Hello people, because my life no longer has any meaning, I decided to share my story here for the last time. I've been full since I was little ... I didn't go to school, in love, with friends, our people didn't have me for their favorite daughter either. I was a very sad and thoughtful child :(. At the age of fifteen my father died, my little sister and I, who was 11, were left alone with my mother. Then it became even sadder. Maybe because my sister was younger, Mom was much more vigilant over her. I experienced the loss of Daddy myself. Then I met a boy, the lack of attention and tenderness made me trust him. At first he was fine. Until he noticed that I was beaten by life. He started making fun of me. with me, it made me feel like garbage, rags, nothingness. For two years I gathered strength to oppose him. And then ... You know then maybe came the best moment of my life. I met the sweetest boy in my life, we fell in love, we had many good moments together. Until Mom finds out and decides that he's not for me and she won't approve. I was devastated, and despite everything, we went to another city with him. Until recently, we kept in touch with my mother, but nothing for a month or more. The last thing she told me was that if I stayed with him she would give up on me, now she doesn't care about me. People, even if I'm big now, I really miss my mother's protection, I miss my little sister. The guy I'm with right now is great, he takes very good care of me. I just see that he is suffering and suffering for me. He is not happy .. And I .... I have nowhere to go home, no one to call "dad" or "mom". Thanks to those who listened to me.
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Thank you for the good advice, it is really very important. Now let me give you some advice, which if you listen, I promise you that you will see how your life will go up. When you feel bad in your skin (as a stage), start saying in a full sentence something you like about yourself. It doesn't have to be right away, just when you're happy with something you've done. I'm good at math; I am very patient; I'm not a bad person; I can love .... I know how stupid it sounds, but it really helps a hell of a lot. And don't look back, the past is called the past because it's just that. Don't think about your family, look at your friend. Now he is what you have and you see that he is not happy ... more smiles, more "I love you", more hugs, consume your love. About a year ago I learned a hell of a precious lesson - If you lose someone because they didn't accept you as you did - you didn't really lose anything because you never had one. You haven't lost your mother as a family, blood doesn't flow, but you haven't lost her as a friend either, because obviously she's never been like that. Therefore, everything is fine.
Love your friend and be happy with him. Let it be the meaning of your life. Start your own family. Give birth to children and give them the love and closeness that you lacked.
I think that after your mother oppressed and neglected you before ... it doesn't make sense to go back to that state again ... If you say that you are no longer a child ... look at your life. You have a great friend who is sympathetic to your sadness and obviously loves you. Everyone sooner or later goes their own way, apparently your mother pushed you to him earlier. My advice is, in the evening, when you snuggle in bed with your sweetheart :) to look at him with your eyes in love and tell yourself how lucky you are to have such a boy next to you. There's no way you can't feel like if you're both everything will be ok. I too have been and still am neglected by my mother and let me tell you that if it weren't for my boyfriend I would be very unhappy and depressed, but my love for him changed me. I wish you the same - to shake off this feeling and watch your life!
Thank you friends!! I hope I can move forward and become a lively and happy person. For starters, your comments are a step forward, really THANK YOU !!
If your mother loves you and wants you to be happy, she will accept your relationship. I think that after the loss of your father, she feels that she may lose you and that may scare her, I don't know what your relationship is like, but know that love comes first.
Yes, that's right I know that love is the most important !!! But I want to have someone who supports me and is with me .. All my life I was alone, I handled everything alone. And now, when there really is someone who loves me and appreciates me as I am, I have to choose ... the family or him :( I don't wish it on anyone!
Your mother will probably have to accept your friend - he gives you support and love, and you are happy with that. What more could she want? Now go to them for the Christmas holidays to see your mother and sister. They will surely make you happy. And you will hardly have to choose between him and them ... because the love for them is different. And your mother will accept the situation.
7 I really want to go but I'm scared .. I don't know how mom will react, I'm very scared, she probably won't talk to me ..
I became so sad for you ... at least with your sister, is your relationship sisterly? Look to your sister for the feelings you seek from your cruel mother.
Well, to keep in touch with my sister, she says that I miss her a lot :( In principle, we have always been close. She is even the little bridge between me and mom. Along with her, I understand how mom is, what she does, whether she is well, etc.