Hello! My story is very crazy, although I see that there are many similar ones to mine on the site, so I decided to write to consult with more people. I am a 21 year old girl. I'm a student right now, but when I was in high school I was in love with ... my teacher. I am a completely normal girl - sociable, popular, beautiful, excellent, with friends and a healthy family, I do not drink or smoke and there is nothing masculine in me at all, so that someone would assume that I do not like a boy, but a woman. However, as early as 9th grade, when the teacher in question started teaching me, I literally fell in love with her from the first lesson. She is already 50 years old, but she is terribly beautiful, preserved, sweet, fun, sexy, extremely charming and very intelligent in her subject. There are rumors that she slept with students, but I can't believe it. She is very crazy and infantile by nature, coquettish, she has more energy and childlike radiance than me and she looks terribly young. She has trained in several sports, but she has a very gentle and fragile, but also tight, symmetrical and perfect body. She has no children, has never been married, has no partner and admits it herself, as well as living alone. In a word, she is an old girl, but she has nothing to do with the typical ones, except that she doesn't have Facebook and social networks and doesn't go out in the evening, but goes to bed at 11. Speaking of which she says she always looked for the perfect person, but didn't find it. self-confidence and tells herself how special she is, she is a maximalist in everything and takes great care of herself and pleases herself. Otherwise she is confused, sometimes she is called crazy and she shouts I have no mind, sometimes the plague, sometimes "a very special girl", sometimes "I am a snake".
Of course, her subject immediately became my favorite, I became the best at it and we initially got closer through it and competitions. In 9th and 10th grade we had become very close, as friends. We went to school together, we went home together, she complimented me and looked for me during breaks, she looked at me all the time, she called me "I'm very happy to chat with you", she winked at me, touched me, defended me, we took long and personal conversations, on all sorts of crazy topics like who wants to die or what time she goes to bed, I wore red roses to her every holiday, I hugged her many times and said how much I like her, we went on trips together in Bulgaria and abroad. In 11th grade I don't know what happened to me and I took a lot to betray myself, I kept telling her that my behavior is not hypocritical for grades, but I really like her terribly and I annoyed her a lot, I was jealous of her.
We met once in the evening in the center, we went shopping and talked for a long time and she even asked me "I think you want to tell me something, or you're just very nice to me, huh?", but I didn't tell her anything. In the weeks that followed, I was very sorry that I had missed my chance and started betraying myself completely and behaving strangely. One day I couldn't stand the winter anymore and I told her during the break that I needed to talk to her about something. She invited me to one of the warehouses and said "I'm listening to you" and I started to tremble, I couldn't say anything and I just said "I'm sorry I'm acting so weird, but ... I love you!". She just looked at me deeply and her first answer was "You shouldn't love me so much," and then "Are you 18?". Then "I have no attraction to my gender, just normal to men my age properly." and I asked her not to tell the class about the conversation and she said, "Don't worry, I'm a mature person, I won't tell anyone." I didn't understand then what she understood.
But she continued to be so kind, the next day she looked at me very nicely and winked, she came to talk to me, tested me and wrote me again 6, scolded a boy for teasing me. The second term we were on a trip abroad me, her and a few other students. There I was bothering her a lot again, I couldn't stand being with her all the time, and she was already feeling it and I told her on the last day. I told her "Sorry if I'm bothering and annoying you" and she said "Worry me, I don't know what's going on in your head" and I told her "I love and like you very much" and she said "Okay". I told her I was sorry and I didn't know what I would do after 12th grade without her and, that I always tried to hide it and she said "Calm down .. calm down, you act emotionally, not rationally, you should not listen to the heart, but the mind" and that was it. In the evening at the hotel we fell room to room and she was alone and I went out at midnight in the hallway and she just opened her door and I saw her naked on a towel from the bathroom and she just looked at me and did not close and I looked at her from head to toe and I felt very uncomfortable and went back to the room. In the morning she knocked me to wake me up and she was very sweet and a girl told me that at two in the evening she was sitting in a nightgown next to my room in the corridor.
