In fact, I don't even know why I'm writing, but I'll pour out my soul. This is a man who is in my mind 24 hours a day. We are from a small town, we all know each other. The man in question (then still a boy) and I knew each other, we stood at the same table, briefly and in the same company. I liked him as a man, but nothing more. Then at the age of 24 (I was 18) he went to work abroad. From time to time there was news about him that he was well established, made money and had no intention of returning to Bulgaria. I don't know why I thought about him many times, I dreamed that we are in love and we love each other, when I woke up it was strange. It's been 8 years, and I've been thinking about him more and more often, and I really wanted to see him. One night I went out with my friends to the only disco we had then. Shortly before we left, I went to the bathroom. Opening the door ... . I push him ... the man I kept thinking about. He stared at me, I at him ... 5sec pause .. a wide and sincere smile on his face .. "wow is that you, you have become a real woman, a beauty". I ... I can't describe the feeling, some supreme happiness, warmth, protection ... I saw everything in this man, he had become even more beautiful, masculine ... We hugged somehow by inertia, because we are never super close, that even to embrace. He pulled me by the arm in a corner away from the noise and the crowd and we started talking about each other - how are you, where are you, do you work, children and other things. I was ashamed to look at him and talk, I don't know what happened to me. He asked for my number and said he would call me tomorrow to see you and talk. I couldn't believe it that only a few days ago I did not stop thinking about this man, at least I hoped that I would see him again someday, and what happened tonight ... I barely slept at night, my phone rang early in the morning - he- " come on jump out of bed I'll take you for coffee "God, it wasn't a dream, I think. However, at that time I was a student in the neighboring town and I had to go there. I told him to leave him for another day, but he wanted to see me and take me to another city. We left, we reached my apartment, I lived there with 4 other girls.
We decided not to go for coffee, but to drink in the apartment. We drank coffee and talked about things together, because my roommates were there too. He stagnated a lot, we started fooling around tonight to do a disco and so on. I'm happy that there is a chance to stay, I told him that having rooms is not a problem and drinking to stay here. I told him if he was tired he should rest on the other side. He lay down, I was doing some of my things, I went into the room to get something and he said in a kind and quiet tone to me "sit with me for a while, I couldn't be happy with so many people, let's talk". I sit by the bed and stare into my arms in shame. He lifts my chin and asks "tell me now what is happening to you, in detail" .... I do not reveal at all that I have any sympathy, that I have thought about him ... I will never forget his warm look and the words that said "do you know how many times I think of you, how I imagined that when I came back I would see you, I just prayed you were free. I liked you a lot before you left, but you were with someone else."
He stroked my cheek, smiled, and turned, and I left the room and my eyes filled. I fell in love ... right now, I tell myself how it's possible ... I didn't stop thinking about him, he thought about me, is it magic, is it the power of the subconscious, is it a coincidence ... what is it. I was like hypnotized, like a dream, like déjà vu ... We went out to a disco in the evening, he, me, one of my roommates and his friend came. I drop something on the ground and bend down to pick it up as I stand up, as if waiting for me to stand up and kiss me ... very tenderly, like a man in love. However, I do not reveal my feelings with anything. I don't know why, I was just waiting, or fear ... I don't know. We went home, went to bed in a twin room. We are both silent, and I am dying to hug him, to feel him. After a while he yells at me "it's not going to happen, come hug me, I'm not going to touch you (in the other sense) I just want to caress your hair, that long black hair of yours, then he sent me and at the door he just squeezed me, so hard, when he let go he looked at me and his eyes cried, but like a strong man he just shook me by the shoulders, told me not to cry, kissed me hotly and in an instant turned and he left ... I stayed like that for maybe an hour and I didn't stop crying. So much sadness, I had never felt ... For two days I did not get out of bed, I just roared and roared, my roommates saw each other in a child. When he arrived that evening, he called me. I cried and said it was very hard for me. And it was hard for him ...
To be continued ... For two days I did not get out of bed, I just roared and roared, my roommates saw each other. When he arrived that evening, he called me. I cried and said it was very hard for me. And it was hard for him ... To be continued ... For two days I did not get out of bed, I just roared and roared, my roommates saw each other. When he arrived that evening, he called me. I cried and said it was very hard for me. And it was hard for him ...
