Hello. I've been writing for a few days and I'm stopping somewhere, or I'm sad or I'm thinking that no one will understand me. I am lonely. Fuck ... I'll explain the situation I'm in as briefly and clearly as possible. I hope you can help me. I'm an injured 20-year-old girl. 3 images stand behind me and try to manipulate me - these are my father, ex and my love. I have been a different person for 1 year. One year ago, my father and I always had a good relationship. And normally, I was a dream daughter. I don't go to discos, I prefer books. Full excellent in school and even in 1 semester from the university. The former ... We were together for 3 years. He pampered me with everything, pampered me. However, she did not want to sleep with me (because I was a virgin). He didn't want to hurt me. Painful people, a lot of pain. For 3 years he failed to sleep with me, and not because I was pulling at him, he just couldn't. It was the former who led me into a darker world. The world of drugs. With conviction, if it's bad for you, will I give it to you, kitten? And I have been at the bottom for 1 year now. For one thing I can thank him that he is always and will be by my side. And most importantly, he introduced me to my true love. They were friends, the three of us were together every day. Shaking all day and all night. But I fell in love. I felt a shiver. And so the former became the former. My true love, I'm a little sorry that it was the drugs that brought us together.
I did and continue to do everything for him. Love it. My father doesn't like my true love, he doesn't like my ex anymore. He found out about the drugs. Also, normally from 70 kg in 2 months, I lost 20. I used it every day. I haven't gone to bed in 7 days. My father keeps threatening to beat my love. And he is really capable of regret. The ex keeps calling me and trying to make me love him. In my most difficult moments, he is always the person who tries to help me. But my feelings for him will never be love. My love, oh my love. Wait and wait for me to go. I struggle with my teeth and nails to get better.
Getting rid of drugs, I realize it's our problem. I work. I give everything I have for him. Your last bite. I'm trying to cope. And on the other hand, I get insults like garbage, squirrels, simple, slow, dead dogs. We are crushing. He tramples me. I understand. BUT why when he smiles at me and tells me that he loves me all the anger disappears? I'm afraid to go. I have nowhere to go. I have no one. Except for those three characters who claim to love me. In fact, 3 hurt me, manipulate me, and make me feel sad. They make me feel like garbage. Give me some advice, please. What can I do to make myself feel better? 132
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Psychologist..
We have more or less similar stories. Me too. You say end to everything and run. That's how I saved myself. My ex said the exact same words to me when he gave me this garbage. It is difficult, but not impossible. You know what it's about, well, I don't need to explain, but sooner or later you'll stop working, you'll be overwhelmed. When there are 2 addicts, it is almost impossible to recover. Give yourself time. Get away and go somewhere where you think you will feel at peace. I guess you only shake stimulants. Depression awaits you, but after 6 months the serotonin should return. Explain that you need to be alone with your mind, all three. How much time do you need. Then you can go back and talk to everyone individually. Drugs are never the answer. I was in the same movie with great love, we were on the heavier artillery. You need to think to clear your mind without these people bothering you. I wish you success, write if there is any development. I know how hard it is, you're not alone.
Your father doesn't manipulate you at all, but he wants to get you out of this mess you are in and you will most likely end up on the streets with children you can't raise because everything goes for drugs. These bastards who deal with this run very far. Watch a little more educational shows. Read books a little about how love is evoked and how it evaporates.
Your great "love" lies to you that he loves you, your ex is out of order mentally and emotionally, no matter how much he cares about you, he does more harm than good. Your father is the only one who cares about you, but he feels powerless and doesn't know what to do. The only way out is to dump the people you are connected to through drugs. You will find another love, and with the thrill only the small and inexperienced like you point it out as something incredibly important. You will not pass the thrill, precisely because your "love" does not love you and you feel it. The thrill you have is caused by the desire to change it, which will not happen. Get rid of addicts and fix your own life. Don't be ashamed to ask your family for help, but not to feed the addiction. Tell your father that you need support, not to be aggressive towards this and that.
You stop contact with drug addicts. You are heading to "Reto" - read on the Internet. With a lot of love they help drug addicts.