During the whole trip, he was constantly confused and called the other girls by my name. She was constantly looking at me studying, smiling shyly, one time when I spoke to her she trembled and dropped her bag of dice and when I handed it to her she smiled sweetly. When we returned, the others told me how I behaved and became famous, and she became very angry with me and withdrew and complained. I wrote to her on Viber, but she blocked me. I tried to hug her like another time, but pulled away and said, "No, everyone knows about your feelings." A girl told the class and they both talked and called me to the principal and I apologized. The following year, another teacher was assigned to our class, and she remained with everyone else.
I didn't give up and again for a whole year roses, candies, conspiracies, greetings, bracelets and martenitsas, good luck in competitions, looks, etc. and she was still very kind as if nothing had happened in the second term of 11th grade. Both the class and the management had forgotten when I gave her flowers in front of the class, etc. Even the principal didn't mind and I was his favorite. They obviously know how capricious she is and, that there was no one else beside her and they accepted him comically. In the end, I had given her a bigger present for the ball, but she refused, which was not convenient. I didn't make it to university and I kept coming and looking for her. I went to all her holidays and she was very happy, taking roses, etc. and looking at me with that magnetic smile from 10th grade. The viber unblocked, but I never found out if it unblocked me or something by itself, because it didn't write to me. The last time I went to Christmas was this year, but this time she looked at me badly, I said "hello, how are you?" And she muttered "nice" and worried and embarrassed and passed me. And the road before that was very nice and playful. I was very confused and since then I am ashamed to go and 7 months have passed and I miss him and I'm afraid he won't forget me. I have become asexual and for 5 years now I do not want or like anyone else. I love and desire her terribly, I am very attracted to her both sexually and emotionally and intellectually. I feel that she is the person and my soulmate and I will either be with her or with no one else. I want to be with her all my life and live with her. I haven't seen her for seven months now, and I dream about her every night, I constantly think about her, everything comes to me and everything reminds me of her and it's as if I'm starting to love and want her even more, I'm so attached, I'm crazy.
I can not live without her. I have been an adult for 3 years now and I am not her student, can we still have a relationship, even a one-time one, is there a chance that she wants me at least a little or holds on to me ?? What should I do, what step should I take ?? I am ready for everything to be together and for her to be happier. But I don't want her to think of me as a psychopath and it turns out that I'm stalking her. Should I go again in the fall, Should I write to her on Viber, or should I go to her block to somehow find each other? I don't know how to look for her and find out if there is a chance and how to impress her again? Is the connection possible in this situation or do I have no reason to hope? Is she lonely, being an "old maid" or does that mean, on the contrary, she is self-sufficient and does not want any relationship?
Does she want to, but is she stopped by morals and stereotypes, or if she wanted me, would she please me and have me? Can it happen now, or if it hasn't happened before, her feelings are gone and gone, if she had or they don't go away like that? There were many real moments that I did not imagine, but there really was something reciprocal. or go to her block to somehow catch up? I don't know how to look for her and find out if there is a chance and how to impress her again? Is the connection possible in this situation or do I have no reason to hope? Is she lonely, being an "old maid" or does that mean, on the contrary, she is self-sufficient and does not want any relationship? Does she want to, but morals and stereotypes stop her, or if she wanted me, would she please me and have me? Can it happen now, or if it hasn't happened before, her feelings are gone and gone, if she had or they don't go away like that?
There were many real moments that I did not imagine, but there really was something reciprocal. or go to her block to somehow catch up? I don't know how to look for her and find out if there is a chance and how to impress her again? Is the connection possible in this situation or do I have no reason to hope? Is she lonely, being an "old maid" or does that mean, on the contrary, she is self-sufficient and does not want any relationship? Does she want to, but is she stopped by morals and stereotypes, or if she wanted me, would she please me and have me?
