Hello everyone :) F, 39 years old. I've been reading this site for a few days - I came across it by chance and decided that I could share it here. I do not expect anyone to solve my problems, but it would not be bad for at least one to find something useful for themselves from my experience. I had a 2-year relationship as a student with a boy we fell in love with, I waited for him to resign (another year and a half) and then we broke up. He got married, I got married. I had no children from my marriage. I don't know why - according to the doctors there was no reason, but it never happened. After 7 years of marriage came my decision to divorce. The dissimilarity in the characters, his strange decisions and prohibitions ... we didn't fight, we didn't cheat on each other, but it didn't happen. My parents completely denied my decision, but bowed their heads. A year later I met that student love. And he is divorced. With the difference that he has a child. We started seeing each other over coffee, etc. and ... we lived together. We shared how we thought about each other over the years. Nice feeling. Wonderful. I did not understand how 3 years passed. During this period, he did not want another child, and I dreamed of that. I was tormented, but I knew it took time. Otherwise a wonderful relationship, friendship, understanding, family comfort ... peace. My parents did NOT want to hear about him either - they continued to suffer for my ex-husband. I ignored their opinion. I started not sharing with them. It was important to look at the man next to me. We were happy. In the meantime, I completed a master's degree in order to have more chances in finding a job and thank God - I started working in my specialty. Naturally, my salary was negligible, and we lived in a dormitory. We wanted our own home. He already wanted a child and we were trying to get pregnant. It still didn't work, and again the doctors couldn't find a reason. I'm fine, he's fine, but to no avail. And so 2 more years passed. Gradually, we even began to find it difficult to meet our obligatory expenses, and we could not even think of housing. So, after discussions and reflections, we decided to go abroad, and later he too (he had a relatively well-paid job in Bulgaria and it was more risky if he left). He didn't want to in the interest of the truth, but I insisted that this was the best possible way to make our dreams come true. And BGN 300. salary was not a big risk for me. My parents welcomed me naturally. I will be far from him, even in the beginning - I ignored. So on the 5th year of our life together, I left. You know that every emigrant has a history. Well, I have mine too, but I've been through it all. I was stubborn. I didn't know the language - I studied it on the go, worked for the minimum there and fought - around the clock. We had dreams after all. And I achieved a lot. I started from scratch until I finally took a leadership position. Our evenings were spent on Skype. I came 2 or 3 times a year. He avoided the subject of coming to me. I kept thinking he needed time, and I waited, and instead he said more and more that he preferred me to come back. And so ... 3 years, until I understood unequivocally that he would not come! We discussed and decided, I emphasize - we both decided that if he doesn't feel like it, then I will come back! I started to organize everything - documents, telephone contracts, bank accounts, leaving work, leaving the country ... Nobody understood me from my friends. It was more logical for him to come. But I said to myself, if I couldn't convince him, I would go home. There is nothing more important than being with the right person next to you. I will be at home, it will be warm, I will go to bed next to him, we will have a baby ... My parents guess at this moment - they suffered for my decision. I ignored again! However, for the last 10 years (since the divorce) I have not been supported in any of my decisions. I didn't expect it now. I had it and that was enough for me. I was very tired from the cruelty of emigration, from the people, from the feeling that you are not at home, from sharing a kitchen, bathroom, toilet in most cases with strangers, from the endless evenings on Skype, from electronic kisses, from everything! Fuck the high standard of living. I would be home by now. I was happy with my decision! A few months later, after organizing everything, I left the foreign country and returned home forever! E, Here is the denouement - a total of almost 9 years of living together, the last 3 and a half more on Skype, but every day - together! On the 5th day after landing in my homeland, my great love decided that it was the right time to tell me how much it pulls me back, how our relationship is exhausted and we have no close ambitions and plans. I was in shock! I'm still! I never, by any means, understood that he thought that way. And since the reason is never just one, I realized my mistakes and I begged, I begged a lot to discuss his solution. No search. He didn't give a chance. And I only had him! For the first time in 10 years, my parents cried with me! To be alive and healthy. I know that there is no other way forward. I know there are people for whom mine will look like white kahar, but it's hard for me to go through that and I needed to share. I'm tired of hearing how strong I am and how I'm going to cope. At this age, everything is different. The forces too. I know that the most logical thing is that he has found another one, although I have no reason to think so, and even so - I do not want to delve into this. Whatever has led me to this, I will follow the path I have drawn. However, if everything written is useful to someone, I will be grateful. If you can - take something useful from my story. I am still under strong emotions to find the positive for myself. Regards: D. I am still under strong emotions to find the positive for myself. Regards: D. I am still under strong emotions to find the positive for myself. Regards: D.
