter the site quite often, I have read many topics and comments, I do not limit myself only to "Drugs and alcohol", sometimes I comment. So far I have written my extensive comment, but something unpleasant and unexpected happened to me. No, I have not violated my abstinence, I even feel stronger and convinced of its rightness. I will definitely write something extensive by the end of the week. I constantly pick up on this topic, my life in the past, in my head - I think, think and reflect - where exactly did I confuse it like that, why, was there another time, couldn't I be stronger? To insert something in advance and to continue the dialogue, I wrote, and I'm happy. "If the opposite is good for you - I'm happy! Regarding the movies, I won't miss them, I'll watch them. Thank you! :)" "The interesting thing is that people like me already!" Compared to when the author and why? I myself seem to have missed those two things quite, quite young, because something I didn't like very much and people didn't seem to like me as much as I wanted. I started coffee again at the beginning of my teenage years, but while working with adults, in the future it turned out to be the perfect addition to brown and green for smoking, with the gradual cessation of milk and sugar - I became a total coffee maker. Once again at work, already as a young man / man, some Dutch women with whom we were friendly, were not addicts or smokers, asked me how can such a nice boy like you smoke weed? I in a new dance with her - marijuana, after 3-4 years of trouble-free abstinence from everything without coffee - total addiction to fitness, proper nutrition and drinking plenty of mineral and spring water - followed by personal and professional disappointments after a strong period, I call them: "
It's not interesting, drug addict.
Author up to 5 Thus. And it annoys me when I find a mistake in what is written. And I speak English, I don't know at what level, but I'm fine: D Ah, I don't know Russian well, yesterday I went to a cosmetic studio to make an appointment ... They're just Russian, full mish-mash. I know a little German, I would say 2% out of 100. You ask when and why people like me more. Compared to my drug days. Why? Maybe because I myself have changed as a person since then and a lot. I was a big pessimist before, I didn't allow myself to wear a color other than black, when I met someone I just sat and kept quiet, I was bored with people. Besides, I didn't like her at all. And that, I guess you know, is felt. Compared to the present moment, I am much more confident, I did not have self-confidence before. I take care of myself and I am always smiling. Besides, I'm thin, short, I have green eyes and black hair, matte skin, now in the summer I am quite dark and even clients in my office compliment me, it's about appearance. Apparently they enjoy them: D That's why I told you that the strongest of the former drug addict is his faith and positivism. Ever since I stopped, I've always tried to look at things positively. A friend, a psychologist by profession, told me that it is not healthy to be too positive. For me, the opposite is true, because it helped me a lot. Compared to you, your dependence that you feel more confident is very good. However, this immersion in the past is a problem for me. I did the same. And because my addiction was tied to my ex-boyfriend, it got worse. Over time, I stopped wondering what it could have been, why I did it, and so on. It's over, it's happened, there's nothing I can do. It is not a mistake that you were wrong. The important thing is not to repeat it. For marijuana, it was never my favorite, maybe that's why I didn't like heroin very much. My problem was mainly with methamphetamines, because I wanted to live at a fast pace. In short, I was a speed freak. I am very impatient and I want everything at the moment, now I control this quality. Self-improvement. Personally, the weed pushed me into a big depression, but I kept smoking it. Why I don't know either. For insulation. There is a saying that your comfort zone is killing you. If you don't take a risk, you can't get out of it. I did so. Little by little, with very small steps, dating by acquaintance, seeing friends a little, traveling with my family (because I love to travel) and you just start doing what makes you feel warm inside. For me, this works, but it may not work for you. Everyone is different. For a while, I shunned the topic of drugs so as not to pull me down again. I don't have a problem now. I don't have time for the movies, but I plan to watch them this or next weekend. Greetings! :)
Up to 13 from the Addict! "Ha-ha-ha." Why do you sting you to tell me? You're obviously a complex - and of course a hater. I bet you drink, smoke, typewriter or something, not be one of those poker pros or chemistry dudes. It's a nastier drug than anything else, not that I've tried it.
From D to the Author This number 13 makes me nervous - I succeeded! Anyway. The author, Thanks for the correspondence. I hope I'm not violating your privacy. Rather, I wanted to ask, "Do they like you more now / enough than before you started the abuse?" And "Why did you let them dislike you or why did you care, no matter what period?" In the sense - "You shouldn't". And I like a nice complexion, after all it's a natural hormone of happiness, right? I was hooked on a solarium, not in the summer. I have lighter skin, medium height with brown-green eyes, my hair was ashy. My first real boyfriend said I looked like Freddie Lumberg. I guarantee I'm not that cool, and he's blue-eyed. What can I say about the little girls - I remember Madonna and Kylie Minogue - they are definitely winners. again a colleague, but in education, she had previously shown me that weed can be smoked many times in a row, during our short adventure. I didn't even know it then, she called them "chadels", and her regular line was: "Let's wind a chadel". 2. CHARISM - MR. KILLER / CHARISMA - MR. KILLER - this song and the video for it say a lot on the subject, not to mention that its level is global, at least in my opinion. I also like to live at a fast pace, but I have always brought this effect with coffee. I was already addicted to fitness and a complete abstainer when these methamphetamines came in, I didn't even take supplements, but people described them as 10th degree amphetamine. I haven't tried them. A former TV dealer once explained that amphetamine was mixed with at least 20-30% caffeine and similar ingredients for energy and vitality. I understand why you draw a parallel between weed and heroin. Somewhat. Some say that the grass is boiled with anything, including it. However, after three periods with a lot of grass and coffee, I did full tests for everything and I was clean for everything without grass. This is not the reason I understand the parallel, but rather the effect that I cannot compare. I would like to say that the grass catches you in a different, even quite different way if you hit a strong, hot coffee without milk and sugar after smoking. I don't even want to go into details, but I would describe this condition in one piece: 3. danny tenaglia - elements (live @ the tunnel). I didn't even know that this classic was from more than 20 years ago. Let's say I listened to it for the first time 10 years late. She became an author for a long time. I will write this weekend or the next. : D - Greetings! Optimism, this is the covenant - better too much than without;
Isn't there a former drug addict? There is only one moment that exists and it is NOW. If you're not shaking now, then you're not a drug addict. Also, if "you can always refuse it" but you don't, then you are NOW a drug addict. What you could be or what you could do has no value! "Now" has value! Every second, every minute, every year YOU ARE NO LONGER A DRUG ADDICT! Blessed are those who have gone through this ordeal to understand what it means to make an effort to have value NOW! * I have not reached such deep waters with drugs, but I have not smoked for 13 years. NOW I am not a smoker. And they talk to each other, that's their job
Very, very valuable comment 17 out of 5.