Can it happen now, or if it hasn't happened before, her feelings are gone and gone, if she had or they don't go away like that? There were many real moments that I did not imagine, but there really was something reciprocal. would you please me too? Can it happen now, or if it hasn't happened before, her feelings are gone and gone, if she had or they don't go away like that? There were many real moments that I did not imagine, but there really was something reciprocal. would you please me too? Can it happen now, or if it hasn't happened before, her feelings are gone and gone, if she had or they don't go away like that? There were many real moments that I did not imagine, but there really was something reciprocal.
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She told you plainly that she was heterosexual and not a pedophile. Some teachers are like parents, the profession itself requires them to constantly think about the well-being of the respondents. A teacher is as successful as his students. She blocked you because she doesn't want you to bother her, she clearly told you you were. You've stopped bothering her, that's why she unblocked you. She is a human being and she decides for herself who to admit to her personal circle. Maybe she is asexual, ie not interested in sex at all. Now, if you start harassing her again, she will turn to the police because you are no longer in puberty and you are 18 years old, so you are criminally liable. My advice is to seek adequate help from a psychologist, if necessary from a psychiatrist. You probably have hobbies, if you are engaged in creative activity focus on it. Find other girls with your orientation. You can really find the love of your life. Success!
It's not bad that you liked a person of the same sex, be it your teacher at 50. But your behavior is not normal - you have an addiction, it's not love. It also impresses me in other stories, every time it comes to something like that, one subconsciously justifies oneself, in this case - "I have a healthy family". I don't know how healthy it is, to me this affect of yours from your teacher looks like a trauma that you are trying to process through it. Did your mother neglect you as a child? Was she strict? Was it competition for you, that is, to think of you as sisters more than as a mother and daughter? Or maybe she was acting immature and looking for authority now? Answer a few questions. Again, it's not a problem to like your 50-year-old teacher, the problem is your inappropriate behavior towards your feelings. In my opinion, your teacher has behaved kindly before, so as not to kill you to a greater madness. You know what they say. "Keep your enemies close." And don't literalize. If someone had found out that you were in love with the teacher, she would have taken it a lot more, because they would have accused her of incitement or indecent behavior to get there. Now that you are no longer a threat, keep your distance because he is trying to help you overcome your feelings. There's a movie - bloomington, the same story with two women, watch it. Now that you are no longer a threat, keep your distance because he is trying to help you overcome your feelings. There's a movie - bloomington, the same story with two women, watch it. Now that you are no longer a threat, keep your distance because he is trying to help you overcome your feelings. There's a movie - bloomington, the same story with two women, watch it.
Hello! Before you are attacked by the pseudo-moralists on the site, I will be happy to read my opinion! Congratulations first of all that you write so competently and express yourself super, it is obvious that you are a literate girl. Now, to the real part: I believe that your story is true, that you are really in love with this woman, but it is possible that some trauma is rooted in your emotions, which led you to what you are experiencing - if your mother she didn't pay enough attention to you, she didn't care enough for you, you in this woman, who is a strong person and attractive, you see a lot of things that you missed - just an example. Do not despair, however, I do not judge you! People need to understand that it is normal to have preconditions for who you will like, but this does not mean that the feelings are not real - in the same way, girls without a father like older men - they look for that in them, which they lacked. But their partner is NOT their second parent, it just gives them security, it doesn't mean that the relationship isn't real - everyone is just looking for something to fill their own gaps. The teacher in question can be a hobby, it can be an obsession, it is quite possible that you are really in love with her. When a relationship is not built on the basis of someone else's misfortune, when a third person who has been lied to is not affected, it is okay for me for them to happen, as long as the parties are clear. You're young, you have the right to experience what you think will make you happy - and to tell you to find a boyfriend, I know that's not in your head. I will personally advise you to go and talk directly to the woman, otherwise it will bother you. Candy, flowers and viber are child's play, and if you really want her to accept you as a great person, face the situation. One day, when you see that there are no other people, find a suitable moment when she is alone and ask her to talk - it is an option to ask her to see you for coffee. Decide firmly, be adamant about the conversation and do not be afraid and give up. She is a woman with responsibilities and cannot take the first step. When you see each other, reveal how you feel, say that you have sympathy for her as a woman, that you have feelings that are not childish obsolescence, but continue to this day. That she would like - if she has interest and desire, to get to know each other simply. Don't be oppressive, be patient, she may need time. Assure her that she can be honest with you - if you have no chance, let her tell you directly and clearly and, of course, in that case you should not bother her anymore. I'm not going to fool you, it may not be spinning in her head at all, which turns in yours and to be scared, but on the other hand, she as a person with responsibilities and hard work, can not act in this situation without being sure of your feelings and intentions, because revealing yourself to you would risk a lot more than you on it. However, you are no longer in school, you are an adult, you do not harm anyone, and yet you have the opportunity to get things done. Good luck, courage and act!