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Very good story, but for the readers - not for the Author. Let everyone learn their lesson, because I don't see how they can teach a woman like the Author - I'm pretty sure she's one of those people who always knows what she wants and does, who does what? says - stands at the center of life and the world and point. My conclusion is that a person cannot have everything in life, that he has to decide what is important to him and most of all - to see reality as it is, not as it is - as we want it to be. In my opinion, the author's husband has long had another woman and a companion in life and just out of cowardice maintained the illusions of the author three times a year, but it is not his fault, but the fool who believes that because of her dreams a realized, socialized man will be alone for 3 years and will live because of Skype with a lonely emigrant. I wonder how a person can live so long in his fictional world and wake up at 39 without anything. In the end, without a child, because it's too late for that, the last read egg may have passed away at the age of 35, if it existed at all. And so a whole human life goes on, if you are naive enough to believe in Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny. What is the solution - just to live on the ground, to know when to stop with something and to know what you want from life. Sorry Author and? wishing much success. I don't think I can? helped - I do not have 1/10 of her life's suffering experience, because rather I am somehow better not in solving failed lives, but in preventing them, which I think is too late. I have seldom read such a hopeless story of such a naive person, and I have seldom felt such pity for an Author here. The most tragic thing is that both the author is young and in the middle of life, and it is too late for everything important in it. It is mostly late for children, while exactly 3-4 years ago she could have achieved something at least with artificial insemination. Pity, pity and only pity I feel for her ... and I roar
You should be able to inseminate artificially or adopt a child. Maybe this will give you a fresh start in life and change everything.
Number 2, unfortunately, artificial insemination of such women as the Author is very complicated. The past? is the time in two words - after 35 years it is accepted that the chances are very small. I am now thinking about children and the right age and I read a lot on the subject, because I wanted to postpone more, but after 25-30 years the woman's eggs begin to become less fertile, and after 35 to change genetically and it is very difficult to conceive women who have not succeeded before. If she didn't get pregnant in her youth with two men, in her old age? The truth is that at the age of 35 the oven becomes inefficient and is about to close. Adoption takes place only with a spouse. Conclusion - an empty, wasted life of so many desires and dreams, nowhere.
And how does Holly Berry get pregnant at 46? :))))
4 - without wanting to, darling - good luck, but wait until she gives birth to him, that she is diabetic and has a lot on her scales - she has money, don't think of her! One in a village at the age of 50 gave birth. Such things happen, but when you've tried 39 years with different men and it didn't work out - something is wrong with you. It is possible for such women to have their eggs taken after hormonal preparations, to choose a readable one, to be fertilized in a test tube and to be more lucky to wear it, but there are also women who at the age of 39 cannot produce a single readable egg genetically mutated already) and eventually the body throws away the substandard product. This is very difficult to see and prove by doctors. Many women do not even realize that they are pregnant - 3 months ago they throw out their bodies children who can not live. Nature. And yet - the author can still give birth to a donor, but it will not be from her. There are ways but with each passing year it becomes more complicated and difficult and in general - bad. My idea was different - let everyone learn their lesson, because if you want a lot and everything, you can end up with a finger in your mouth. Ask a little, be happy with what you have and live here and now! The author is an old woman, she will be fine, she has always been fine, but interestingly - women with less pretensions, education and intellect finally manage to do at least one thing like people - be it a child to give birth - while the fruits in the author's life they all fell before they matured and have already rotted ... this is what happens due to a lot of greed. You start one thing and want another, you decide a third and wake up at the last moment without leaving anything behind. I am far from thinking that children are obligatory and should be this "something", but at least if you do not leave - one child to give birth to.
