When I was young and stupid, I fell terribly in love with a scoundrel. I let him crush me for three years. He was cheating on me, behaving badly, not remembering me. But I felt attracted to a magnet. I stood in the corner of my loneliness, meek and kind, and waited. I waited for an apology, waited for him to see that I was in pain, waited for some small gesture of attention, and lied to myself that I was important to him. Until one day he told me he didn't want to deal with me anymore. And I didn't understand why it hurt terribly. It's such a terrible pain - I walked like dead for months. I neglected myself, lost weight, failed my job, lost all my friends, got into trouble with ours. I asked him to tell me why, to talk to me, and he did not respond to my text messages and letters. Time passed and I suffered. A very long healing process began and I regained my strength and will to live. But I was no longer the same and I hated myself. I had become cynical, coldly rude. I played with men, made them fall in love unconsciously, and then disappeared without even being touched. To this day, some of them call me. I had become a mercantile bitch and I liked it and it was cruel.
And in the evening I cried that I was like that without knowing how to stop. In the meantime, he was married and I decided to ruin his life. I was taking revenge on his wife for my own stupidity. At one point, when he fell in love with me and started talking about divorcing and proposing marriage to me, I ran away. but this incident gave me even more momentum to be damned. I left with a boy - a good, wonderful boy. With the idea of being the next one. I had found a great tactic, so that they dump me and save me the tearful performances. I cheat and confess to someone I'm sure he'll tell. so I did with this one. I took the beautiful beginning of the relationship, where everything is passion, laughter and romance, and when I felt attached to him, I cheated on him. He understood and did not let me go. I was stubborn to prove to him how disgusting I was and that he didn't need a man like me in life. what did i not do Including when we were outside I got drunk and had sex with his friend in the toilet of the restaurant. Everyone told him that I was just a lower K ****, and I was no different. His mother had told him that she would give up dating him if she continued with me. But he didn't give up on me. He protected me, tried to teach me, talked to me for hours about the way of life I led. He didn't even have sex with me then, he had become something of my mentor. Time passed and little by little, I don't know how I started to share with him, as if he were my older brother. and I kept telling him that we were breaking up, and he was telling me that he would never feel separated from me, even if I said it "officially" And really - I told everyone that we were no longer together, and he was behaving with me as if we have a relationship.
He became the object of ridicule, lost many of his friends because of me, quarreled with his mother ... He was my guardian angel. and little by little, all the love he gave me, all the kindness and understanding he offered me, broke me. We lived on a family basis and I got pregnant. At the discharge, he hugged our daughter and looked at her with that dull male smile that melts us women. There were tears in his eyes and he looked at me and said "Thank you!" Then something died in me forever and I just gave in to happiness. We are not together today because he went abroad and I could not go with him. And despite everything and even though I don't know if he will look for me when he comes home - I am faithful to him. I dedicated myself entirely to my child, to my work and to my happiness. But I realize that even if he doesn't come back to me, that even if he meets some new love there, I will always love him, in the most beautiful and quiet way he loves at all. Many men are looking for me, but I cut them - I don't need lustful caresses, I want and need only that smile of his, which tells me: Life is wonderful! I dedicated myself entirely to my child, to my work, and to my happiness. But I realize that even if he doesn't come back to me, that even if he meets some new love there, I will always love him, in the most beautiful and quiet way he loves at all. Many men are looking for me, but I cut them - I don't need lustful caresses, I want and need only that smile of his, which tells me: Life is wonderful! I dedicated myself entirely to my child, to my work, and to my happiness. But I realize that even if he doesn't come back to me, that even if he meets some new love there, I will always love him, in the most beautiful and quiet way he loves at all. Many men are looking for me, but I cut them - I don't need lustful caresses, I want and need only that smile of his, which tells me: Life is wonderful!
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A story like from a movie ... Sometimes your life is just like that. But the movie is two hours, you get up, go out or shut down the computer. And that's it. As long as this is your life, the way you made it through the choices you made. I hadn't read anything here in a long time that touched me like that. Admiration for the way you feel now!