From the Author: I have not had any problems with my mother and any member of my family. I am even very sloppy and I lacked nothing, neither love and upbringing, nor material. I like her not as a mother, sister, role model, etc., but as a woman. I have always judged people superficially, first by their appearance. If she wasn't so beautiful and attractive and charming, I wouldn't pay any attention to her, even if she was the nicest person with me and showered me with attention and care. After I saw and found that she was perfect in appearance and radiance and I was so strongly attracted and blinded - by her smile, her voice, laughter, gestures, behavior, her figure, etc., I naturally began to get to know her. and I spend time with her and it was getting more and more enjoyable and I was losing track of time. I don't have any obsessions or crazy thoughts of chasing her and having to like me if I don't. I am really in love and not only, but I have loved her for 5 years. And now, as 5 years ago, when I saw her and my stomach turned upside down, I shivered and trembled, a natural wide smile spread all over my face, more special than my usual one and I could barely keep from embracing it and kiss. I am very attached, I would do anything for her, I love her more than myself, and I am very selfish in general and I am also very narcissistic like her. She has given me enough reason to hope that things will drag on for 5 years without me giving up yet. I am sober enough that if there were no signs and releases from her so far, I would stop and resign myself. I just want to know if there's a chance or definitely not, because there were many real and intimate moments that showed that she also experienced something at certain times. For example, confusing to call other girls by my name; telling me that I should have listened to the mind, not my heart (Or maybe she listens to the mind, and the heart also speaks?); looking at me for a long time, shivering and missing her things, coming looking for me in the room and telling me that she was very happy to be with me. And she is alone, unmarried, without children and without a friend and single. So I think that not everything is exhausted and that I have reason to hope for something, and I am already 21. I have explained in my story that I have long ago told her the whole truth about how I feel in 11th grade and she continued here. to be very kind, now withdrawn, and that the whole school found out because of those girls from the trip.
From the Author: I forgot to say to number 2 that I watched the movie Bloomington and my teacher is 1: 1, but one-on-one Catherine Stark the heroine externally and behaviorally. If anyone wants to get an idea of what my teacher looks like and behaves. And because she was so similar to the heroine, I was even more curious that she could act like her, because she is also a girl.
Yes, but number 1 - you remember it's weird to bother unblocking her - if she's annoyed and uncomfortable and bothers her, she'll keep her blocked, why even think about her. to unblock it? If you don't want a person to annoy you, they don't unblock him, and if you don't remember him, you won't remember blocking him at all. It's unnecessary. I'm 3.
Invite her for coffee or a walk in the park and ask her directly, say everything you wrote
From the Author: Yes, number 6, I was also wondering, therefore, unless the viber has unblocked itself by deleting the account and making a new one, but why bother to remove it and make a new one only 2 years after blocks me. Number 7, thanks for the advice, I really should try to look for her again and talk, because she probably, even if she regrets and remembers me, will not take a step and risk looking for me first, especially if she thinks that my feelings are gone and I met a boyfriend at university. No matter how much I worry about how she will react because we haven't seen each other for 7 months, and the last time she passed me because she is in the mood with all the people and once she is very kind, once rude.
Go and ring the doorbell, but first send her a greeting on the viber or make her see you from afar