To be continued ..
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Thanks for sharing this, I liked it. Very nice story! For the first time I read such a long post, with bated breath. In a way, it reminds me of my story. http://spodeli.net/4/story-48790.html I think the first comment (of Ray) applies to both of you. Be happy!
Oh, I won't give you advice, and you didn't ask. I'll just tell you that I was very moved by the story and I'm looking forward to the sequel. I wish you success and much happiness!
I have read and I am inclined to say that it is true that if you want something very much and imagine it purely visual, how it happens in your mind and before you fall asleep, then in time it comes true! The basic concept was that if you experience negative emotions and fantasies, you will attract something negative and vice versa! They called it the "Law of Attraction"!
Great story! A little melodramatic, but otherwise very real and human. I am keeping my fingers crossed that the "madness" and the melodramas will pass you by faster and that everything will grow into a great partnership, and that the good attitude and longing will be preserved for many years. This is how things should be done - from afar, gradually, as if it were a predestination ...
If your story is true: WELL DONE! You have managed to manifest your desire with the power of thought. It's just a law that has worked for centuries. There are simply few who manage to achieve things CONSCIOUSLY like you. As long as you write, you haven't stopped thinking for 8 years, which is not a small amount, but this is called PATIENCE. That is, you are sure and you know that your wish will come true. What you wrote that you imagined you were with is called VISUALIZATION. I'm curious during this period of 8 years, haven't you been with other men in intimate relationships?
You were just meant to be together, no subconscious ... just fate
Your story gave me hope. It made me hope. My situation is similar to yours in the beginning. I like him a lot, but I doubt he feels the same way. Whenever we find ourselves somewhere, he looks at me, only me, for a long time, I'm ashamed. I may not be indifferent to him, but it is unlikely that anything will happen. Your story gave me a little hope, made me believe in the power of the subconscious. You have no idea how much I want him to tell me, as happened with you, that he doesn't stop thinking about me. Your man has gone far, and mine is still here. Which I don't know if it's good or bad. Yes, it's nice to see him every day at school and to enjoy his eyes looking at me, but the bad thing is that it hurts me to look at him and I can't do anything, and I want to hug him so much . Maybe it's not so scary to go and hug him, but I am afraid. What am I afraid of? From rejection. How can I be sure that he will embrace me when he can reject me? Still, awaken a little hope in me, for which I thank you. I look forward to the sequel, a really wonderful story. May you come together and be happy. You deserve it.
Nice story with a good ending! We will understand him after the sequel! Libra
You had a unique experience at that moment, I needed such a story so much and thank you for sharing it. I sincerely wish you to keep the feelings between you and to be very happy.
Wait for the sequel, I have already written it, then you will have a different opinion and you will most likely judge and attack me, but ... read, there are answers to questions that someone asked above.
And I am convinced that there is something ... there are no coincidences. It happened to me too. So there was a boy I liked for 1 year, I was not in love with him, but I was very attracted to him. All I could see was that he was glancing at me, once in an hour he wanted to take my notebook to see if I would notice ... but then I didn't do anything, I just turned to the other side and then we hardly talked. This was at the beginning of the school year .. at the same time I wrote to him at the same time, but we only wrote some general things for 5 minutes. With this I want to explain that it seemed that things would not work out .. I saw him he teased with other girls, we didn't pay attention ... just to catch him staring at me sometimes, but I thought I was imagining. At one time I just couldn't stand just standing and looking at him without being able to hug him, to touch him. I was jealous of him too ... I was just sick because I was trying to forget him and I couldn't. I've had unshared feelings before and I just didn't want the story to happen again. One night at 1 and something I was watching something on FB before going to bed ... and I came across a photo where it was marked. He was with a company I had been with before. That is, we had common acquaintances. And I had an idea ... to try to get closer to them and get into one company, because I'm in 1st grade with him, he moved to the second year since I was in class, they set him up against me somewhat, because they don't like me very much. And those with whom he was in the picture at least didn't hate me and so I decided that if I join this company, there will be no one to set it against me and I will be able to do something ... I decided to try when the summer vacation