Strange ... on the one hand I sympathize and sympathize with the author, on the other her vicious way of life and this so frank confession shocked me. One thing is for sure - the father of her child is really an angel, of the few who remain on earth. People like him deserve our sincere admiration and he gets mine. With a wish for calm and full of love, care, more children and happiness years, to the man you love, author!
It really touched me :) I'm glad you found your Love, your Angel. You have experienced a lot, but you have also learned a lot from the experience. I wish you more beautiful and happy moments together :)
"I had become a mercantile bitch and I liked it and it was cruel. And in the evening I cried that I was like that without knowing how to stop." Here something in me broke ... XII
To the author, Can you enlighten me in the secrets of how you managed to play with men and make them fall in love with you without memory? I really want to know, because I'm in a period of great stagnation - no man remembers me and doesn't care if I'm alive or dead, even though I'm at my best. I would like to receive some warmth and attention. And I am very happy for the good development of your relationship, I am sure that he will always love you with the child. I hope he shows it to you in the future.
Very beautiful, I cried ... it made me feel happy. :) Thank you! And good luck!
Very cool finale! :))
An interesting story, one of the most intriguing that I have met here ... Only in the end I did not understand what dictated the departure of the author's husband or more precisely her uncertainty that he would return to her, because they have a child, and his love never questioned? Or it's just theorizing, suggesting unexpected twists.
You really met your angel! And you should be happy about it! Because otherwise you would destroy yourself with this way of your life. From now on, I wish you a lot of love and a lot of happiness, and I hope you, he and your child come together again soon and be very happy!
Am I the only one who sees the story as follows: "A single mother who deludes herself that it's good for her." I don't want to be rude, but I think the author should be realistic and not blame herself for what she was , but just to learn a lesson ... it is important to attract this man back into his (father's) life, and if not, to find someone else to take care of her as well as she takes care of him. It is important to be objective and start clean. Not to cut everyone, because of all of them there may be someone who really cares. And I do not understand with quiet love, what support she receives with this silent love. Love like in a vacuum.
Yes - MAN is changing! Here is the best confirmation of the theory of life. And your little story shows how one can develop, and another - hardly !? Regards, M 44
Yes - It's wonderful !!
My story is similar. It's just that men know how to recognize the woman in their life, while for us it's harder. I was 18 when my first serious relationship happened. Two years. I did everything for him. I loved him madly. The maddening, pure, complete, only love. When he dumped me, I had the feeling that the world had collapsed. I got up and went to bed with him. Then his best friend told me I was ruining my life because of an illusion. And I decided that I was young, independent, beautiful and I could be alone. I did well, men are easily manipulated by instinct. I am ashamed of what I subjected them to in order to heal. I didn't sleep for anyone, I was alone and thought only of myself. He didn't make love to me, he even got upset with me as a man he started talking to me romantically. Then he came. We met, flirting and at the end of the month I played it. Yes, but he didn't. He moved to Sofia, found a place to work, so that we could be close. It rang for weeks, and I still couldn't hear my phone, I was busy, not having fun. He never pressed me. And at one point I felt good with him. No commitment. I flirted with others, I even fell in love. I told him. He didn't blame me, and I didn't see the pain in my eyes. He stayed. Close. We are together now, we have a child. I have no one closer than him. I pray that God will not separate us, because I love him madly. He is my harmonious, complete, great love. Thanks for recognizing me. Thanks for finding me when I got lost. I am not afraid and I do not regret anything, I go on my way, I experience my destiny. that I feel comfortable with it. No commitment. I flirted with others, I even fell in love. I told him. He didn't blame me, and I didn't see the pain in my eyes. He stayed. Close. We are together now, we have a child. I have no one closer than him. I pray that God will not separate us, because I love him madly. He is my harmonious, complete, great love. Thanks for recognizing me. Thanks for finding me when I got lost. I am not afraid and I do not regret anything, I go on my way, I experience my destiny. that I feel comfortable with it. No commitment. I flirted with others, I even fell in love. I told him. He didn't blame me, and I didn't see the pain in my eyes. He stayed. Close. We are together now, we have a child. I have no one closer than him. I pray that God will not separate us, because I love him madly. He is my harmonious, complete, great love. Thanks for recognizing me. Thanks for finding me when I got lost. I am not afraid and I do not regret anything, I go on my way, I experience my destiny.
