To be completely honest with you without EWN-Feels I would not move a finger to write here. But apparently my destiny sent me a Skype link to the video and when it was released and I heard the first sound, I started to feel feelings that are difficult for me to describe, I miss something, I want something, I think about something but I don't know what exactly. I see some pale shots in front of my face but they are not clear! And then I remembered while I was at school he showed me a picture I didn't like but I had fun and what Should change come or just accept that in this situation I will look like that again but it will be fun? The music stopped and everything in my head disappeared now it started and everything re-enters my body and aww it's weird! I know I want to be someone but who? We have to make our own personality and a path to follow for the latter, I'm not sure. Life wants to surprise us so that it is not boring and obvious. It sounds easy for a person to build a personality that he wants to be but not! And now, perhaps for the first time, you will get an explanation of why it is difficult but sounds easy! To follow the principles of being honest and sitting in the ways you like yourself is difficult because you are not used to it! Do you have other habits, when something happens you will return to them, for example I bite my nails from a very young age, I managed to stop, however, when I go to bed and there is nothing to do, I start biting them !!!! Disgusting nails in bed or on the toes but I stopped for months and then the brain if it does not get the result for, who fought tells you and? will we bite them now is there a difference? Come on just one what so? Weak psyche some will say but I do not agree mine is healthy and I have tested it in many situations the problem is different when you do not see the point of stopping, when you do not get the result you expect, when you know they will grow again before you go on the outside. When you have read and fought with all your might and finally you see someone with better success than yours and you effortlessly say to yourself that you are not worth it !!! because if he starts doing what you do every day regularly, he will beat you !!! and this drives you crazy even in life the efforts are in vain if someone just has it in them people choose him not you ... why the hell will life give him such a simple thing and not you? what did it take him to get it ready? and this, what he lost in life for you was significant but the other quality you fought for him fixes his life! and he takes it from you: @ he takes it from you and you wonder what to do with it? To kill him, to let him continue to try, and he, with one swipe of his hand and a little effort, makes you fluff and dust, you thought before that you have no equal because you gave your best, you slept with loved ones from sleep from vacation and finally you expect to be number 1 but you don't even have an idea what the other can do to you makes you fluff and dust and your 11 years you can throw them across the balcony equal to yourself. Just a day comes into your circle and takes everything from you! from this loss you have received you are looking for a logical explanation but you do not find it yet. when you hear well I don't practice regularly and you get sick: @you think of some id * t, which for these years is obviously not worth it, you train even more to faint and again it makes you fluffy and dusty even without making it a little difficult the first time. You watch him move, what he does, you teach him the strategy 100% and he defeats you again and then you say goodbye! it was me being a tragedy and the years and the desire go away hellishly fast not because you are weak in spirit but because you no longer know what to do to change the outcome you find yourself in every time you face it. You are so tired of doing what he wants with you, you even want to put an end to all your dreams and indulge in something ordinary and turn your back on your past! You watch him move, what he does, you teach him the strategy 100% and he defeats you again and then you say goodbye! it was me being a tragedy and the years and the desire go away hellishly fast not because you are weak in spirit but because you no longer know what to do to change the outcome you find yourself in every time you face it. You are so tired of doing what he wants with you, you even want to put an end to all your dreams and indulge in something ordinary and turn your back on your past! You watch him move, what he does, you teach him the strategy 100% and he defeats you again and then you say goodbye! it was me being a tragedy and the years and the desire go away hellishly fast not because you are weak in spirit but because you no longer know what to do to change the outcome you find yourself in every time you face it. You like to do whatever he wants with you, you even want to put an end to all your dreams and indulge in something ordinary and turn your back on your past!
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"If you live to prove yourself, in order to be liked by many people, you risk losing yourself. Because if the applause makes you happy, then your happiness no longer depends on you, it is in the hands of the audience!"
The question here is not whether you lose yourself, but that someone comes and makes you laugh for the reason that he does completely different things all day and on the other side stands a man who is the meaning of his life and in the end loses it is awful ...
First - the goal does not justify the means! This is not a goal worth giving your whole life to! Think about it ... aren't there more important and valuable things than what you do? !? Second, isn't part of his success due to you? You helped him grow faster than you. You will always be the first to go this way without being led. Third - envy is a strong motivation, but it is destructive! Why don't you try to do like him for a while? Spend more time on things you enjoy that you haven't done before and that you don't feel obligated to do. Give yourself some rest instead of straining to train even harder. Even the most useful thing becomes harmful when you overdo it. Diligence is a good thing, but overdoing it almost always hurts. Instead of reaping the benefits of the effort, at some point you begin to destroy what has already been built. And who really cares if you're number one? Except for you? Something you enjoyed doing, you've already made it a stressful task! He still has fun and enjoys ... and wins! :)
To number 5: What I do for me is the most important thing in this world! This is my weakness and no matter how much I stop doing it for some time interval after 2-3 months I start again and with more desire! I overdo it but I want to be the best when someone stands in front of me to know that I will not fall and I will be able to do with it whatever I want! But no one comes and makes my life black: @ It defeats me in my world ... which ruins me, I try to be calm all the time and nothing helps, I am powerless!
