I feel like I don't know who I am. I wonder how some people are complete personalities, and I'm not. 2 years ago I was an angel who always strives to help people. Things were arranged in such a way that God always put me in such situations in which someone needs help and I appear. I practiced kickboxing and made my money honestly. I was firmly against alcohol. A year later I met a man and started drinking around him, many people started telling me that there was no point in helping others, that people were ungrateful. That I must be a swindler like the others, or I will starve to death. That only fools and naive people are not crooks. Little by little I began to abandon my principles. Without realizing it, I became a drunk. I started making money in a dishonest way through cunning schemes. I lost my honor and now I'm crying, I've lost myself. There is a mess in my head. I don't know who I am
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Calm down, nothing is lost, the important thing is that you realize that on the path you have taken, you are slowly sinking. For starters, I advise you to separate from this environment. You're used to them, you've screwed up your way of thinking - it won't be easy to distance yourself, but it will be worth it. Remember who you were, what you believed in ... Prove to yourself that you are better than what you become. Have faith that your destiny does not have to be like that and only you have the power to change it for the better. Look forward with optimism, no matter how much it comes to you from the moment. Know that anyone can stumble, the important thing is to tighten until it's too late. The sooner you stop 'thinking' and take action, the sooner your life will take a different direction. And for starters, I advise you to limit alcohol.
First you have to be honest with yourself - do you agree with this behavior, are you willing to change, do you want it, or do you like this current life after all? Answer these questions first. Now the answers are very clear - you still post the topic, looking for help. Yes, but I also posted a topic - in which I describe how bad I feel from my life, how there is no happiness in it, how it weighs on my conscience. And yet, it may not be perfect, but I find it good, it scares me. Maybe your honest answers to you will scare you too. If you still agree with your current life, it will not change, prepare to experience it and progress only in it. If you sincerely want change. Try this method. Everything should be fair, not maybe. Ask yourself the questions: Where am I now? Where do I want to be? What separates me from where I want to be? What should I do to be there? Upstairs - downstairs you understand what you need to do. Now divide it into steps. Leading there. Although I agree with your avers - but still I do not do dishonest things. Here's what I would change first: Apparently your avers and your man make you behave in a way you don't want to. "Then drop them first — it's better to be alone for a while, then find new ones." Use the skills you have to find an honest job and drive with the income from there. It's better to be lower, but not to feel bad from there. And who are you? Is a question requiring your answers? autobiography, where are you in society, what are your dreams,.