Hello! We are close in age. Your story excites me a lot and I fully understand you. However, I want to remind you of my favorite sentence, in case of despair - You never know what you lose when you win, and what you gain when you lose! You think - I wasted my life, I lost. But that's not true. It is true that it is painful for a woman not to have a generation after so many years, but on the other hand she thought about what it would have been like if she had given birth to this man and all this had happened at a later stage. Many women pluck their hair after there is no going back. Believe me, your life is not over with this drama. Sometimes he gives us such surprises that it's hard to believe. I have witnessed so many twists of fate. I am sure that she has prepared something good for you and one day the sun will rise on your street as well. Believe me too!
I'm very sad, but I won't feel sorry for you. I'll tell you what I would do. Until now, judging by your history, you have always lived for others, you have done everything for others and you are fighting for your relationship on your own. And I had taken this path, thanks only for the fact that I realized in time, but believe me after the end I felt used, I felt like I betrayed the only person who cares about me - myself. The thought often crossed my mind - sooner or later a person looks in the mirror and the scariest thing is when the only person who really cares about you looks at you from there and will be with you forever - yourself. It is awful to realize that you have trampled on yourself, your desires and your thoughts thinking of others. It's time to stop doing this, wipe away the tears and take your life into your own hands. I understand you want a baby, but in your place I would give myself time, not much but enough to recover. Even as far as I know, I would go somewhere quiet to organize my thoughts. I would seriously consider giving an abandoned child a chance. You have so much love in you waiting to be accepted by someone who needs a strong hug and warm caress. Don't spare them. The mother is not the one who gives birth, but the one who is next to you and hugs you when the first colic appears, when she is by your bed all evening to make sure that the temperature does not rise again and you will sleep peacefully, the one who holds your hand on the first day of school and who cries with you and wipes your tears, the one who hurts when you get hurt. I wish you to find happiness and do not compromise with yourself! Greetings and all the best from the bottom of my heart! not much but enough to recover. Even as far as I know, I would go somewhere quiet to organize my thoughts. I would seriously consider giving an abandoned child a chance. You have so much love in you waiting to be accepted by someone who needs a strong hug and warm caress. Don't spare them. The mother is not the one who gives birth, but the one who is next to you and hugs you when the first colic appears, when she is by your bed all evening to make sure that the temperature does not rise again and you will sleep peacefully, the one who holds your hand on the first day of school and who cries with you and wipes your tears, the one who hurts when you get hurt. I wish you to find happiness and do not compromise with yourself! Greetings and all the best from the bottom of my heart! not much but enough to recover. Even as far as I know, I would go somewhere to a quiet place to organize my thoughts. I would seriously consider giving an abandoned child a chance. You have so much love in you waiting to be accepted by someone who needs a strong hug and warm caress. Don't spare them. Mother is not the one who gives birth, but the one who is next to you and hugs you when the first colic appears, when she is next to your bed all evening to make sure that the temperature does not rise again and you will sleep peacefully, the one who holds your hand on the first day of school and who cries with you and wipes your tears, the one who hurts when you get hurt. I wish you to find happiness and do not compromise with yourself! Greetings and all the best from the bottom of my heart! Even as far as I know, I would go somewhere quiet to organize my thoughts. I would seriously consider giving an abandoned child a chance. You have so much love in you waiting to be accepted by someone who needs a strong hug and warm caress. Don't spare them. The mother is not the one who gives birth, but the one who is next to you and hugs you when the first colic appears, when she is by your bed all evening to make sure that the temperature does not rise again and you will sleep peacefully, the one who holds your hand on the first day of school and who cries with you and wipes your tears, the one who hurts when you get hurt. I wish you to find happiness and do not compromise with yourself! Greetings and I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart! Even