Why am I not like the others just .... Why everywhere on the net and in real life everyone talks about weed and other drugs, that they were cool, etc. - my friend loves weed, to get together with people, on concerts and having fun drunk, and I can't ... I feel bad because I get paranoia accompanied by a cycle. My current boyfriend, other ex-girlfriends and my girlfriends don't want us to smoke together and I don't want to because of the nasty effects, but on the other hand I want to enjoy ganja as "normal" people. So many, really many times I tried to smoke and all the nasty experiences. I'm sick. I'm tired because I'm depressed by the fact that I've been through nasty trips. Dozens of stories like the ones here I can tell from my experience. Depersonalization, derealization, delusions or whatever. Most often when I get drunk, I meet with reproachful thoughts. Really destructive thoughts that instruct me to completely change my life and also keep repeating in my mind to stop trying all kinds of drugs, never to try again. But when I see on the net how everyone enjoys marijuana and in real life, when everyone around me enjoys ... and I just want to be like them. It's hard for me to remember a decent marijuana trip I had. It was always incredibly intense and scary, I'm always on my toes, agitated & irritated etc. I went to psychiatrists who told me to stay away from grass, even if I didn't smell grass, because at one time I had symptoms of schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. Of course, I don't want to be like the sworn stoners, who get drunk every day and are 24/7 helpless morons, unemployed and uneducated. I just want to be like those who work, study, have a normal and stable life, but when they can relax with ganja with friends. I feel different, crazy, isolated and an outsider in the worst sense of the word. My partner, my friends and many other people like me, appreciate me, respect me for myself, for my mind, my qualities, etc. But as my friend says, it is annoying to smoke with me. I can't chill and that's it. From then on, my self-esteem shakes, I isolate myself from everyone, I get depressed, I stay away from everyone and I hate the world and especially myself. To my only but boundless happiness - my friend causes him unimaginable pain when I tell him about my depressive thoughts, about my endless hatred for myself and .... I really don't want this to continue. I want to be normal. who work, study, have a normal and stable life, but when they can relax with ganja with friends. I feel different, crazy, isolated and an outsider in the worst sense of the word. My partner, my friends and many other people like me, appreciate me, respect me for myself, for my mind, my qualities, etc. But as my friend says, it is annoying to smoke with me. I can't chill and that's it. From then on, my self-esteem shakes, I isolate myself from everyone, I get depressed, I stay away from everyone and I hate the world and especially myself. To my only but boundless happiness - my friend causes him unimaginable pain when I tell him about my depressive thoughts, about my endless hatred for myself and .... I really don't want this to continue. I want to be normal. who work, study, have a normal and stable life, but when they can relax with ganja with friends. I feel different, crazy, isolated and an outsider in the worst sense of the word. My partner, my friends and many other people like me, appreciate me, respect me for myself, for my mind, my qualities, etc. But as my friend says, it is annoying to smoke with me. I can't chill and that's it. From then on, my self-esteem shakes, I isolate myself from everyone, I get depressed, I stay away from everyone and I hate the world and especially myself. To my only but boundless happiness - my friend causes him unimaginable pain when I tell him about my depressive thoughts, about my endless hatred for myself and .... I really don't want this to continue. I want to be normal. but when they can relax with ganja with friends. I feel different, crazy, isolated and an outsider in the worst sense of the word. My partner, my friends and many other people like me, appreciate me, respect me for myself, for my