starts, because these came out mostly then .. they were out every day and I thought he would be with them. The end of the school year was coming. Then my friends started telling me that he was staring at me. It turned out that I obviously did not imagine and I was even more motivated to carry out the plan. He finished school and the problems started, things were not exactly as I imagined. Neither he nor these were in the usual place, I had not seen him for 2 weeks. One because I didn't find him, but I often go out, and the second because I was at sea with a friend / we were at camp /. I went home and somehow we met, we greeted each other. But things still did not go as planned. He didn't go out with them so much, but some others I almost didn't know. Only on the face. I didn't know what to do, but I wanted to be with him. I thought about him all the time, and when I saw him he just said "hello" I wanted to pounce on him in front of everyone. At the end of the summer, I noticed that his friends were looking at me strangely, he had obviously told them something about me. I didn't know what was going on. Just to add that I had written to him in the summer around August 15, we wrote each other 20 minutes of common things and he went to bed. By August 20, I was, as always, in a place where I knew he was coming out and waiting to be given the opportunity to speak. I was just about to leave when I heard someone ask me "why are you passing me", laughing. It was him. With his friends. I gathered some courage and went to them, we talked. I couldn't believe it was happening for him to talk to me ??? We talked a little and went home. A few days later I went to sea with my parents in Greece. On the first night, my life collapsed from something I learned from ASC. фм. Some time ago I asked a friend of his anonymously about him, now I decided to ask him again. His friend said, "Well, reveal yourself to him, because he's going to study in a city farther from our hometown" ... I prayed it was a joke. I thought it was a joke, but it was confirmed to me that it was not. How was it possible, everything happened suddenly. There was no indication before that he would go to study elsewhere. I just didn't know where I was. That meant I wouldn't see him, and I already thought there was heat ... which one species was crushed because of the other school. I started crying out loud, good thing I was in a separate room from ours. I just couldn't calm down .. I wanted him so much, and he had a chance to go far away from me, I would hardly see him .. His friend told me not to write to him anonymously, but on Facebook. I wrote to his friend, he understood me, we talked a little about that boy. I cried all night, I didn't know what to do. Who did not ask. Yes, he really would go to study elsewhere. I was constantly imagining how he was going to study elsewhere, then on FB I saw that he was engaged, I saw pictures of him with girls .. I went crazy, I didn't know what to do .. I was dying of grief .. He had a 5 percent chance to stay, but for me it was like 0 percent. I thought, I thought and finally I decided to admit my feelings to him. I didn't have time to waste, I was in Greece, and when I came home ... he could have already left, so I decided to see him online when I saw him online. I went to bed crying ... the other days I was sick, I didn't want anything ... I cried CONSTANTLY, my parents noticed that I had something, but I didn't tell them what was happening. I couldn't help myself and even shed tears on the street .. I didn't care who was watching me .. I wasn't on my own .. And he was still not on Facebook, I was wasting time. No one could calm me down ... just the last night of my vacation he came online. I wrote to him, he was a little cold, but that didn't stop me. I had planned exactly what to tell him, I did everything according to plan. First I hinted to him that I liked him, telling him that I would miss him if he went to study elsewhere, I had asked him before if what was true about school ... he said it was true. In the end, I mustered up a lot of courage and just wrote to him that I liked him. I shivered ... then I got a terrible shock - he had known for a long time? !!!! I asked him how, and he said that some of his friends had told him, and I knew one of them. And I immediately remembered that these guys knew from some of my friends. I freaked out. But the worst was just coming ... he said it wouldn't work, that he knew I was sick, but it just wouldn't work. I died on the spot ... he cut me off. Then he went to bed. I wanted not to be alive, I stood in one place for half an hour, I didn't move ... I stayed up almost all night, and we had to leave early in the morning ... I couldn't sleep like people. A few days later I was like a ghost. I wondered why .. there was hope, he showed me in some way that he liked me, and then "it won't work" .. I prayed that he would at least really go to study elsewhere, that if I saw him, because we are in the same class. I was going to calm down .. I started to calm down a bit, I was constantly adding some guys to Facebook, they were adding me, I was writing to them, somehow I wanted to fill the gap ... I was dating other guys too. I was dating friends .. but