as far as I know, I would go somewhere quiet to organize my thoughts. I would seriously consider giving an abandoned child a chance. You have so much love in you waiting to be accepted by someone who needs a strong hug and warm caress. Don't spare them. The mother is not the one who gives birth, but the one who is next to you and hugs you when the first colic appears, when she is by your bed all evening to make sure that the temperature does not rise again and you will sleep peacefully, the one who holds your hand on the first day of school and who cries with you and wipes your tears, the one who hurts when you get hurt. I wish you to find happiness and do not compromise with yourself! Greetings and all the best from the bottom of my heart! I would seriously consider giving an abandoned child a chance. You have so much love in you waiting to be accepted by someone who needs a strong hug and warm caress. Don't spare them. The mother is not the one who gives birth, but the one who is next to you and hugs you when the first colic appears, when she is by your bed all evening to make sure that the temperature does not rise again and you will sleep peacefully, the one who holds your hand on the first day of school and who cries with you and wipes your tears, the one who hurts when you get hurt. I wish you to find happiness and do not compromise with yourself! Greetings and all the best from the bottom of my heart! I would seriously consider giving an abandoned child a chance. You have so much love in you waiting to be accepted by someone who needs a strong hug and warm caress. Don't spare them. Mother is not the one who gives birth, but the one who is next to you and hugs you when the first colic appears, when she is next to your bed all evening to make sure that the temperature does not rise again and you will sleep peacefully, the one who holds your hand on the first day of school and who cries with you and wipes your tears, the one who hurts when you get hurt. I wish you to find happiness and do not compromise with yourself! Greetings and all the best from the bottom of my heart! who gives birth, and the one who is next to you and hugs you when the first colic appears, when she is next to your bed all evening to make sure that the temperature does not rise again and you will sleep peacefully, the one who holds your hand on the first day of school and who cries with you and wipes your tears, the one who hurts when you get hurt. I wish you to find happiness and do not compromise with yourself! Greetings and all the best from the bottom of my heart! who gives birth, and the one who is next to you and hugs you when the first colic appears, when she is next to your bed all evening to make sure that the temperature does not rise again and you will sleep peacefully, the one who holds your hand on the first day of school and who cries with you and wipes your tears, the one who hurts when she gets hurt. I wish you to find happiness and do not compromise with yourself! Greetings and all the best from the bottom of my heart!
Hello. I am the author. Thank you very much for the comments! Thanks to N. 1, 3 and 5, who I think are the same person. There is a lot of truth in what you have written and I thank you for your honesty. And even though you call my life wasted and there are some hints of attacks in your opinions, I don't think you have to feel sorry for me. I shared this to be useful. Yes, I have made many mistakes over a long period of time and I will bear the consequences. From now on, accusations, insults and attacks seem unnecessary to me. I'm just looking for alternatives. Because even though it has not passed according to standard norms, every life has some meaning. My opinion, I do not engage anyone with it! Numbers 6 and 7 thank you very much for your support. Number 6, I also believe that every loss has something good in it. I find myself in number 7 to a large extent. I gave myself a break for a while (not very long), and I even planned a quiet place :). And I'm considering an adoption option. I read a lot on the topic, and I consult. I am aware of my insignificant chances of this happening naturally. Although, according to those experts there, the moment of concern should come after the age of 42-43, that according to all their research, I was in wonderful health? !? !! I am puzzled and do not comment - just share. However, as number 7 says, a mother does not only mean giving birth. Thank you again! that according to all their research I was in wonderful health? !? !! I am puzzled and do not comment - just share. However, as number 7 says, a mother does not only mean giving birth. Thank you again! that according to all their research I was in wonderful health? !? !! I am puzzled and do not comment - just share. However, as number 7 says, a mother does not only mean giving birth. Thank you again!