mind, my qualities, etc. But as my friend says, it is annoying to smoke with me. I can't chill and that's it. From then on, my self-esteem shakes, I isolate myself from everyone, I get depressed, I stay away from everyone and I hate the world and especially myself. To my only but boundless happiness - my friend causes him unimaginable pain when I tell him about my depressive thoughts, about my endless hatred for myself and .... I really don't want this to continue. I want to be normal. but when they can relax with ganja with friends. I feel different, crazy, isolated and an outsider in the worst sense of the word. My partner, my friends and many other people like me, appreciate me, respect me for myself, for my mind, my qualities, etc. But as my friend says, it is annoying to smoke with me. I can't chill and that's it. From then on, my self-esteem shakes, I isolate myself from everyone, I get depressed, I stay away from everyone and I hate the world and especially myself. To my only but boundless happiness - my friend causes him unimaginable pain when I tell him about my depressive thoughts, about my endless hatred for myself and .... I really don't want this to continue. I want to be normal. my friends and many other people like me, appreciate me, respect me for myself, for my mind, my qualities, etc. But as my friend says, it is annoying to smoke with me. I can't chill and that's it. From then on, my self-esteem shakes, I isolate myself from everyone, I get depressed, I stay away from everyone and I hate the world and especially myself. To my only but boundless happiness - my friend causes him unimaginable pain when I tell him about my depressive thoughts, about my endless hatred for myself and .... I really don't want this to continue. I want to be normal. my friends and many other people like me, appreciate me, respect me for myself, for my mind, my qualities, etc. But as my friend says, it is annoying to smoke with me. I can't chill and that's it. From then on, my self-esteem shakes, I isolate myself from everyone, I get depressed, I stay away from everyone and I hate the world and especially myself. To my only but boundless happiness - my friend causes him unimaginable pain when I tell him about my depressive thoughts, about my endless hatred for myself and .... I really don't want this to continue. I want to be normal. I isolate myself from everyone, I get depressed, I stay away from everyone and I hate the world and most of all myself. To my only but boundless happiness - my friend causes him unimaginable pain when I tell him about my depressive thoughts, about my endless hatred for myself and .... I really don't want this to continue. I want to be normal. I isolate myself from everyone, I get depressed, I stay away from everyone and I hate the world and most of all myself. To my only but boundless happiness - my friend causes him unimaginable pain when I tell him about my depressive thoughts, about my endless hatred for myself and .... I really don't want this to continue. I want to be normal.
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Then BE normal! Do not overlay grass as a "must" option. Just as you have polar disorder, and it generally leads to schizophrenia, so you need to stop it completely. The fact that your friend "feeds" you, telling you that he hardly likes you, speaks very well about him. Train, keep working and DO NOT drink, do not smoke !!! This is my advice to you, and this is advice from a person who has been through a lot, many, many things, and so on. I hate intoxicants the most.
Yes, I have the criterion of "normal".
You can't enjoy drugs, bro, it weathers the brain and dries out like raisins, it turns into pith, I'm telling you from personal experience :)
There are thousands of other ways to relax. Don't go against yourself. Your body only warns you that this is not for you. In addition, the brain itself remains largely a mystery to modern science. Who knows what effect the grass has on him in the long run ... So you better look for other ways to relax and don't take an example from the people you call 'normal'.
Probably because your body is trying to tell you it's poison and you shouldn't do it. Safe from ...