I just wasn't like before .. like something in me died .. To my surprise - one day I saw him in the city, he had obviously not left, which was strange because they had told me that the last week of vacation should already be at the other school ... I thought maybe later. At one point I was angry and wanted to give it back to him. I was thinking of finding a boy, pretending to be my boyfriend and he would see me with "my boyfriend" .. for some reason it still didn't work .. with a few guys I tried this plan, but things kept fucking and we didn't go out .. I thought that this is a stupid joke of fate .. again. I had made a similar plan before, not to him, but to another boy, and I wondered why it didn't work out then. It's as if God didn't give me ... but why? And here is the unexpected turn of fate - HE wrote to me one evening, on September 14. I couldn't believe it, he asked me "are you here", I told him "yes" .. he started explaining to me that he wanted something from me that he wasn't sure I would want. I asked him what he wanted ... he started to explain to me, that I was very attracted to him and the like .. he wrote me a few and then offered me to have sex. I couldn't believe what I saw and I asked him if he was drunk .. he told me that he drank very little, but it didn't matter .. I was dying to accept his offer, because it aroused me terribly and sometimes when I saw it I I was coming to rape him; dd .. but I said I would think .. We started school, he was still in my class .. I couldn't believe what happened .. he wanted to be with me somehow, although before that he cut me off so brutally .. then he wrote to me a few more times, we glance at each other, on a trip he made some hints to me .. but I can clearly see that he is worried about something. He always writes to me when he is drinking, we just stare in person, and in the chats he tells me that he will come to talk to me about it at school / I wanted to do that / .. but I'm afraid to talk to him about it, and obviously him ... we just look at each other .. well, then maybe we'll gather courage .. but the most important thing is that from all the work I realized that there is nothing accidental .. He only gathered the courage to write to me even drunk, because I admitted to him that I like him .. he told me himself. And if it wasn't for the other city ... I wouldn't have the courage to admit it. And everything seemed hopeless. It's just that obviously some things are standing in space and waiting for the right moment to happen. I agree to be with him only for sex, and without that I understood what it is and if we had a relationship, we would not like each other. Better just for sex. You guessed it, I'm not unhappy anymore, but I feel better than ever :)) in the future we may gather courage .. but the most important thing is that I understood from the whole thing that there is nothing accidental .. He only gathered the courage to write to me even drunk, because I admitted to him that I like him .. he he told me himself. And if it wasn't for the other city ... I wouldn't have the courage to admit it. And everything seemed hopeless. It's just that obviously some things are standing in space and waiting for the right moment to happen. I agree to be with him only for sex, and without that I understood what it is and if we had a relationship, we would not like each other. Better just for sex. You guessed it, I'm not unhappy anymore, but I feel better than ever :)) in the future we may gather courage .. but the most important thing is that I understood from the whole thing that there is nothing accidental .. He only gathered the courage to write to me even drunk, because I admitted to him that I like him .. he he told me himself. And if it wasn't for the other city ... I wouldn't have the courage to admit it. And everything seemed hopeless. It's just that obviously some things are standing in space and waiting for the right moment to happen. I agree to be with him only for sex, and without that I understood what it is and if we had a relationship, we would not like each other. Better just for sex. You guessed it, I'm not unhappy anymore, but I feel better than ever :)) And if it wasn't for the other city ... I wouldn't have the courage to admit it. And everything seemed hopeless. It's just that obviously some things are standing in space and waiting for the right moment to happen. I agree to be with him only for sex, and without that I understood what it is and if we had a relationship, we would not like each other. Better just for sex. You guessed it, I'm not unhappy anymore, but I feel better than ever :)) And if it wasn't for the other city ... I wouldn't have the courage to admit it. And everything seemed hopeless. It's just that obviously some things are standing in space and waiting for the right moment to happen. I agree to be with him only for sex, and without that I understood what it is and if we had a relationship, we would not like each other. Better just for sex. You guessed it, I'm not unhappy anymore, but I feel better than ever :))
Where is the continuation of the story?
And'? Did a babe hit you? ;)
It's here! Believe in love and you will survive !!! She is waiting for you with open arms. Objective