To the Author - don't be angry, I didn't want to attack you personally, I just got angry about the wasted life of a smart, intelligent woman. You look like a person very close to me and I made it to you because I can't? I say nothing to her, but only to watch and be by her side as she wastes her life. You have the right from the NHIF (insure yourself immediately as unemployed) to 3 attempts, I think about in vitro. The problem is that I think you have to have a husband to try with. Check things out here. There is such a fund in Bulgaria, although I do not recommend it - hormonal stimulation is a scary thing, and read a little - your eggs may be genetically damaged and do not trust the doctors very much - they have a financial motive - you are golden hen 3x3000 BGN - think, and then they will tell you - try on time! There are reasons why you can't get pregnant. Adoption happens again only with a man I think, but you can become a foster parent. In Bulgaria we want to close homes and we need people like you. If you are not afraid of attachment - yes, the child will not be YOURS, but you will do more for me than anyone for him. Everyone wants to adopt a healthy baby, for example, but what will older or sick children or those whose "parents" do not want to sign for adoption do? The advantage is that with 2-3 such children you will have a job practically - some income. You can work something extra from home and live not richly, but decently. Good luck though and sorry. I'm angry about smart women who have wasted their time like that. I think it's time for you to find your calling and a way to leave something good behind. In Bulgaria we want to close homes and we need people like you. If you are not afraid of attachment - yes, the child will not be YOURS, but you will do more for me than anyone for him. Everyone wants to adopt a healthy baby, for example, but what will older or sick children or those whose "parents" do not want to sign for adoption do? The advantage is that with 2-3 such children you will have a job practically - some income. You can work something extra from home and live not richly, but decently. Good luck though and sorry. I'm angry about smart women who have wasted their time like that. I think it's time for you to find your calling and a way to leave something good behind. In Bulgaria we want to close homes and we need people like you. If you are not afraid of attachment - yes, the child will not be YOURS, but you will do more for me than anyone for him. Everyone wants to adopt a healthy baby, for example, but what will older or sick children or those whose "parents" do not want to sign for adoption do? The advantage is that with 2-3 such children you will have a job practically - some income. You can work something extra from home and live not richly, but decently. Good luck though and sorry. I'm angry about smart women who have wasted their time like that. I think it's time for you to find your calling and a way to leave something good behind. Everyone wants to adopt a healthy baby, for example, but what will older or sick children or those whose "parents" do not want to sign for adoption do? The advantage is that with 2-3 such children you will have a job practically - some income. You can work something extra from home and live not richly, but decently. Good luck though and sorry. I'm angry about smart women who have wasted their time like that. I think it's time for you to find your calling and a way to leave something good behind. Everyone wants to adopt a healthy baby, for example, but what will older or sick children or those whose "parents" do not want to sign for adoption do? The advantage is that with 2-3 such children you will have a job practically - some income. You can work something extra from home and live not richly, but decently. Good luck though and sorry. I'm angry about smart women who have wasted their time like that. I think it's time for you to find your calling and a way to leave something good behind.
I'm number 7. Head up and you won't give up. You are 39 years old in the prime of your life. You're healthy, that's the most important thing! Life is unpredictable and sometimes undergoes twists that our minds find difficult to grasp. Only when time passes and we manage to see things from the side do we realize that it was for our good. I think you still have time for a child. At least until you're 42, 3. I have a woman who became a mother at 45. They watched her and gave birth to a healthy baby. God's work. I wish you happiness to smile. Don't make hasty decisions. Until now, like me, you have drawn, cut, planned and what. Don't rush things, whatever happens will happen in spite of us. I give you a hug. Be happy!
here I am again - the author. Number 7 you understand me, you are sympathetic, and I am healthy, yes :). You are great! The twists and turns of life are unexpected and difficult to explain sometimes, but as one of my friends says - it will not happen to you if you are not ready for two things - to cope and get your surprise after that. I also have an acquaintance who gave birth last year at the age of 44. healthy child. God's work. I hug you and I wish you a lot of happiness too. Number 1, of course, I'm not angry. It makes me angry with myself, but what can you do - life. I understand your motives and I'm sorry for your loved one, but don't blame her and not? she is angry because believe me - she will find meaning in what she does until she FEELS the things herself. It doesn't matter who felt it, who they showed it to. I already pay for health insurance, and I'm waiting for my documents from there to admit my absences here for these 3 years. On the issue of in vitro, adoption and foster parent, I haven't started digging into details yet, but I will do that too ... after the break :). We all know that hope dies last and I believe that good is coming and day by day it is approaching. Well, nothing human is just foreign to me :). Good luck to you and I will say again - thank you!
