Hello ... I'm an 18-year-old girl ... I haven't had a boyfriend for almost 1 and 6 months ... As the days went by ... I didn't find a person to be with me ... because believe me, I need someone to love me ... I know it sounds weird but it's reality itself. One day an acquaintance explained to me how many nice guys there are in the gym where she trains .... and I jokingly signed up for a month ... The workouts went well as I expected .... but it happened .... once when I went to a disco ... the DJ I knew wanted something from me .... he came and started kissing me .... things with him ended in the next 3 days ... because we were not looking for anything ..... But the main character in the story is not him .... He is a boy from the gym, a friend of the DJ, who allegedly asked about my girlfriends .... One day I saw him on the street, he was getting out of the car and I shouted: "Excuse me ... Is your name Enrico" Whereupon he answered me in a surprised and interrogative voice: "Yes, my name is Enrico ...?" I explained to him that the DJ told me that he liked one of my friends and I started showing them on my phone .... He looked at the pictures and did not react ..... I asked him specifically about my acquaintance .. .. She and I were in the picture ..... And he told me that he liked me more .... It may seem frivolous .... but I knew that this man had a girlfriend ..... and not someone who is for a month / two ..... He has a girlfriend of 10 years, lives with her ..... At the compliment I also told him that I do not want anything and that I would not touch something foreign with him but he he wanted .... and the same night he showed me his riches .... He is wonderful ..... but I am not in love with him ... I am happy when he is with me .... I hate that he has a girlfriend ... and I hate him even more ... that I succumb to the temptation when I see him .... Yesterday he was home ... for the first time ...... we made love by candlelight. .. and as if this time we were not interested in anything .... I know I should not dream ... and one day I will pay for it and maybe ... but when it will be my turn to love ... I suffer ..... I'm sick of loneliness .... and I don't know how long I will last alone .... because I don't have any real friends where I live .... and maybe I won't have .... I want not to I do ..... and in the next moment I feel happy that I did it, although I feel sorry for this girl ... and she is a real woman ... Please help me! I have no idea how this would be possible .... write a comment The Little Mermaid ..... we made love by candlelight ... and as if this time we didn't care about anything .... I know I shouldn't dream ... and one day I'll pay for it and maybe ... but when will it's my turn to love ... I'm suffering ..... I'm sick of loneliness .... and I don't know how long I'll last alone .... because I don't have any real friends where I live .... and maybe not I will have .... I want not to do it ..... and the next moment I feel happy that I did it, although I feel sorry for this girl ... and she is a real woman ... Please help me! I have no idea how this would be possible .... write a comment The Little Mermaid ..... we made love by candlelight ... and as if this time we didn't care about anything .... I know I shouldn't dream ... and one day I'll pay for it and maybe ... but when will it's my turn to love ... I'm suffering ..... I'm sick of loneliness .... and I don't know how long I'll last alone .... because I don't have any real friends where I live .... and maybe not I will have .... I want not to do it ..... and the next moment I feel happy that I did it, although I feel sorry for this girl ... and she is a real woman ... Please help me! I have no idea how this would be possible .... write a comment The Little Mermaid ... because I don't have any real friends where I live .... and maybe I won't ... I don't want to do it ..... and the next moment I feel happy to have done it, despite that I feel sorry for this girl ... and she is a real woman ... Please help me! I have no idea how this would be possible .... write a comment The Little Mermaid ... because I don't have any real friends where I live .... and maybe I won't ... I don't want to do it ..... and the next moment I feel happy to have done it, despite that I feel sorry for this girl ... and she is a real woman ... Please help me! I have no idea how this would be possible .... write a comment The Little Mermaid
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ZDR :)) You seem to be in a difficult situation. I also had a similar experience, but I decided that things should end for me, because as you say in life, everything comes back twice. My advice is not to see each other - and give your girlfriends a chance.
Well, what can I tell you, yes, for one thing you are right, what you do will come back to you just when you have found the person you love, someone like you will appear and you will feel what we are talking about. Once you're not in love even let the boy find you, and maybe you'll find the right person.
The answer I received I think is enough .... But I want to know how I can change everything that surrounds me ... To tell it exactly .... For 2 years 5 months and 18 days I live and study in Spain , my problem is that I have no friends .... The place where I am also has a lot of Bulgarians .... and as Bulgarians we show one of the worst traits of our mentality. When I lived in Bulgaria ... I had friends everywhere ... but since I've been in Spain I feel like antisocial ... or in simpler language ... I don't even have anyone to walk with for at least half an hour ... or let alone to trust something to someone .... I'm not proud of what I've done ... it may be reflected in the relationship I had with a Bulgarian while I was in Spain, but .... I don't want to justify myself ... I don't feel guilty .... I just really want someone to understand me ...
look for people you like, surround yourself with them. I have been abroad for a while and I feel exactly the same, but returning to Bulgaria at this stage is a step backwards.
I do not understand why you feel guilty about something, if this man does not want to be with you, he would not come and would not make love to you, if you are happy with him, enjoy the pleasant experiences and do not think that everything in life has some explanation ... Especially in love .... I also have been living abroad for 10 years and I know what loneliness is .... As for the fact that he has a girlfriend is their problem if things they were fine between them, he wouldn't go here and there and look for what he didn't find in his girlfriend ... It's not your fault ... think ...