Don't smoke weed because everyone else smokes, and so does your friend. For example, I do not smoke cigarettes, and everyone around me smokes. Even my friend we live with. I am a former smoker, but since 7 years. I haven't touched a cigarette, I won't live my life because everyone else does! This is my advice. Otherwise, I can share my opinion on why this happens to you. It's just that your first few times were unpleasant, and you've been in a movie ever since. They, in general, the first time trying anything, is not very pleasant. After a while, the good thing happens, generally speaking, not about drugs, because I'm against them! Well, let me tell you what I think. After these first times, you felt naughty, who knows what was going on in your mind, you were scared, you didn't know what was happening to you, and how long it would last, would it stop at all ... The problem is, however, that you have not completely isolated this fear. The next time you smoke again, consciously or not, you remember when you felt sick. This way you adjust yourself, the next times to be like the previous ones. I, for example, smoke weed, but I am also a functioning member of society. I have nothing, I am neither dulled nor degraded, useless, I smoke and do nothing all day. I say this because of the opinion of most people. I don't mind what they think, but don't speak unprepared, because it's one thing to be clear about things, to read, at least, to know from your own experience, and to comment. It's another thing to blindly believe what society and television tell you, and to speak so aggressively towards a PLANT! So, back to me. :) I spend most of the evening smoking with my boyfriend, and that's how we spend our evenings, when we are at home. We cuddle, laugh, watch movies / series, play games, talk, have fun, play with the cat. Or, when I'm out with friends after a hard day's work, what's wrong with relaxing? Yes, yes. When I'm in a good mood, and I think, now that I've pulled a few times, I'm going to feel better, lighter. The problems will disappear for a while, and with my purest consciousness, I will enjoy life, the little things around me. We will tell each other funny stories, funny stories will happen, and we will laugh and be happy and calm. And so it happens. Exactly as I wrote it. However, if I'm in a bad mood, if I think about some negative things, then my "trip" will not be one of the coolest. What you think, usually, the grass triples it, and it becomes somehow, more tangible. That's what happens to you. Because before you smoke, you adjust yourself that you will be naughty. I, too, when I get drunk, but I am alone, my mind sharpens, I notice even the smallest details. I think about everything, and I think very deeply, too much, even. I unravel the smallest things, and following them, I get to the final picture ... By this I mean that it depends on what smoking will be with you, on a few things - on your thoughts and fears, on the people around you (or their absence), the situation, your mood, the weather, the problems and responsibilities, before or during it .... This is from me, but I want you to know that grass is not for everyone. Yes, it is not a drug, but it works differently on different people. Some people really have a very weak psyche, and once tried, they can not get enough of the feelings they experience while under the effect. Some go even harder. But this is not from marijuana itself, but from a person's psyche. I've been smoking for years, and I haven't taken anything stronger than marijuana, coffee, and alcohol. My friends too, but I have some who have passed. And from here, I should warn you about a synthetic type of marijuana, which is now very popular, under the name "tea". Never try! You don't know what this tea is made of, poisons, all kinds of chemicals, and other things are often put inside. If you smoke tea instead of ganja, it's no wonder that these things happen to you. Tea causes dizziness, nausea, much more dry mouth. Its effect is very scary, albeit shorter. Mixing with alcohol can take you to the hospital, and then you die and never wake up. In my city, there was such a case recently. A girl aged 15-16 before school, gathered with friends in them. They drank alcohol, smoked tea. As they were having fun, she collapsed on the ground, swallowed her tongue, and fell into a coma. They never managed to save her ... Tea also triggers all kinds of mental disorders, you know, because you mention bipolarity and schizophrenia. Even if you have been the best person, if you are exposed to this drug for a long time, consider that it will change you completely. An acquaintance had a relationship for about 5 years. They lived together, tried to have a baby, but the man smoked tea regularly. And I'm not talking about relaxing in the evening. He smoked, on average, 5-10 times a day. Could be more. He quit his job, lying to her that he had been laid off. She was lazy all day and got together with others like her, and they were just looking for a place to find money, to get drunk while she worked to support them both. And now, I guess, they broke up, this man, he's in jail now for theft, and why? Because he needed money to get drunk ... Conclusion: Tea ruins human destinies! I can talk a lot about the last example, but I don't, because it's very sad and scary. Yes, don't smoke tea! This is from me. I hope I was helpful. And don't be like the others if you don't smoke, and you don't like the effect, you don't smoke. No one is forcing you. You