Hello, 5, it's me again. I seem to have delayed the answer a bit, but there was no way, I apologize. I wasn't with the right person and that's where it all comes from. That is, I was not myself, I really needed to be liked because I had no friends. In general, I was diagnosed with chronic depression, which caused a brutal social anxiety, and I had many health problems. Well, that's probably why I cared. I like Madonna and most of her songs, not to mention that the remixes they do now are very good. What can I tell you, even while I was in school weed was smoked en masse. Because we had such a tunnel, where you go out in a place, surrounded on all sides by blocks, it was big, it smelled regularly. Eh, they were good years ... I refused them, they were good boys, but very simple. Charisma ... I remember years ago Miro took part in a mall. We just fought for an autograph, I still keep it: D I make a parallel, because for me heroin (for intravenous use) is like weed without tinkering in your brain. Personally, when I smoke weed, I start tickling a lot. The last time I didn't feel bad, I was fine, but this cycling was very bad for me. Coffee after weed, I drank but with sugar, I'm very ignorant on this issue, I apologize. Everything seems different to everyone, someone can even condemn me for comparing a hertz with a trump card ... But what to do. With heroin ... I only remember how good I felt and how much I slept, so much so that I closed one eye. Again, intravenous use. I remember that at a temperature of 28 degrees we turn on an air conditioner at 30 to blow hot to sweat ... His drug addiction is disgusting. Stimulants are fakes, Yes. This is not a lie. It is a well-known fact, however, that they are sought after as warm bread. There's a Billie Crystal song, just about methamphetamines. Again, I apologize for the late reply. I am waiting for you.
5A :) Super * will be fasting Saturday or Sunday! I'm trying to gain momentum :) You're helping me A ... "Underworld - Born Sleepy" - you say - "It's disgusting". That's why I started with BBC Radio 1 essential mix: "[Intro] We don't sleep when the sun goes down We don't waste no precious time All my friends in the loop Making up for teenage crime '' -but DJ he had changed it a bit compared to the production version. "It's disgusting" - it's like you're on the beach; I'm trying to gain momentum A. Don't worry about the late answer. It's great that he wrote! I'm not a freak control, at least not to the personal space. I keep thinking that if there is everything you need it will be perfect. Then either something is missing or it is not perfect and the situation repeats itself - this is my problem. I hope it has outgrown it, I really hope it's all about my personal arrangement. He mentioned that you love to travel and that charges you. I highly recommend Bucharest, no matter what is said about Romania in society. If you are a Thracian, only the transition through the mountains is difficult. Otherwise I highly recommend - "House of the people" - Parliament - wide marble boulevards, 4/8 lanes with gardens in the middle, very beautiful center, interesting and delicious cuisine. There is an old French Arch, which is made entirely of glass and is huge, very beautiful, something like a shed in front of a monumental old building, it was a hospital in bygone eras - now something for students. In the tourist part it is located, for about 10 euros you sit in a decent restaurant. The entire pedestrian part of their capital is dotted with these small and medium, sophisticated-looking, semi-open, semi-closed restaurants - it is very compact ... I'll leave you some surprises; I didn't really like only the museum of the village, but you can see - old houses from the time of Rome - I guess, next to a large and beautiful pool of water. However, their village, a suburb of Bucharest, is fabulous, it is not a museum park, but on the way to the city. Quite typical architecture - high sharp roofs made by hand, obviously a craft there, and the buildings themselves are square with square courtyards and everything is freshly painted in purple, yellow-pastel tones - it surprised me so pleasantly - like in a fairy tale. I will write, I miss you :) Even if it's next week, because I want it to be a nice text like yours * this is not a museum park, but on the way to the city. Quite typical architecture - high sharp roofs made by hand, obviously a craft there, and the buildings themselves are square with square yards and everything is freshly painted in purple, yellow-pastel tones - it surprised me so pleasantly - like in a fairy tale. I will write, I miss you :) Even if it's next week, because I want it to be a nice text like yours * this is not a museum park, but on the way to the city. Quite typical architecture - high sharp roofs made by hand, obviously a craft there, and the buildings themselves are square with square yards and everything is freshly painted in purple, yellow-pastel tones - it surprised me so pleasantly - like in a fairy tale. I will write, I miss you :) Even if it's next week, because I want it to be a nice text like yours *
Author Hello, I was waiting for you to write before I answered, maybe you are waiting for me? I'm writing to you, this is my lunch break, that I've been overwhelmed with work lately. I didn't just go through it through Bucharest, because my way was through Romania. But I'll add it to the list: D You know what I noticed ... the whole country smelled like cows ... Literally. Maybe farming is their main livelihood? Greetings!
You're wrong, Drussey. Stinging is your area. What is this old chemistry that is a nastier drug than the glue you sniff?