People, I have a cruel problem that will ruin me and not just me. I hate the people I live with (my mother and her husband), but I hate them in the fullest sense of the word. I had a difficult childhood thanks to them, now I'm 19 I long to disappear and never see them again. I had to start from the fact that they are wealthy people with contacts, materially there is no better place - I do not get anything from it, but they could at least help me find a job. Instead, all my life I am humiliated in front of people (relatives and friends), they say publicly what kind of garbage I am and how nothing will happen to me and so on for years ... over 10 years. I'm not that kind of person, I don't think I'm stupid, I think I'll succeed, but my biggest problem is that I HATE them from the bottom of my heart. I want to one day have enough power and money to see them on the street, like dogs as they really are.
I want revenge, they broke my psyche, my childhood, I live next to luxury, but I never touch it, I only get words about how untalented I am and what rubbish I am (publicly). I want to ruin them - I don't want to be this "garbage", I want to have the money, go back and bring it to the street and die there. I hate them terribly, they are terrible manipulators, they convinced me for years that I was making it up and that they had nothing against me until some things happened that confirmed my theory. Rich people, with money, opportunities, and connections,
I don't have 20 euros in my pocket - they keep pushing me, but I will crush them, I will level them to the ground. Please just point me in - is there a way to overcome the hatred, I realize how bad it is, but I REALLY think so, I just hate them I want to show them how insignificant they are and who the real garbage is. I don't want to hate, but I can't - have there been people in my position? I still live with them for certain reasons (I have things to keep them with) otherwise they would have removed me a long time ago. I want to get rid of hatred, but I don't see how one can treat one's own child the way they treat me. Thank you in advance!
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Dear child. you are actually in a difficult situation. Don't wait for someone to lend you a hand or find you a job. Do it yourself. One feels the greatest satisfaction from the things one has fought for. From the things he has achieved alone.
1 Start doing something that will lead you to success. Diligently. Some sport. Prove yourself. You need self-confidence and self-confidence.
2. Start learning something new. To progress and develop. The success of what has been achieved gives self-confidence. Then the attitude towards you will change.
3. The next step will be to gain financial independence. To start work.
4. Get out. You have to be away from the people who cause hatred in you. But remember. Other people will appear in your life that will irritate you.
You have to work to eradicate hatred from yourself because it will always pull you back in life and prevent you from realizing yourself. For this to happen after you go through steps 1-4 you will have to start working on yourself. With a psychologist or mentor. Martial arts, meditation, yoga. You need to choose your path to get rid of hatred. You are in a deep pit and you have to get out on your own. It's all in your hands: "Two frogs fell into a pit. One was a little deaf. They started scratching and jumping to get out. The pit was deep and they couldn't. They scratched and scratched. The other frogs watching them from above shouted: there is no point in giving up, it is very deep, you will not go out. The one who heard them stopped and soon died.
take matters into your own hands and first prove to yourself and your mother and husband that you are not rubbish. it's easier to spend someone's money, it's harder to make your own. if you can overcome your hatred and become something even in time you will be grateful to them. I know children of wealthy parents who have become alcoholics and drug addicts or gossip all day in gambling halls. you prove to everyone that you are not rubbish waiting for someone else to endure it, find your job. good luck because it's easy to hate and complain
As I read, you just get angry and you are angry that mom and dad do not drop thick bundles in your direction. Sit on your ass and start earning money yourself, don't deal with them. bile
I'm sure you don't hate them with all your heart. I guess that's how you feel! You are not small, can't you set aside a few thousand levs and leave? having money and being trampled on is not a better life to have BGN 500 per month and to live in peace than to bathe in money and still be able to use it. Don't waste your best years that in 10 years you will regret it! Upseh!
Thanks for the comments so far, a few clarifications. I do not say this in order to complain, but in order to eradicate hatred, because I know it is bad and wrong. I have no one to turn to, that's why I do it anonymously - I don't want to hate them, but I eat myself from the inside. Number 5, I can't set aside money because I'm looking for a job, I'll find one, of course, but at least they could help me with that. I'm studying - I'm at university, I did it myself, without money for lessons, without anything - not like all my friends, who, although their poorer parents threw money at them for lessons, etc., I managed on my own. and I didn't do badly - I got too good grades at the prom last year (one was excellent). I'm angry that they accuse me of not working, and they themselves are in a position where they could help me if they wanted to, at least to find a job, but they trample me again and again. I have a "business", although it's hard to call it that because it doesn't make big profits yet, but I'm trying to do something anyway. The purpose of my post was not to complain about a difficult childhood, but I want you to tell me how to overcome the hatred I feel. I have a sister - it's different with her - she studies in special schools, which cost a lot of money, what not, literally thousands of levs are thrown at her, I finished my state education, without lessons and without anyone's support, and I succeeded again. But I do not want to feel hatred and especially the thirst for revenge, this was the basis of the topic, because I see that you are mistaken. The author and I want you to tell me how to overcome the hatred I feel. I have a sister - it's different with her - she studies in special schools, which cost a lot of money, what not, literally thousands of levs are thrown at her, I finished my state education, without lessons and without anyone's support, and I succeeded again. But I do not want to feel hatred and especially the thirst for revenge, this was the basis of the topic, because I see that you are mistaken. The author and I want you to tell me how to overcome the hatred I feel. I have a sister - it's different with her - she studies in special schools, which cost a lot of money, what not, literally thousands of levs are thrown at her, I finished my state education, without lessons and without anyone's support, and I succeeded again. But I do not want to feel hatred and especially the thirst for revenge, this was the basis of the topic, because I see that you are mistaken. The author
Knowing money will ruin you. I hate them for not having them. I only use them for fun but I don't work for them! Others work for them. and NEVER sell for money. I have never worked for money in my life and I will not work for money!
Change can happen slowly and gradually. One of your goals should be to separate from them, so your hatred will decrease, over time they may become more interested in you and realize that they love you. But things happen slowly, think about how to separate from them, not depend on them financially and live elsewhere. The other will come by itself. If necessary, enter the barracks.
Number 7, not that something .. But if you don't work for money, then what do you work for? For honor and glory?