can have a great time, and if you don't smoke, you won't lag behind the others, don't worry. Do what you enjoy because you want to, not because someone does, and you want to be on par with them. Depravity And don't be like the others if you don't smoke, and you don't like the effect, you don't smoke. No one is forcing you. You can have a great time, and if you don't smoke, you won't lag behind the others, don't worry. Do what you enjoy because you want to, not because someone does, and you want to be on par with them. Depravity And don't be like the others if you don't smoke, and you don't like the effect, you don't smoke. No one is forcing you. You can have a great time, and if you don't smoke, you won't lag behind the others, don't worry. Do what you enjoy because you want to, not because someone does, and you want to be on par with them. Depravity
My friend didn't say he didn't like me and didn't feed me. What he said, he said out of concern and overlapped with the things my close friends said - that weed is not for me, that I should stop smoking. That I talk nonsense when I smoke, that it doesn't work well for me. My friend is not to blame, he is not a drunkard, but a mature man with an established profession and a stable life. It's not like young people who don't know what to do with their lives, where they gather every day to smoke, listen to silly music and think great. My current boyfriend, my exes and my girlfriends have never forced me to smoke - obviously !? On the contrary, they warned me, etc. But it came from me - I wanted to experience the euphoria of marijuana and I never felt it. I can't understand why I'm different. Not fair. It's really not - all my friends smoke weed and feel great, and in my mind - nightmares. The worst thing is that I sometimes have flashbacks, ie I feel the effects of marijuana in the same intense way in everyday life, when I have not approached grass. From there, a number of problems start in my head - I wonder if I'm going crazy because of the changes in my mood, my behavior and everything else. It's hard for me to enjoy the madness, obviously this distinguishes me from the consumers ... From the author. From there, a number of problems start in my head - I wonder if I'm going crazy because of the changes in my mood, my behavior and everything else. It's hard for me to enjoy the madness, obviously this distinguishes me from the consumers ... From the author. From then on, a number of problems start in my head - I wonder if I'm going crazy because of the changes in my mood, my behavior and everything else. It's hard for me to enjoy the madness, obviously this distinguishes me from the consumers ... From the author.
I have a similar experience. A lot of people around me smoke, I also tried 5-6 times with the boyfriend, without the boyfriend, with friends, blah-blah and the result was always the same: absolute inadequacy, I behave in my depressed thoughts, I feel bad about myself, from the world, of everything. In general, my usual melancholy mood sharpened terribly. And the others are happy, laughing, giggling, they are calm. In the end, I gave up trying and found that it was not for me. Gradually, I developed a strong intolerance for all kinds of drugs and the people who use them. I have the feeling that they themselves are not good enough / they can't have quality fun with their "true self" and that's why they need support. Experience it, it is not a pain to die. Cool people are cool without help.
What's the point of pretending to be something you're not? There is nothing wrong with weed, I know a few people who smoke to relax, in company, to have a party. But if you can't stand the grass, and instead of a relaxing and fun effect, you get sick of it, why bother? Why do you turn it into a fixed idea? I think it's to pretend to be a collar and it doesn't make sense.
Grass is not for everyone, and it is very important what kind of film you make after smoking and what kind of grass you smoke, smoke in company and when you are in a good mood. Yes, the grass is prone to paranoia. I have been using it every day for years, but I personally grow it.
Each herb acts differently. The weed is a nasty thing to stop smoking. It puts you in some movies and I'm constantly depressed. There's no point. Drink beer and you will be at their level there.
Hello, a 30-year-old man is writing to you. I've been smoking marijuana since 1999. Intermittently, of course. I stopped for 3 years, then for 7 months, etc. I will tell you briefly exactly and clearly why this happens - THE PROBLEM IS IN GMO preparations, which are grown 99% of the grass in BG. Let's not forget the lamps we look at, instead of the natural sun shining on it. It's like comparing a microwave and a live fire when cooking. I'll go back to the preparations - they are the reason you feel that way. Chemicals, because of which, according to doctors, in recent years many people become schizophrenics !!! The problem is serious, REALLY. My advice is not to smoke anymore, no matter how much you don't want to hear it, it's the truth. It's for your own good, I hope I helped you. I wish you all the best and good luck !!! :))))
Your friend is a dirty drug addict. I know him, his name is Venci and he is looking for less paihic people, naive and good, who he can manipulate. And you are just like that. I know you too and I will tell you something. He laughs behind your back and says he found a slave in your face. He doesn't deserve you because you're a good man, but a little naive.