I am number 2, number 3 and number 5: We are alone, there are no others. You see, no one cares about your drama. They are happy for you while you are on top, you accept some congratulations, attention and ... then you are alone again with your torments. If this is the only thing that makes you feel important, and in general, to feel someone - very unfortunate for you! This is the cycle of life and it is inevitable. You can put in even more effort and put it off for a while longer, but then you will inevitably get to that situation again and it will be even harder for you because you will have invested a lot more of your time, you will have endured a lot more deprivation ... If you weren't so selfish and self-pitying, it might have struck you that I know things you didn't write here. You are transparent! Ever since its title transparent! Stop being transparent! It is disgusting and unfortunate to envy someone that he has achieved what you want. You may not show it, but he certainly feels it and is hardly pleased. You take away some of the joy of success. You hurt him, he just shows what he can do. And what if he hadn't shown up and shown you that there were better people than you? You would live with the illusion that you were the best. Now the illusion collides with reality and you cannot accept it. I don't think I'll answer you here anymore, but if you read carefully, you'll know how to find me to talk to. And without that, almost 10 years have passed, after which we promised ourselves to talk about some things again. :) From the first comment I wanted to hint that I know you, but the bad moderators;) probably decided that my kind address to you is offensive and did not publish this comment. :))) what you want. You may not show it, but he certainly feels it and is hardly pleased. You take away some of the joy of success. You hurt him, he just shows what he can do. And what if he hadn't shown up and shown you that there were better people than you? You would live with the illusion that you were the best. Now the illusion collides with reality and you cannot accept it. I don't think I'll answer you here anymore, but if you read carefully, you'll know how to find me to talk to. And without that, almost 10 years have passed, after which we promised ourselves to talk about some things again. :) From the first comment I wanted to hint that I know you, but the bad moderators;) probably decided that my kind address to you is offensive and did not publish this comment. :))) what you want. You may not show it, but he certainly feels it and is hardly pleased. You take away some of the joy of success. You hurt him, he just shows what he can do. And what if he hadn't shown up and shown you that there were better people than you? You would live with the illusion that you were the best. Now the illusion collides with reality and you cannot accept it. I don't think I'll answer you here anymore, but if you read carefully, you'll know how to find me to talk to. And without that, almost 10 years have passed, after which we promised ourselves to talk about some things again. :) From the first comment I wanted to hint that I know you, but the bad moderators;) probably decided that my kind address to you is offensive and did not publish this comment. :))) You take away some of the joy of success. You hurt him, he just shows what he can do. And what if he hadn't shown up and shown you that there were better people than you? You would live with the illusion that you were the best. Now the illusion collides with reality and you cannot accept it. I don't think I'll answer you here anymore, but if you read carefully, you'll know how to find me to talk to. And without that, almost 10 years have passed, after which we promised ourselves to talk about some things again. :) From the first comment I wanted to hint that I know you, but the bad moderators;) probably decided that my kind address to you is offensive and did not publish this comment. :))) You take away some of the joy of success. You hurt him, he just shows what he can do. And what if he hadn't shown up and shown you that there were better people than you? You would live with the illusion that you were the best. Now the illusion collides with reality and you cannot accept it. I don't think I'll answer you here anymore, but if you read carefully, you'll know how to find me to talk to. And without that, almost 10 years have passed, after which we promised ourselves to talk about some things again. :) From the first comment I wanted to hint that I know you, but the bad moderators;) probably decided that my kind address to you is offensive and did not publish this comment. :))) that there are better than you? You would live with the illusion that you were the best. Now the illusion collides with reality and you cannot accept it. I don't think I'll answer you here anymore, but if you read carefully, you'll know how to find me to talk to. And without that, almost 10 years have passed, after which we promised ourselves to talk about some things again. :) From the first comment I wanted to hint that I know you, but the bad moderators;) probably decided that my kind address to you is offensive and did not publish this comment. :))) that there are better than you? You would live with the illusion that you were the best. Now the illusion collides with reality and you cannot accept it. I don't think I'll answer you here anymore, but if you read carefully, you'll know how to find me to talk to. And without that, almost 10 years have passed, after which we promised to talk about some things again. :) From the first comment I wanted to hint that I know you, but the bad moderators;) probably decided that my kind address to you is offensive and did not publish this comment. :))) that I know you, but the bad moderators;) probably decided that my kind address to you is offensive and did not publish this comment. :))) that I know you, but the bad moderators;) probably decided that my kind address to you is offensive and did not publish this comment. :)))
You're obviously confusing me with someone else. I have no such promise with anyone and I do not envy, I am angry because you gain experience, you try to become the best, only you make efforts and desire and in the end you fall. I don't care that there is a talent or a gift from God's hand or whatever it is, they can't beat me in this way when I give 100% and give even a little more of myself. I go to bed with the idea that when I wake up I will keep trying until I achieve success, which I aim for no matter that my hope of victory is so far away because fate plays with us .........