You are the most beautiful girl in the world! I am glad to have the opportunity to know you, even if only in my great ideas! One big thanks!!! Libra
Let me tell you the story. A year or three or five passes, the initial emotion is exhausted and the lady has to "pay" the bill for the fact that the angel has endured her nonsense. If the purpose of the confession was to make us cry, it is obviously successfully fulfilled, as in a movie. apparently I am a cynic / without the part with the wiping of everyone I meet / and what I see is a woman with a weak character. Either she is brutally crushed or her soul is taken out with cotton, but she is always dependent on the man next to her.
How nice. But in the end, no matter what happens, you remain what his friends called you.
Eh, these so-called "friends", how many happy people have separated, how many successful relationships have failed. While we women listen to our heart in the first place, it is a pity that many men listen to their "friends". Maybe they don't have their own head and heart for that either. But practice has shown that many "friends" are as long as love can last a lifetime if it is mutual;)
I get angry when I read useless comments, and whether the qualifications in them are offensive and useful for the author and the readers - this is cut or allowed by the Administrators according to their 4 rules. It is a fact for me that I do not find sympathy for the author in comment 15 and I am even of the opposite opinion. And it is directly to the woman who wrote this article - many people here and in life will not understand You and You! But - don't listen to them, this is your life. So - come on and .... be happy! M 44
If this is true, how does this woman view the world? with what eyes? This is nonsense! Fiction!
And my girlfriend doubts that she will ever hurt me in a similar way. And she has experienced many infidelities of former friends and so on, and I treat her as if she were a goddess. She had a relationship for about 2 years, when her boyfriend left her in a very difficult time for her and replaced her with another, after that moment she has fleeting relationships. A two-month-old in which he quarrels with a boy and he avoids. Another two-month-old in which the other boy abandons her for another. One sex for one night (which is hard for me to accept), then he writes that he no longer believes in love and starts thinking like men. And once again with an unfortunate man on the 6th day of their acquaintance, who blackmails her to have sex with him, but she refuses, does not want to let her leave his home and so on and gives him a blowjob (then no longer looking for him), as well as the other, then met me, 20 days after these incidents. For 5 months I am absolutely sure that she did not cheat on me and did not hurt me. She claims that she would never cheat and hurt someone if he did not do it and wants me to trust her, to have her freedom (because I am quite jealous of the things she has experienced), I have even hinted several times that I know (I reviewed them from her Facebook), I hinted to her that she was rubbish, a light girl, etc. and she is terribly annoyed by this fact, sorry, but it's too late. I wonder if I have a future with her, the fact that I will meet Badzhans on the streets irritates me terribly, she was hurt and maybe now she believes in love again, she has feelings for me, but I don't know how long it will be like that. But I wouldn't do like your friend. I know she grew up without a father with her mother and older brother, that she suffered and was crushed everywhere by her friend who left her after these 2 years, but if she cheated on me, hurt me, I have evidence against her with which I will totally disguise her and the only option will be to kill myself or hide forever from everyone, I am able to do it, so I try to somehow break up with her while it's time, but she threatens me with suicide, I just don't know what to do anymore, to continue, I have feelings, I want the most in the end to feel good, but I will never trust her while I'm alive (if we're together), but there are no innocent girls left, I've dreamed of such a girl all my life. Otherwise she doesn't lie to me as I said, she is honest and open. She is 23 years old, as am I. I'm sexually number 9 (I know the names of everyone else, she is stupid and naive and she shared them with me during the time we are together) and she had 2-3 more for oral contacts, licking and so on. I find it hard to accept these things, even though 8 of them were boyfriends, the fact that she allowed herself to sleep with a boy for the night, and with the other on the 6th day to do these things to him, makes me retaliate at times when she thinks about this, there is simply no girl for me in this world who can appreciate me, look good, be honest, never cheat, be innocent, be good and so on :(