Okay ... I don't smoke weed either! I don't love her, nothing like that happens to me, but I get up like a rag. That doesn't stop me from having fun with friends, going out every night and going to parties! Don't think that when you smoke, you are exceptional - it doesn't make you better or worse. Ah, the paranoia is from you, I've been taking hallucinogenic drugs and I've had terrible trips too. Just stop, smoke a little, take one or two puffs and don't bother. You don't have to be anxious to be cool!
You can't because your question is wrong. It must be "I want to enjoy the smoke", but obviously you don't like it, like any reasonable person. Otherwise, green grass brings pleasure to the eyes (brain) of people who know how to enjoy beauty. Those who smoke enjoy having done something forbidden that is valued in some circles, not so much by the smoking itself.
Thanks for the great comments, I will keep them in mind! And my partner's name is not Venci and most of all he is not a drug addict, he is rather an anti-drug addict. :) It's also too far from the nasty description I read. Obviously, I am not the only one with such experiences, as I read in the comments, I am not a precedent and coincidences are not missing, this is the only way to explain this misunderstanding. Let me just clarify something about my friend, because he seems to be destined for an antagonist in my story. The man I am in a relationship with at the moment is extremely caring and caring, attentive and dedicated to me. He never intended to affect me in any situation, but on the contrary, to protect me. Especially for the events with the smoking - ours and separately mine with friends. I can say that most of the facts and explanations I read here he himself explained to me, with care, attention and so on. n., definitely not with reproach, accusation or otherwise. Mostly "Why do you want to be like others? You are unique and different, and I don't want you to be like the others. If you were like the others, I wouldn't be with you. " This conversation we had (after I started the topic) made me think and stop imagining that there is a mistake in my brain that makes me not enjoy the grass and immerse myself and so on. It gave me ... strongly, confidence. Anyway, I am glad that there is one on a site where I can write anonymously and I will certainly exercise my right to remain anonymous. In the near future I intend to continue to stay away from the ganja, and who knows after a year or two, when I am over twenty - probably my psyche will be stronger, my self-esteem balanced and my fears faded, then it would be, say, reasonable to try again. Until then, I will rely on the hope of peace of mind and from time to time I will drink some beer with friends. :) Thanks and cheers. :)
I will not read the comments - I can repeat with someone. Look now, if you don't like smoking weed, you don't smoke - it's super stupid to do something just to prove yourself to some people. Whether harmful or helpful. My opinion is simple. On the question of why you feel sick from the grass - well, your body is simply not fit to accept the amounts that smoke in your environment and there is nothing shameful about that. And I'm 99% sure you have low blood pressure. From now on, when you smoke, you will pull only once a night, naaai - a lot 2 times, but not one after the other, so that various movies and dramas do not happen and so on. But only if you really want to, not to be part of the herd ... You have to develop an individuality in my opinion. Watch your interests and what fun you have - this "I want to be like others" will not take you further than severe depression. Start thinking more about your positive qualities and think about how many negative qualities the people around you have. You will see that you are super cool, and they are not as cool as they seem. Don't put them on a pedestal. Do not put anyone on a pedestal! Everyone has flaws. Head up and go ahead! (a valuable piece of advice - think about what you will make money from if you haven't started making money yet)
I am the same way. just terrible trips. well, get used to reality, don't be so immature. that's the truth about you - you can't smoke, period. and better yet, you don't have to file your brain. why don't you try to immerse yourself in art, to create? and it "lifts" you up, you also get to know yourself, and it's therapeutic. and from what you describe you have some problems that are good to solve. not through grass. just give up this movie. you will not be one of the people with happy trips. I recognize myself 100% in your words, but I'm not worried about that. better sober life. smoking is dumb. find no reason to get complex about not being able to smoke. rather it works on the problem of why you hate yourself so much.
Because you buy it from street dealers who mix it with all kinds of garbage to enhance the addictive and hallucinogenic effect. Pure cannabis oil has the ability to kill tumor cells and cure cancer.