Hey, I'm number 7 again. How do you drive it, how do you feel? Scratch in a row. To know that, strange as it may be, there are people who, although they do not know each other in any way, feel the other relative and beg him. I send you hugs. I hope you are better. Kind regards!
Hey, number 7 hello! :) I feel good, thanks. Except for the moments when I'm sad and I consciously influence my mood - then it's a fierce struggle, but it's inevitable. You know - the things, the streets, the car, the pet, the suitcases ... everything brings countless memories. Tears don't ask when to push, and I sometimes let go of my emotions, but I'm generally hungry to hold on. Otherwise I prepare the so-called vacation. I really organized a trip and I don't even think I have internet there. I will be by myself :) (so if I disappear after 10 days don't think about me). Unwillingly, I received a job offer today. Abe, there are things to smile about. Friends are a great job I tell you and I can proudly say that I have several! I'm glad I met you even in this version, number 7. In my first answer I wrote that I find myself somehow in you. Inexplicable things - people can be close without looking each other in the eye, right? Apparently your heart is big when you find a way to think about me - the stranger. Keep this to yourself - your loved ones will feel richer with you :). I'll keep you posted. And you write, hey :) I hug you and wish you many smiles!
N 9, there is a prohibition for the same child to be adopted by two people who are not spouses, but there is no obstacle for a person without marriage to be an adoptive parent.
Hey Hello! I'm number seven. I hadn't come in soon, and it was good that I remembered the title in parts. Long live Uncle Google. I often think of you. I guess she came back from the vacation she had planned. I hope it has been beneficial for you and that you feel good. Write how you are, how things are around you. Greetings and hugs:)
Hey, hello number 7! :) I haven't been here for centuries, it seems. Like you, I had a hard time finding the topic. I don't know if you will ever read what is written, but I sincerely want to thank you for your attitude !!! Honestly, when I reviewed the topic now I remembered very well how I felt when I wrote all this and realized how different the feeling is now ... I had a good holiday - it was not great, but fruitful - what I needed happened. I decided to change the settlement and I did it. I'm interested here. I meet new people and I don't stare so much at my injured "inside". I think that even when I'm alone I don't do it anymore. Well ... a new beginning :). I'm looking for a job here, and I even seem to see a light in the tunnel. I haven't started looking around for men yet, but this moment will come. I am full of hopes and because I know that after every evil comes something good - I can't wait to meet it anymore. I'm fine - I can say that for now. I smile sincerely even now :). I hug you and wish you many happy moments :).
I just wanted to tell you that my mother got pregnant with me at 39, when she had already come to terms with not having a child. Before that, they were looking for the problem in it ... I sincerely wish you to be able to become a mother in any way!
Hello, my dear Author! I am writing to you because I have become very nice and I sincerely wish you all the best. We have something in common with you. Like you, I sometimes take big steps on my own in the name of love. And so far I have only been disappointed. It is not easy to have a big heart and to give. And after all, I'm already wondering what's next, will I meet a person who will be ready for anything and for me? And I want a family, children ... I have decided if I do not meet him and I do not have a child to adopt. I still have hopes, however, as I have another year or so of hope. I want to tell you that you are a great person and you should be proud of your great courage and heart. You have suffered a lot, but I believe that someone will appreciate you and will fight for you as you would fight for him. We have to believe. However, if we have us, then there are others like us. Be brave and know that you have lost nothing. Our wealth is the tomb in our souls, but also a colorful, rich way of life. If nothing else, at least we have lived and tried. Be happy and I wish you a lot of luck. I will be happy to write how you are and what is happening to you. :)
Wow, number 7 :) I'm very happy to find lines written by you here. And I would very much like to have personal contact with you, but I guess (as far as I understand) we won't be able to do that. Unfortunately! But the feeling of knowing that there are people like you is wonderful. I will not surprise you, I suppose, if I tell you that good is coming and that your moment will come. I'm still waiting for mine :), but I believe and I don't stop hoping. I flatly refuse to change and I pray that I have enough patience and that it will be rewarded. And you number 7, stay what you are and I'm very happy with the way you think! Whatever our grandmothers say. If things don't go according to plan A, there is always plan B. :) I wish you good luck soon and I will be happy to write how you are and if you can any positive news, please? hehe;) A big hug from me!
Hello. I'm number 7. It's been so long, and I've often thought about this topic, and I had a hard time finding it. I still didn't find time, maybe or I just gave up easily. The time now is 02:10. I searched for her for half an hour and up. I tried to remember keywords ... And I succeeded. Maybe the author of the topic will never read what I will write. I sincerely hope she is well and very happy. May her dream come true, be healthy and full of life and dreams. I often thought, what is wrong with her ?! Strange how a stranger could feel close, perhaps because I recognized myself in her. If one day you read this author: be healthy, I send you heartfelt hugs. Be happy!!!
I'm number 7 again. Now I see that the topic is from a year and seven months ago. (And 7 months) coincidence or not, this 7 caught my eye. So I wanted to write that it's not over who knows how much time and secretly I hope you see and read it. Otherwise for me ... I must have mistakes, I'm writing from the phone, it's dark and very late ... Please excuse me.
Oh, I'm ... But I can barely look at it that way. It's not from a year and seven, but from a year and 4 months, but I'm looking for symbolism in everything and I immediately liked it. Ugh, so am I :)))). Number7
Oops .... :) Number 7, I'm the author;) Thank you so much and I feel close to you that if one day I meet you I will certainly recognize you and we will have an endless conversation! I have not had occasion to return to this subject soon, simply because life is wonderful despite the difficult moments in it. I do not find it useful to re-read the past;) Noooo, the topic seems to be transformed now and I will be happy to share many things. I have something to say, but today I'm just giving the signal that I'm fine and I'll write the details soon when I have a day off. I'm sure number 7 will see that. Hugs, darling. If you write a line about yourself, I will be even happier that I "know" you. :) Until recently...
You can lose a lot, often even everything. But that shouldn't bother you, on the contrary. It's never too late to be happy and it's never "too late" for dreams. Greetings! M18
I'm number 7 again. I'm glad you saw it after so long. I am infinitely glad that you are well. That's how you "sound". I hug you very strongly and I hope that life for this period that has passed has brought you the sweetest fruits. And for me. If I may call myself that, I am a woman (although I still feel like a girl) at 27 years old. I am not in Bulgaria at the moment. My daily life at this stage is like a doll :))), work, at home, but I have a person next to me who gives me peace, security, warmth and most importantly believes in me. Why did I write to you and why do I continue ... Why did I take your story to heart and why did I feel so close to you ... Maybe because I recognized myself in you in that past period. It's as if I felt you with my heart ... That's why I keep writing. I really hope you are happy. I will write to you again these days in more detail.
The topic is interesting, and I look even though it's been a year and a half since its release is still being commented on, even by the author. Unfortunately, it is 99.9% certain that the author still does not have, and probably will not have children, but especially for this I can not feel sorry for her, because in my opinion in the first place it is her fault. . The rest of the things seem clear to me - her student love has just found another woman, or he is used to living alone and he is fine. After all, he has a child of his own, and from that point of view, that's not a problem for him. Life abroad is also not for everyone, here I speak from personal experience, so I fully understand that the author has chosen to return, and although unceremoniously abandoned, she never decided to return abroad, where it was able to quickly reach a good level of realization and financial stability. Now I guess, and I hope the author has at least found a new and better paid job that allows her not to worry at least about small things like rent, electricity, water, internet, food, etc. For personal life I do not know what could have happened, because after so many disappointments, and already in the 40s the author is hardly an end in itself to find the "prince on a white horse" - if it happened is welcome, but I doubt the author purposefully to she was looking for him, or looking for him right now. In conclusion, I will agree with comment number 1 that the story is very good, but for the readers, not for the author, but such is life. May her story serve as a lesson to people who still do not have the courage to take action X in their lives, or they are still waiting for moment U to do so. The years go by in anticipation, and one day a person wakes up at 40 and sees that more than half of his life has passed and he is nowhere. The feeling must be awful, so if there are other men / women in a similar situation, they should do their thing from now on. :)
Hey, hello :) I'm the author. Number 7, I'm very happy to "hear" you;). You are at a wonderful age, please! I'm glad you have someone by your side, and I really admire the way you think. Enjoy your life, and know that it is yours and nothing else matters. Thank you so much for continuing to write! Number 26, thanks for the comment. Now I may disappoint you, but I am abroad again. I will not explain why. Some will understand immediately, others - never, so I'm just sharing facts. I went back to my old job. By the way, number 7, is there no way to check if we are not in the same country, maybe a city ... and we can be neighbors;)) Can you imagine? Joke aside. I work, go out with friends, and enjoy most of my life. I travel a lot - almost at every opportunity. I think I have someone to enjoy in particular, but since it's a very recent story, I won't say more. Of course I didn't choose it, number 26 is very right. It just happens ... Yes, I went through a very difficult period. I refracted my gaze through all sorts of angles and lights, and that radically changed my inner world ... painful sometimes. I had no idea how different the world could look through my own two eyes and all other perceptions. Anyway ... a year and a half later I can say that there is even an element of happiness in what happened to me. I will comment on the topic for children later, I'm sorry. Whatever happens in my life from now on, I will meet it and experience it. Whether or not it was useful to myself, it was my choice! So - read and if you can use this topic. :)) I go to bed because I'm tired ... but I'll write again. ;)
The moment I read "my parents cried with me" I cried. I think you won that. Parents. You, you always wanted the same thing, you - they were happy; they - you to be happy :) They say that "when God closes doors, he opens gates". It is important to do what you feel is right. And you do, and there's no way it can't happen. Regarding children. Last week, at my gynecologist, two women, aged 42 and 43, pregnant with their first child, passed in front of me. We all know that a woman's most fertile age is 20-25 years, but God knows his job, not everything depends on us. I guess they have their own story, just like any of us. I don't think one learns from other people's stories, if that were the case, this world would be far happier. Thank you to your parents for raising and educating you. Let us ask God to create and educate man, with your values, kindness and perseverance. It became very tearful ... sorry :)
Hello again. I am the author. :) I have new supporters I see .. thank you! Number 18, 26, 28 .... :) I'm very happy. A lot of wisdom in you, number 28. You are very right ... hardly anyone will change anything in their life, or will "consult", despite my persistent insistence on using this story. After all, "my case is different," right? And of course, I strongly emphasize that this moment of my life quickly transferred me and my parents to that cozy, warm and peaceful place of unconditional mutual love. Don't get me wrong, please - we've always had a wonderful relationship. It's just that things they didn't like were not supported or blamed, and in most cases not even discussed. And that was tense. Past ... I'm grateful,
Ehoooo, author :))), I'm number 7. I'm coming to watch you. I really hope you are well. I send you hugs! I hope someone lives to meet us! I believe! My location for now is Scandinavia. If you are somewhere around me, I will write you the state. I have not forgotten you!
Eheeee, number, but you're very welcome. :) Pass a particle if you can. I'm so glad to hear from you. I'm fine thank you. Are you all right? Scandinavia is a destination for my summer vacation (June), otherwise it turns out that I am very close to you (in terms of which aspect you want). ;)))). I am on an island that the world calls the United Kingdom! Ok ... which country is it? I'm sure she's on my vacation tour. :) Warm hugs from me and beware! :)))
You can have a child at the age of 50, in Bulgaria it is allowed until menopause, as long as there is someone with whom, you do not need to be married for adoption ....